The Best of 2012

So here’s another series of the best of. And it was more like highlights of the year, because some of it is not really ‘best’. This year I’m going to arrange it in time wise, which is according to months of the events taking place. So here we go!

1. CNY

Most of us went home since it was 4 days holidays if I’m not mistaken. But me and adani decided to stay and went to KL to enjoy. So we went to Sunway Pyramid to try ice skating. And boy it was really really fun! I was quite good at it actually. And I bought my Charles and Keith purse. And I went home with a terrible ache on both my legs. But I think it was worth not going back home! And worth every single penny I spent travelling from Seremban to Subang Jaya.

2. The Moves

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I’m making any moves to get any guys I like. It’s because we moved from Balqis to Farabi, and then Farabi to Aisyah. And we do it all by ourselves. Imagine the things collected for 3 semesters, and we had to move them all by ourselves. Imagine the proud I felt. And the muscle spasm K

3. Tutors High Tea

And they made me a Math HL tutor. For real? So I tutored my friends, and then I got only 5 for my final. Really? But the highlight is I was invited for the high tea, where we can eat all we want. It was held at the hotel, and most of my friends were there so it was really nice. And the food is good.

4. Intensive Revision Program (IRP)

Or better known as RIP since we all felt dead during these few weeks! Woke up in the morning to study and in the evening study some more until night come only to study again. But why it was the highlight? Because the whole batch sat in the hall, and I actually had an awesome study group mates, and the Maths study group was really rocking my socks. And they provided biscuits and tea, which was really really nice, and kind of thoughtful.

5. IB Final Exam

This had to be the biggest exam in my life ever! I mean, 2 years struggling with IB, and it finally came to an end. Of course I was freaked out, I was nervous as hell. But I went through it, and we all went through it actually. The most noticeable thing was that I sat beside Adl, the genius boy. And of course it put extra pressure on me seeing him answering the entire Maths question that I left. But nevermind that. And another point worth remembering was the business students had 1 and only 1 paper left due Monday, where all the other non-business students had already celebrated their independence day. But we went through it too! Such a strong army aren’t we?

6. IB Grand Dinner

This has to be the biggest event, eh no scratch that, the 2^nd biggest event of the year. It was a night where it is accepted to wear 4 inch high heels and lots of makeup. So of course it made its way through my list. Thinking back, the dinner itself was nothing really. The food was okay, the performance yeah not bad, and then nothing. What I liked most was the fact that I get to take pictures with almost everyone, even ones that I do not really know! And oh we got such a cute door gift; a charm bracelet with our initials on it. It was really personal.

7. BTN

Really ndia? BTN? Well it was TOTALLY not the best of this year, but after grand dinner we all went home, and here we met again. And probably for the last time, for some of us. And it was nice meeting up with your friends, hiking and walking through the forest, sitting and sleeping in the classroom and all those stuffs.

8. BBQ/ Birthday Party

It was a combine event to celebrate my upcoming birthday and a BBQ for the USM girls that came to Kelantan. We ate lots of seafood and we went to play by the beach at 10pm, then we get some sleep. The next day we went to Rantau Panjang to do some shopping and we made a stop at Husni’s house. Did I already mention the handsome brother of hers? He is handsome, really. Anyway, we went to the masjid because it was some important night, and after that we went bowling. And I had to drive fast to get us in time to the bus station. Man it was crazy!

9. IB Result and Graduation Party

IB results were out the day before my birthday, so it could make or break my day, and you could understand my tension. But Alhamdulillah I scored pretty well and thus it really made my day J. The grad party was okay because we get to meet our friends for the last time (for some that won’t fly or that will go to other part of the world), the food was nice, and the best was because my dad and mum were there too. And actually the journey to and fro was exciting because I got to drive the Pajero Sport to 140km/hr wuhoooo!

10. Trip to KL with Adani

We actually planned to go enjoy all the rides at Genting Highlands Theme Park but somehow it was inconvenient thus we decided to stay at Yani’s house and went to Sunway Lagoon, One Utama and Midvalley to treat ourselves for our excellent results. I bought my Charles and Keith handbag at One Utama, and my 4 inch wedges. Why didn’t I bring that wedges to Manipal?!

11. Fly

September came and it was time for us to fly to India. Gosh it’s really happening. I’m leaving my family and friends behind to pursue my dream, to become a dentist. At the airport I see my friends cried hugging their families, but me, I didn’t cry at all, not a single drop of tear. And I was so proud of myself because I was such a cry baby, but I didn’t cry at that time. And then arriving India, I felt nothing. Maybe I was a little bit disappointed to come to such a less-developed country, but still I didn’t cry. I remember crying when unpacking, and that’s because I was stressed with something.

12. The Highlights in India

- went to Mangalore for the 1^st time and spent Rs5000 (RM300). I bought my Issey Miyake Pleats Please perfume.

- lower braces : 13^th Oct

- upper braces: 17^th Nov

- Sky Lantern Project. This is the 1^st and maybe the last time I ever lighted and released a lantern to the sky. It was really beautiful seeing all these lighted lanterns in the dark sky.

- fireworks: 13^th Nov. The fireworks were actually to celebrate Diivali, and it was a grand one.

- a visit from USM girls: 24^th to 26^th Nov. We just finished our 1^st block and they came and we were really enjoying our weekend, going to Mangalore again, eating at Asian Delight and just lepak-ing with Adani like it was old time :’)

13. Note 2!

I bought my new phone, Galaxy Note 2 not the less!

so i think that's all for 2012. a lot of things had happened in this year, making me confused at times that it was still this year i graduated IB. this year had been both good and bad, and i pray for the upcoming years to be better than this, amiin.
till then, toodles!

love;

ndia :)

The state of hearts

Recently i found myself unable to sleep. I cant focus in class.
I think i might be falling for someone.
When you think you like someone,you constantly think about them.
You hate the other girls who came to talk to them. You hate when they are being friendly with someone other than you. You hate when they prefer to talk to someone else than you.
Even though they are not yours at all,to begin with.
I watched a lot of movies. And i have experiences.

