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Friday, May 20, 2016

Dont worry, i'm still alive

Hi and hello!
Wow, i dont even remember about blog until just now.
I was thinking about sharing how bad my skin is, but i dont really wanna share with the world (my circle), so i remember this blog which no one ever read (except yani hahaha)

So straight to the point. My skin started acting up since last year i think (end of 2015), nothing major but it was still a nuisance.

Until recently ( last 2 mths) i got fungal infection, it was tinea. There was this round reddish dry skin on my left cheek that was so itchy, and it got worse after sweating. I dont know why i didnt check it up sooner, but i went to the gp and he gave me antifungal. And while at it, he saw i have several acnes, so he gave me antibiotics too. I took the pills for almost 2 mths.

While Alhamdulillah the tinea infection went off, i cant really say the same for my acne. I mean its not that bad, but still its there. And they keep coming too.

And i think around 3 weeks ago i noticed white patches on my forehead and cheek. Again, i dont know why i didnt go to the doc straightaway even i suspected panau at the first sight. I let it be until last monday a dsa ask whats wrong with my face. Then on tuesday a lect ask again, and shes worried that its the start of vitiligo. I mean; thats soooo not helpful! I was very scared i almost cry! So i went to a gp after class and thankfully she said it was only panau. Pheww

Nevertheless, panau took at least 1 to 2 weeks to go away, so i need to live with this now. Oh panau is another fungal infection, sth versicolor. So she gave me topical antifungal. And i apply it religiously in the hope it'll go sooner

So just now i was thinking, why cant i have normal looking skin? I mean, i understand the monthly pimple, but a whole gang? And whats with this fungi? Its not like i dont wash my face or change my pillowcase. Sibuk je nak naik kat muka orang.

It really affect my confidence level (not really, i still go out a lot lol). But i have low self esteem to begin with, and now having bad skin seems to bring me to another down. I wonder if strangers look at me, and think "kesian dia ada panau kat dahi" 😢.

But its okay. Its only superficial. At least all my forms and functions are still normal, Alhamdulillah.

So thats all i wanna luahkan today. Free2 i tulis lagi pasal kehidupan sebagai 4th year dental student.

Toodles!
Love; ndia :)