I know how it felt to miss a chance. You know,you like them but they dont like you or they dont know or they are unavailable. Then you move on and then bam!they like you.
I know how it felt to like someone for 3 years and they dont know at all.
I know how it felt to like someone years before they like me back.
And there are also cases where you are friends with them. Then you start to like them. Then after sometime you realize you dont like them anymore. So you talk less and less with them and finally you become strangers. Or it could be you admit to them and they dont feel the same way. And somehow the friendship ended.

And i've been there,done that. So i dont wanna do the same mistakes or whatever it is that make me lose the person i might love or lose the friend i already have.

At times i ask my heart. Do i like this person enough to marry him? Do i see myself 15 years from now,with kids and grandkids with this man?
Do i like everything about him and can i accept all his weaknesses?
And always, Always my heart will say no.
But you never know right?
And so how do i know whether this man is enough for me?
How do i know i wont find someone better?
And if i dont like him enough,then why do i always think about him?
Why am i nervous everytime he comes near?
Why cant i focus in class anymore?
Whats wrong.

I never like liking someone. Being in love with someone who loves you is completely a different story.
But liking someone who might or might not likes you back is painful.
Sometimes i feel like going up to him and just say that i like him.
But that will result in a super awkward situation.
Even if he likes me back. It will still be awkward.
What worse is he dont like me. And then we cant be normal again.
So you see,im stuck.

I know some would argue that if you never ask you never know.
Im not saying i dont believe in girls making the first move.
But to make the first move and to risk a friendship is not something i look forward to do.

I would just LOVE to let this go and dont think about this.
The problem is,it is affecting my studies.
And you dont mess with my studies.
Therefore i have to figure out a way to get this thing out of my sytem.

Being friends with someone you like,
It could go two ways;
To take it another step forward.
Or to reverse.

And thats the state of my heart.

Toodles.

Love,
ndia :/

When not very old friends meet

Last week our kms friends from usm-kle gave us a visit. It was exciting,because one of them is my bff. So we didnt do nothing much,first evening we went to the great end point,that night we went to asian delight to eat some malaysian food and roti canai. The next day we went to mangalore,me adani alia and amy went to watch breaking dawn part 2. It was ah-ma-zing!! Didnt do much shopping though.
Then that night me and adani went for a dinner with kdin and dinie afiq. It was fun catching up,or seeing people catching up. And the next day we have classes,so i dont know what they did. The night came to bid farewell, and their trip ended. And my kms time ended as well. It was kinda sad to be alone again,in my room i meant. But i get used to it.
So i'll just upload some pictures.

Oh did i already tell that i bought a new phone? Note 2 it is. And in fact i'm blogging from this phone muehehe.

I think that might be all for today.
Toodles everyone.

Love,
Ndia :)

Manipal!

OMG i'm actually alive!
haha.
okay hye bloggers and bloggy.
remember i told you i will write when i get the internet connection?
well, actually i did have internet connection,
through the phone.
tapi phone i phone murah2 je, so tak mampu nak ber-blog hehe.
nevertheless, this is my story! hew hew hew

okay so since dah 3 minggu duk sini, gua rasa gua dah lupa pengalaman flight tu.
oh yg paling gua ingat is, gua tak nangis tau waktu fly tu.
macam WOW. how could a crybaby didnt cry at all?
tapi tu lah.
then, naik flight biasa2 je.
geram sebab banyak kali gila transit. dah lah asyik delay.
bayangkan seharian semalaman tak mandi. mana tak panas.
and dah sampai mangalore tu kena naik bas for one and half hour pulak.
tapi tak pe. sampai hostel gua cantik. hehe.
taaaaappiii gua sorang2 duk tingkat 11 :(
takpe2. gua tabah.

then masuk kelas. mostly bdk kms and private students -chinese and indians
ada 7 ketul bdk2 ktt. 29 org melayu, the rest non-malay
and dlm kelas sampai skrg xberkawan sgt lg dgn diorg.
slowly progressing. kot.
and lecturers diorang cakap laju nak mampus!
ada yang berbisik sorg2 pon ada.
tapi gua amazed lah, gua xbanyak problem dgn slang diorang.
cuma ada lah beberapa patah dalam sehari yang bila dia ckp, ktorg hik3.

the place?
it's okay, if you were expecting worse.
but if you were expecting grand places, then you will get depressed.
masalah utama gua adalah ketiadaan shopping mall.
mak gua gembira tak ada shopping mall, jimat duit sket. haha.
manipal nie sebuah perkampungan tau,
where you can see cows and dogs everywhere.
and to make things worse, blkg hostel ktorg nie tgh construction.
mmg tak grand langsung lah.
it's like going back to the past.
bangunan yg paling cantik kat sini adalah admin building, MARENA sports complex and our hostels.
yg lain buruk2 je. klu kat malaysia mmg bangunan terbiar.
tapi kat sini tu bangunan yg berpenghuni..
kesian aku tengok diorang huhu.

the food?
edible, i would say.
kat sini ramai foreigners, Malaysians to be exact.
so locals jual makanan pon, makanan malaysia
tp rasa dia lain sket lah.
ada sesetengah kedai, rasa dia sangat2 malaysian.
hilang sket homesick bila makan makanan malaysian nie.
tapi gua tak puas hati tak dapat makan daging haha.
aitu dah makan mutton, adik beradik daging lah tu.
makanan halal banyak sini, and kalau ragu2 beli je yg vegetarians punya.
insyaAllah selamat.

oh oh, yang paling best kat sini is their traffic.
like AH-MA-ZING!
please read it in a sarcastic tone.
kalau nak lintas jalan tu, tak kena hon memang tak sah!
hon tu ibarat benda wajib diorang.
nak overtake kena hon, nak belok kiri hon, kanan hon, apa apa pon hon lah!
and diorang nie macam ikut suka je nak overtake macam mana.
sebelah kiri boleh, sebelah kanan boleh. ikot atas pon boleh!
kat sini teksi dia dipanggil auto, rupanya macam tut-tut indonesia tu.
best tau naik benda alah tu, gua suka. hik3.

overall tu je lah boleh cakap dulu.
nanti kalau gua dah beli phone canggih canggih, camera lawa,
boleh lah gua upload gambar banyak2. hehe.

esok cuti, that's why malam nie gua sempat update blog haha.
malam nie malas gila.
tapi tak boleh malas lama-lama, sebab kat sini kena hardworking dari awal
huhu.
baiklah. gua out dulu.
till then, toodles!

love,

ndia :)

are you ready for it?

salam everyone.

first time aku nampak this picture is kat facebook. and all i can think is IB. i recently graduated, with 40 points you'alls. dapat rm200 lagi, trophy lagi. aku xamek gmbar pon trophy, nevermind. next time je lar.

so what i want to say is i did it. macam tak percaya yang aku memang dah betul2 habis this IB stage in my life. dah nak masuk university betul dah nie.

i really really wanted to thanks these few people that helped me went through IB (ceeh bajet nak bagi ucapan je)

1] Ashikin Thajuddin

siapa tak kenal shikin memang bukan budak KMS. haha. aku rasa aku dah tulis pasal shikin, even in my 1st sem kan? because she really really helped me in my studies. memang sometimes ada perselisihan, tapi biasalah, adat berkawan. sedih gila rasa sebab lepas nie dia pergi UK, so nak jumpa lagi tu tak tau bila :( i just pray the best for her.

2] Adani and 3] Alyani

dulu aku cakap adani is like my reality check kan? takde lar sgt. in fact, klu pergi shopping dgn dia lagi byk barang aku beli. haha. tapi aku rasa she's on of the best friend i ever found. like, bila aku tension2 pasal IB nie, aku selalu mengarut nak berhenti study kawen kat Thailand blablabla, dia mesti ada comforting words for me. this one mesej aku simpan, dia tulis 'kau nampak cun bila struggling time study. image orang study suits you well' hahaha terguling2 aku baca. but still, it lighten my mood. so thanks for that.

yanie pulak. well mmg dia one of the baik-est person i ever found. kalau aku nak nangis memang aku pergi kat dia, sebab..entah. it feels right. maybe dia ada sifat2 keibuan tu, that's why senang aku open up kat dia. and dia boleh bagi ceramah agama sket2, hik3. and out of all, yanie je yg akan pergi Manipal dgn aku, Adani pergi USM-KLE. so aku sedih jgk lar kejap lagi mesti renggang dgn Adani, but life goes on eh?

4] Mummy and Papa

well kalau bukan sebab diorang memang dah lama aku berhenti belajar and elope (walau takde calon haha). i am proud to be their daughter, so i want to make them proud being my parents. and i am thankful and grateful to be blessed with such a great pair of parents. kadang-kadang bila tengok kawan2, ada yg parents bercerai, ada yg kematian ayah/mak, ada yg parents tak support diorang, macam2. and waktu tu aku sangat2 bersyukur sebab aku still ada mak bapak yg sihat and take great care of me. maybe i don't always say this to them, but thanks a lot mummy and papa :')

know whats coming for me this sunday? my flight to India. dude, that's like 5 days away. am I ready for this? am I ready to start facing another set of challenges studying? am I ready to be somewhere else, somewhere far away from home? am I ready to make new friends? am I ready at all?

there's only one way to find out. be there.

in the mean time, aku tak buat apa-apa yang bermanfaat pon. macam mana lar nak jadi ready haha. tapi xpe, sediakan mental dan fizikal dulu. insyaAllah, kalau aku mampu menghadapi dugaan belajar IB, aku pasti mampu amek course dentistry nie. amiin.

dah lar. sampai sini dulu. nanti bila dah sampai manipal and ada internet connection, i'll update.

till then, toodles.

love,

ndia :)

happy almost raya day!

assalamualaikum!
it's been a really long time since i last wrote, hasn't it?
ramadhan's almost over,
raya is nearer,
means that i'm just one step away from india.
whoa! that's scary actually

and masa bulan puasa nie dah 2 kali aku turun naik kl.
nak settlekan borang mara and visa
and sambil2 shopping.
tak sangka aku mampu travel bulan puasa.
dah lar pergi semalam balik malam esok.
tabah gila. haha

so Alhamdulillah borang mara dah settle.
visa dah buat,
and esok should sampai rumah aku.
so tinggal barang je lar nak pack2

raya? 
yeah aku nak pastikan raya tahun nie meriah
sebab taun depan entah sempat ke tidak beraya
lagipon. kan dah nak fly. 
nak lar jumpa kawan2 dulu ye tak?
so nanti open house aku nak jemput semua kawan musuh exbf segala bagai
hahah
aku plan nak buat red velvet cake tahun nie
bosan asyik kek cokelat je.

lagi?
not much happening.
serious aku membazir masa gila
kalau aku kerja pon kaya
tapi nak buat macam mana.
xpe lar.
waktu nie lar aku rehat2 tido2 buang masa
nanti kat manipal kena serious balik
kan nak dapat dean's list
hik3.

so baju raya dah lama siap.
ada 2 pasang je pon.
baju grad esok amek.
harap2 cantik. hik3.
tudung semua dah siap.
kasut and beg baru pon ada!
hahaha raya sakan aku.

oh sementara aku dah menulis nie.
nanti 25th ada orientation kat melaka.
30th grad kat seremban
and 5th meeting mara kat kl.
like wth?
xboleh ke korang ejas dekat2 sket
memang lar aku suka berulang alik byk kali nie
tp xpe.
between orientation n grad tu mmg aku dah pergi
and myb stay kat kl or somewhere dekat2
yg meeting mara tu menyusahkan
dah lar KALAULAH 9,9 fly
xke susah aku setiap minggu turun kl
aisshh.
xpe lar.
harap2 Allah permudahkan urusan aku.

okay i think that's all for now
nak pergi sambung makan aiskrim
weee :B

toodles!

love;

ndia :)

IB result

wohooooo.
result sepatutnya tahu malam nie.
gua ingt nak cek lambat2 sket.
tapi rupanya waktu gua rehat2 semalam dinie afiq call
"kau macam mana?"
nampak sgt dia dah tahu result.
dia lepas pointer.
so aku apa lg. mesti lar berdebar gila.
aku terus berdebar2
tapi tak pasti nak call tice ke x,
takut kang call2 result tak lawa.
tapi lepas beberapa minit aku pon call.
cikgu nie baru blk kursus, tak tau.
cikgu nie pulak tau result bio je.
cikgu nie baru lar tau each subject, tu pon eng xtau lg.
then aku msj lar paklan, baru lar tahu total point.
Alhamdulillah, 40 kau!
haha. aku macam x expect jgk.
i mean, aku mimpi dapat 38. hik3.
then pg td mentor aku call,
dia cakap each subject aku.
English SL - 7
Malay -7
Business - 7
Chemistry - 7
Biology - 6
Math HL - 5
EE+TOK - 1

hebat jugak aku kan? haha
syukran ya Allah.
tapi agak sedih lar sebab math 5 je,
aku bajet boleh lar 6 kot.
tapi bio dpt 6, hebat. biasa nya 5 je. haha
and chem dpt 7, walau ia aku byk problem haritu.
malay pon 7. cikgu sekolah menengah aku mesti hairan
actually aku dah lupa esei apa lar aku buat haritu. haha
lepas tu english pon 7. padahal essay kemain panjang merapu pasal bapak aku.
dah lar cerita rekaan. hah nampak sgt mat salleh tu percaya.
HAHAHA
ee and tok alhamdulillah at least ada jgk 1 markah.
ee and tok both dpt c.
and aku pon tak berharap sgt dgn depa nie.
ee aku semua dah tau apa nasib. haha
tok aku mmg takde idea.
so boleh tahan lar 1 markah tu.

macam mana aku dpt tau semua even result xkeluar lagi?
haaa nie lar berkat usaha gigih call semua cikgu. haha
Alhamdulillah syukur sgt2.
sekarang boleh berangan pergi india dah.
oh oh, sekarang boleh semangat sket baca anatomy,
HAHAHA.

congrats utk semua kawan2 yang lepas pointer.
ramai jgk dpt tinggi2 nie.
bagus betul diorang.
tapi dgr khabar 13 xlepas.
insyaAllah yg xlepas tu dpt buat rayuan,
still boleh fly.

erm, maknanya beraya sakan aku tahun nie.
hik3.
kbye.

love;

ndia :)

results

hye.
so today is 27th june.
and result is due on 6th july.
like it is one week away.
aargghhh.
cuak gila.
kadang2 kalau tak pikir okay lar sket.
tak rasa apa.
tapi bila ingat tu. fuish takut doe.
anyway aku ckp kat abz jgn pikir
abz ckp pikir xpikir still akan dpt result.
tapi kalau kita tak pikir,
at least xde lar membazir adrenaline kan?
haha.
anyway.
skrg boleh berdoa je lar biar result elok.

oh cuti dah sebulan aku tak buat apa pon.
sepatutnya aku mntak kerja
tapi dah lambat.
and aku malas kerja musim puasa. haha
travel pon tak lagi. aish.
after result kalau result cantik insyaAllah pergi lar genting kot.

dah jum doakan aku.
k toodles!

love,

ndia :)

dear you

Dear you,

I don't know whether it's your specs, or your innocent look. Either way you look so cute.

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

I have decided. You look better with your specs on. Seriously, you look better and better every passing day.

I think I'm falling for you.

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

Even when you look serious, you still catches my eyes. Or maybe the class is so boring that I have to keep glancing at you to keep awake.

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

You look cute just now when you focus on the facilitator. And now you look cute again. I wish you will notice me and give me your number. Or better yet, your heart.

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

You always look handsome and cute, whatever you do. Just now I caught you looking at me. Are you starting to notice me?

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

I am so excited to talk to you today. At the same time, I am sad for tomorrow.

Regards, 

Me

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Dear you,

Why do you have to look extra handsome today if you are just going to ignore me?

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

I saw you on the bus. I wanted to wave goodbye, but you wasn't looking. Maybe you didn't like goodbye, the same with me. Whatever it is, hope you the best in life and until we meet again.

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

It's so sad to wait here while I know you are already somewhere else. But I know we will meet again someday.

Regards,

Me

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Dear you,

After I went shopping, I have stopped thinking about you at all. So until we meet again.

Regards,

Me.

BTN

i think it's about one week after BTN.
what i can say is, it's only cool because we get to meet our friends again.
and the sesi riadah is cool, especially the mendaki bukit part.
eventhough is it not challenging at all, but its nice.

then the classes are so boring that i slept.
okay i only slept during 1 class, while adl slept throughout the classes.
and it was so funny watching him slept that i was wide awake.
haha

then what else? i think the place is okay,
i kinda like the place eventhough it is in ulu.
but the facilities are usable, so that's cool.
oh i thing that i hate is baju susah nak kering.
well duduk tepi hutan tebal memang lar xpanas sangat.

the jurulatih are okay,
they were not mean like the plkn punya jurulatih.
but adani said they recently change the style cause the garang2 style is not suitable.
duh!

i got this idea at BTN. next post.

about my holiday? it's not bad, yet.
i got to do some cooking,
some baking,
go here and there,
read and watch something
and sleep early.
and i thought about sleeping after this.

oh just now i took aisyah, her mom and adani round-round kb.
haha we just go to places to eat!
anyway it was kinda fun.

till then, goodnite.

love;

ndia :)

feels like old time.

hey.
just now i went out with syafa' and mcjue and saffwan.
it was nice. actually it was kinda awesome. okay no it was nice.
we talked, we caught-up. and it really feels like old time.
guess we didn't change much. huh.
i know deep down in my heart, the old me is still here.
i'm just bettering myself, not being someone else.
so when i'm with them, and only them not strangers, it feels normal.
like old normal. not now normal.
but glad to know that i have a life beyond KMS.

okay to be honest, we changed. but we acted like we are just how we used to be.
and maybe i kinda like it.
knowing that we still have something from the past,
something we can hold on to.
the feelings that you get from that..
i don't know.
i'm just grateful maybe.
maybe we are old enough to let go of the high school grunges and histories.
but not old enough to stop messing around. haha we like that.
we talked nonsense.

okay to be honest again, maybe because jue was there.
she was the one to talk non-stop
and she brought us together.
maybe if she's not there, i don't know what to say.
or maybe i do.
i am trying to become friendlier. heh

okay anyway, i had finished reading Have A Little Faith by Mitch Albom.
it was really moving.
i cried after the Reb died,
but i think that book was more suitable for people who lack faiths.
i have, insyaAllah, a strong faith in my religion.
so some of the stories can't apply to me.
but nevertheless, the story was something.
it teaches me a lot,
like be nice to others even though they are not being nice to you.
and what makes it more beautiful is that it was a true story.
and, no offense, but i know why Christians can attract more followers than Islams.
because they are being nice to people, who might not be Christians at all.
and we as Muslims, we didn't really practice that.
and that was suppose to be one of the things we do, because Islams teaches us to be kind.
but we didn't do that, and people of other religion misinterpret Islam.
that's why they say, blame the people but not the religion.

now i'm reading the 6th book of Skulduggery Pleasant, Death Bringer.
i think this is the only fantasy book, aside Twilight saga, that i follow.
Derek Landy is an awesome writer.
he sure has a good sense of humor, and he describes the events very vividly.
and not to forget he put some love stories in his stories.
and that't what makes him cool.

so i'm going to take the bus tomorrow night.
can't believe i have to take the bus again,
i don't really like taking the bus.
i'm rambling again.
i'm taking the bus to seremban for BTN.
i can't really say how i'm feeling about this BTN thing.
maybe i'm neutral.
i'm not really looking forward to it,
i'm not really hating it. just neutral.
wait and see.

maybe that's all for tonight.
i'll write again after BTN.
so toodles!

p/s: i graduated IB. like how cool is that?

love;

ndia  :)

goodbye IB. goodbye KMS.

hye.

I can't believe that it's over. my never ending IB program had actually ended. how is that possible?
I can say I'm relieved, ecstatic in fact, but somehow, deep in my heart I felt sad.
two years I spent here, two years. sometimes I felt two years is long, but now two years had gone by. there are just lots and lots of good memories I made here, good and bad. but looking back, it all had been good to me.

people left KMS two days ago, but I'm still here waiting for my parents. I didn't really mind though, I kinda like being in KMS. sure I whined sometimes, I felt suffocated sometimes, I cried sometimes, but this is my life. I was like, attached to KMS. I don't know what do I do after I leave KMS. this is the life I know. get up in the morning, went to class, study in the evening, study at night, then sleep. that's my life. studying during the weekend. studying during the holidays. like, what am I supposed to do after this? *sigh*

I'm gonna miss KMS. I'm gonna miss the hostel (minus the toilet. urgh i hate the toilet). I'm gonna miss my friends. I'm gonna miss ds. I'm gonna miss peeping the boys playing soccer in the evening. I'm gonna miss walking to the Terminal One.I'm gonna miss IB (yeaahh i don't think so). I'm gonna miss these all. but life goes on right? so brave yourself nadia to the next stage of life.

lemme talk about IB.
you know nothing about IB when they offer you the program. you went there, do the IB program and gain something on your way. you hated the IB program, you regretted ever accepting the offer. you cried a lot due to the toughness of IB. you whined, you complained, you threaten to drop IB program and elope instead. sometimes you enjoy IB, especially the CAS program. you get to go here and there, meet new friends and try new things.then after several times, you acclimatized to it. you feel nothing anymore. but then comes the IRP program. you get tired and sleep all night long, you wake up the next day just to do the same thing. then comes the trial. you only have one week exam for all six subjects with at least 2 papers per subject. you can't answer the questions, you get out of hall and cried. the next day was the same thing. then comes the result, you cried again. then it was only a few days left for the real IB final exam. you prayed hard so you get to answer the questions. you go into the hall, answer the questions and you go out without feeling anything.after the exam ended, you have your grand dinner. you dress up, take a lot of pictures and went home. that's IB, from my point of view.

people I know from KMS, will i ever meet them again. I mean some of them yes, I'm gonna meet them at manipal. but the rest? I don't know. I know I said I felt sad, but there's no tears to it. erm I wonder why.

so my plan for the 3 months holidays?
1) travel around Malaysia. but i'm not sure about this yet
2) learn how to cook. like seriously nadia.
3) be a driver. that's for sure.
4) finish all my novels.

so basically that's all.

you know what? I'm gonna stop now. maybe after leaving KMS will i cry.
anyway, adios amigos. thanks for all the sweet memories.
toodles! :)

love;

ndia :)

macaroni.

we had some macaroni treats tonight.
taste good, but some of us only get a little and some don't get at all.
tired, write later.

p/s: the hunger game was super cool! mirror mirror was super cute!

till then, toodles.

eh wait, trial exam next week. final exam 3 weeks later. pray for me.
toodles :)

love;

ndia :)

cuti.

cuti seminggu nie berlalu pantas. sangat pantas.
hari jumaat; aku balik dan terus ke rumah pantai. buat bbq sampai malam dan tidur.
hari sabtu; bangun lewat dan balik rumah. petang tengok cerita hindustan. malam demam.
hari ahad; masih demam sampai malam. tak buat apa-apa sepanjang hari.
hari isnin; pagi study dan tidur. petang ke kbmall, rumah aa dan tutti frutti.
hari selasa; pagi library dan petang tesco.
hari rabu; pagi mengurut dan petang renew license.
hari khamis; pagi kenduri dan petang keluar cari dress. malam tulis blog.

see, tak sempat aku nak buat apa-apa kan? masa berjalan sangat cepat.study tak sempat pon, dan kalau banyak masa pon aku masih malas.
aku tak tau nak buat macam mana, tak pernah ada mood nak study. study kejap2 dah bosan, mengantuk, hilang fokus dan sebagainya.

lagi satu masalah aku, aku sibuk cari baju untuk dinner bulan 5 nie. kalau tak cari sekarang nanti tak sempat, then takkan aku nak pakai baju kurung kut?
aku search internet ada yang berkenan, tapi oversea punya lar. memang tak mampu lar.
then online blogshop pon okay, tapi tunjuk kat mummy tadi dia kata tak lawa pulak. aish.
ada aku pergi kedai tu aku rasa lawa tau, tapi tengok2 salesgirl tu dah pakai. memang cilakak jugak lar aku rasa kan, patut macam tak nak jual pon. damn.

waktu waktu cuti macam nie lar sesuai untuk mengungkit kembali kisah silam, bila masing-masing di sini. dan kisah silam mencari aku, bukan sebaliknya.
aku pon dah tak tahu nak cakap macam mana, memang aku dah tak nak. aku memang rasa tak ada faedah dan manfaat diteruskan, tapi bila kesunyian, peluang dicari, kesempatan diambil.akhirnya hati terluka.
tak, aku dah tahu peraturan permainan ini, ibarat aku mempunyai tiga nyawa, satu telah hilang dan tinggal dua lagi. ibarat musim cuti aku telah mempertaruhkan nyawa kedua, dan aku sendiri tidak pasti adakah nyawa itu telah hilang atau masih ada.
tapi yang paling penting, permainan ini melibatkan lebih dari dua pemain, dan aku, aku yang harus memastikan nyawa-nyawa semua pemain masih ada.
kenapa? kenapa aku?
kerana aku pernah hilang satu nyawa itu, dan aku rasa tidak perlu untuk pemain lain turut merasai perasaan itu.
tapi kenapa aku masih bermain permainan ini? kenapa?
kerana aku bosan. kerana aku suka mengambil kesempatan. kerana aku tidak berniat untuk menggunakan nyawa itu, tidak. aku hanya mahu bermain. bermain ketika cuti. bermain untuk kesekian kali.
kerana pemain utama sudah menarik diri. permainan sudah tamat.
sehingga pusingan seterusnya dibuka. dan pusingan seterusnya entah bila akan dibuka. atau mungkin tidak akan dibuka lagi.
lebih baik jika tidak dibuka lagi. kerana kisah silam patut kekal sebagai kisah silam.
"if it doesn't work out for the first time, what makes you think it will for the second time?"

until then, toodles!

love,

ndia :)

p/s: i might hurt you a lot, but believe me, you hurt lots of other people,including me,hard.

it's maaarrchhh!

hello.
dah lama gila kut tak tulis blog, last post is 19 february.
and now it's 7th march. lama lar tu.
aku dari duk farabi dah pindah blok aisyah pon.
tingkat paling tinggi pulak tu.
penat tu penat, tapi bila dah ada kat atas nie okay je.
view cantik, sejuk, selesa lar jugak.
cuma kau tension gila sebab air macam segan-segan nak kuar.
bak kata diorang, mandi tu macam nak melekat kat dinding je.
tapi sabar je lar, lama-lama okay kut air.

then apa lagi story mory ek?
aku rasa dalam sebulan nie banyak lar jugak berlaku.
okay fine takde lar banyak mana pon.

update, sekarang dah start IRP.
dia macam intensive revision program, okay bukan lar macam, mmg IRP stands for that.
tapi aku lebih rasa macam RIP lar.
tak tak, tak kena jugak.
aku tak rest in peace pon, cuma macam mati laaa.
entah lar labu, aku rasa bagus ada benda nie.
at least memang masa nie aku study.
tapi study mudy nie tak boleh paksa-paksa.
kalau dah otak tepu sumbat apa pon tak masuk kan?
so tu yang aku tension sket.
tapi i will try to adapt myself.

then jumaat nie baliiikk!!
my God can't wait.
memang aku tak saba gilaa lar,
aku rasa i really need this break.
entah lar, lepas everything that happened,
i really need to get away from KMS.
sebenarnya takde masalah apa pon,
masalah dah settle kut.
tapi aku nak balik and reset my mind and then come back to study hard again.

and counting from today, i have 57 days until IB final exam.
and 25 days until trial.

and i still blog. *sigh*

anyway, just pray for my final exam.
hope to nail this one.

till then, toodles :)

tulis tangan: jodoh jangka masa

"Amy, mamat hip hop kat tuisyen aku handsome gilaaa doe! Tapi aku tak kenal pon siapa dia tu."
"Kau nie Sara, tu pon susah. Tanya je lar."
Perjalanan Sara ke kantin terhenti. Amy hairan.
"Amy Amy! Tu lar mamat hip hop tu! Kenapa aku tak tau dia sekolah kita? Dem!"
"Sara. Tu boyfriend sepupu aku lar, nama dia Adam, budak form 3."
"Oh."

---
2 tahun kemudian

"Panas nyaaa hari nie. Matahari nak je tegak atas kepala" renyek Sara.
"Tu lar tanda tak berkat kita ponteng hari sukan. Hahaha" balas Amy.
"Eleh. Habis tu pergi sukan tengah padang tu pon, matahari terik jugak. Baik kita berambus."
"Jap jap Sara. Bukan ke kita kenal mamat naik motor tadi?"
Dan kebetulannya pulak mamat tu nak je berhenti dan pusing pandang minah dua orang nie. Paling tak sangka mamat tu U-turn motor dia dan menghampiri Amy dan Sara.

"Sekolah Maher dulu kan?" Sara bertanya kat mamat tu.
"A'ah. Dah nampak budak Maher tadi, tapi ingat malas nak tegur. Tapi tak pe lar, dah korang cam tu."
"Dari mana nie? Pindah sekolah eh?" Amy pulak tanya. Dah macam nak buat soal siasat jugak dah.
"Yup. Saja nak tukar sekolah, bosan. Korang nie ponteng pergi mana? Ada apa kat Maher hari nie?" mamat tu pulak tanya.
"Hari sukan. Pergi Billion, makan-makan." Sara balas dengan senyuman.
Mereka berbual panjang. Seperti dah lama kenal. Seperti hati masing-masing senang dengan satu sama lain.

"Eh saya ada extra class kejap lagi. Lain kali kita borak lagi nye. Annnnnddd awak, nak number awak." mamat tu cakap sambil pandang tepat mata Sara.
"Oh." Sara senyum.

Mamat tu lar mamat hip hop Sara dulu.

---

tulis tangan: friend zone

"dia pandang aku lagi lar weyh, apahal nie. nie yang aku tak puas hati nie" bebel Maya.

"alaaa, rileks lar. dia memang macam tu. aku pon hairan dulu, tapi lama-lama biasa lar tu." balas kawan Maya, Tasha.

subjek yang dibualkan mereka adalah mengenai mamat dalam kelas mereka, Ariz namanya. muka boleh tahan, rambut keirnting-kerinting sikit, badan pon dah okay. tapi Maya masih geram, asal dia pandang je, mesti mamat tu tenung dia. nak je dia tibai mamat tu, tapi sabar je lar, Maya dah 20 tahun, dah matang. takkan hal kecik macam nie pon nak gaduh.

"eh Maya, entah-entah si Ariz tu syok dekat kau kut. dia macam tengah evaluate balik keputusan dia terima minah singa tu dulu. hahaha" seloroh Sara.

"betul lar tu kut. sebab tu dia gaduh dengan kawan baik dia, nak rebut aku kan? haha" Maya sekadar melayan kerenah kawan baiknya tu. tapi dalam hati kecil Maya tertanya-tanya, adakah benar? 

'jangan Maya, jangan. mamat tu dah ada awek lar, sedar sikit. maybe muka kau pelik sangat kut, tu yang dia asyik pandang je. rilek lar, macam kau tak biasa orang tenung-tenung muka kau tu'

---

"hai Maya!" kata Ariz sambil senyum-senyum besar. 

"hai. kau pehal senyum-senyum macam tu?" balas Maya balik. macam ada something yang tak kena.

senyum. Ariz cuma senyum lebar. kemudian dia berlalu.

emh, pelik.

---

"weyh, kelas kita kat mana kejap lagi?" Ariz bertanya pada Maya. kejap lagi mereka ada kelas sama-sama, kelas yang paling bosan untuk Maya.

"aku rasa dekat dewan kuliah bangunan Razak kut." Maya balas sambil kemaskan barang.

Ariz tunggu. Ariz tenung Maya. Maya siap kemas barang, lantas Ariz terus berkata "Jom".

Maya dan Ariz jalan sama-sama menuju ke dewan kuliah mereka.

"eh Ariz, kau jalan lar dulu."

"takpe, kau jalan lar dulu"

"woit Ariz, petang nie futsal tak? jangan nak kecut perut macam semalam pulak!" kawan Ariz yang datang entah dari mana tiba-tiba menyapa. terus Maya jalan cepat-cepat tinggal si Ariz kat belakang, memang janggal gila jalan dengan Ariz nie, tambah-tambah pulak balak orang. awek si Ariz tu pulak memang garang sial.

dalam kelas tu, Ariz tak henti-henti pandang Maya, senyum dekat Maya.

---

"Ellie, Ariz tu still dengan minah tu ke? ke diorang dah tak ada apa-apa?" terus Maya soal selidik pasal Ariz dengan Ellie, perempuan yang memang pandai stalk orang.

"Erm, Ellie tak sure lar Maya. dekat Facebook memang diorang tak tunjuk, tapi kadang-kadang Ellie nampak jugak diorang dating"

"oh yeke. bagus lar macam tu. tak payah menunjuk sangat, nanti orang menyampah. macam nie lagi sweet kan Ellie?" Maya senyum.

tapi hati Maya yang hancur berkecai hanya dia dan Tuhan yang tahu.

---

academic day

hye.
so last friday was the academic day for IB students.
it was the day that parents supposed to come and meet the teachers, talk about the kids progression and blablabla.
then my parents did came, and i was really thankful to them :)
it was nothing really, i'm not really bad in my studies so it was okay..
but after that, we went to Kuala Lumpur and stayed in some hotel.
then we went to shop a little.
it was fun because i miss my family.

and after the academic day i felt inspired to study harder for every subject.
i realized that i have to nail this IB final exam,
because i wanted it.
and my mom wanted that.

and i think that would be all for now.

oh yeah today is his birthday, so i wished him on facebook.
it was nothing, i can say that i'm really glad he's happy now.
seriously.
even though at times i felt sorry for myself for not finding a replacement yet,
i remind myself that that was the reason i broke up with him.
to focus on my study and to avoid these stuffs.
and Allah is helping me through this.
i hope i will find my one true love when i'm marriage-able :)

so until next time,
toodles!

love;

ndia :)

relationship.

okay, i know.
i'm going to talk about relationship today.
i had my fair share in relationship, so i think i know about relationship, a little maybe.

first, you need to know the type of relationship.
what kind of relationship do you have, the serious one, the messing around one, or a casual one.
for me, the messing around is the one where you are seriously messing around, like you don't really have true feelings towards them. and the casual one is like a casual relationship, where you don't take any vows to be together forever after laladida. and the serious one, of course, the one true love of you life.

then you need to know how to make the relationship work.
first thing first, like everyone said, honesty is the best policy. you need to be honest with your partner in everything and anything. i know some guys said that white lies are okay because they don't want their girls to make something out of nothing, but trust me. if you lied about small things, that will make us girls think you will lie about bigger stuffs. then, trust. if your partner do things you don't really like or anything that makes you think you can't trust them, STOP and think again. it is really worth it to start a scene? the third one is try.try to make it work, try to do fun things with your partner. when you think that you started to get bored with your partner, try to do new things. just don't stop trying. but if the feelings die, then it's time to let it go.

major mistakes we always do in relationship.
the most common mistakes girls do is become clingy. when you are in a relationship, it doesn't mean that you lose yourself. of course you want to do everything with your lovers, but come on, get a life. he doesn't need to be anywhere you are, you doesn't need his permission to do everything. then stop being whiny. it's cute sometimes, i know. but come on, even you will hate it if your friends do that to you. the third one is, become bossy. urgh this is the major mistake anyone can make. you are his girlfriend, not his mom. don't boss him around, that will totally turn him off. for guys, i think common error is becoming a jerk. now cool down, in front of his girlfriend, they will become sweet but in front of his friends, he will totally change. of course i don't say you have to be a sweetie pie but just don't be a jerk. treat your girlfriend nicely even in front of your buddies. then don't promise things that you know you don't want to do or you can't do. just say it, it will hurt her of course, but in short term, rather than let her hanging and then hurt her.


stories about MY relationship.
i think i learned love the hard way. i always think that. i found love and i threw it. then i find another love. until one day i found someone, who was quite a match for me. no, not a real match. but we both were messy. we kept playing with each others heart. we broke up and then we made up just so that we can broke up again. and i forgot who was the last to stop this, and the reason why we broke up for real. i regrets ever meeting him. because of him, i changed a lot. but i can't say i didn't learn anything from this relationship. i learn about myself, i learn about my attitude and behavior, and i learn to love myself. really he taught me things, and some things that i wished i hadn't learn. and after this guy, i met a really special guy that still touches my heart sometimes. i know no one is perfect, but he was so sweet and he was what any girl want, but any girl is not me. i know i hurt him a lot, and i know i didn't appreciate it, but what can i do when there wasn't any feelings anymore? i don't want to hurt him by keeping him hanging, and to see that he's happy now made me happy. and maybe that's real love is. and i don't say that he's an angel, he had his fair share in hurting me, and i think he hurt me like no one else ever done. maybe because i was really in love with him at that time. but long distance didn't work out for me, and i wasn't ready for any huge commitment, that's why i let him go. i learn that i become ridiculously ridiculous whenever i'm in a relationship, and i found out that i have some anger issue. but now that i'm 20, i learned my lesson. and i know next time i want to be in a relationship, i will try my best to keep my anger in check.

so i think that's all for now.
i gotta do some maths. until next time, toodles!!

love;

ndia :)

sunway pyramid

so last saturday i went to sunway pyramid! all the way to subang jaya.

yeah a long journey, took us 2 hours to get to sunway but worth every minute of it.

i bought a new charles and keith purse! and now i'm feeling jittery on how do i tell mommy why i bought that purse. in my defense, my old purse is old, and kinda torn at the edges, and it's rm99 for charles and keith, so i think that's worth it? aaarggh, i don't know why i bought that,wait scratch that i know but now i'm feeling guilty because i was suppose to save. nevermind.

i'm here to tell you about my experience is ice skating.

oh my god it was sooooo much fun! like really really fun. like i want to go there everyday fun!

at first i was afraid because it was really slippery, but i looked at other ice-skaters and i thought to myself, i want to do that, so i let go and i tried. and then i skate slowly. anyone who saw me knows that i'm new, but who cares? i'm learning and i'm a fast learner, so proud of myself :)

while waiting.

like a boss!haha

then that's all i think. i think it's worth not going back home to go ice skating and trying new things. you know i like adventures, and really this has been fun.on the way home.

yeah did i mention that my legs hurt? like really really hurt? i think that's because i didn't warm up first, of whatever it is. and it still hurt until today, but doesn't matter. worth it.

so i think that's all. i have to save up and study!

until next time, toodles!

love;

ndia :)

tabahkan hati, kuatkan semangat.

hai assalamualaikum.

ingat tak aku pernah cakap tiap bulan mesti ada je part yang aku rasa down and rasa nak nangis nak tido and balik rumah peluk teddy tak buat apa2?

dah datang balik dah rasa tuu.

sekarang aku rasa sangat penat. emosi dan fizikal penat.

aku rasa macam tenaga aku dah habis, habis sepenuh-penuhnya.

macam dah tak ada tenaga langsung dah nak buat kerja apa2.

okay fine aku tipu lar, tulis blog still ada energy kan?

tapi petang tadi, memang aku rasa sangat down.

aku macam tak ada mood, balik tu aku nak nangis tapi sebab tak solat asar lagi,

aku solat asar then aku buat chem.

tak sempat nak nangis.

aku nak balik rumah, tapi tiket dah habis.

sebenarnya aku tak usaha pon cari tiket, but still aku pasti tiket balik kelantan sold out.

lagipon, aku dah plan nak keluar sunway pyramid.

kalau tak keluar sekarang, bila lagi?

dah 2 tahun duk kms, paling jauh sampai pon KLCC, tu pon dengan ayah shikin.

so, tabahkan hati nadia. kuatkan semangat. cekalkan minda.

ingatlah, waktu kau berduka, ada yang lagi malang nasib nya

okay tak tau apa kaitan =.=''

aku rasa kan, sejak2 umur 20 nie, aku rasa diri aku lebih baik.

ntah lar, nak cakap dah tak mencarut langsung tu tak lar.

tapi aku macam tak berdendam dengan orang.

memang kutuk tu still kutuk,

tapi aku tak ambik revenge.

hati aku pon rasa lagi tenang kut.

bagus. i like this feeling.

aku just harap aku akan jadi baik not just for this year, tapi untuk sepanjang hidupku.

amin.

mungkin usia tu mematangkan aku,

mungkin azam tahun baru tu dilaksanakan tanpa disedari,

atau mungkin Dia memberi ketenangan kepadaku,

semata-mata Dia menyayangiku.

entah. dalam rasa sedih dan tidak berdaya,

aku rasa lebih aman.

wiser maybe?

stronger perhaps.

and nicer, still trying.

but it's good enough for me not to take revenge.

to apologize straight away.

to smile and moves on with life.

aku merapu apa aku pon tak tahu,

tapi yang pasti, walau kadang2 aku rasa down and nak marah sume,

hati aku sebenarnya tenang.

senang, ingat Allah pasti hati tenang.

ya, that's what i will do from now onward.

i will remember Him whenever i feel sad, bad, or mad.

isya' dah nak masuk, aku nak pergi surau.

till then, toodles!

love;

ndia :)

luahan hati 2.

lately, rajin je aku tulis blog kan?

ntah lar weyh, banyak sgt kut benda yang terbuku dalam hati nie. haha

amazing that one day you can be friends with someone and the next day they are like totally your worst enemies ever. that's what happened recently.

nak cakap salah aku, ada lar jgk salah. but in my defense, i'm trying to do the right thing. and yani said i did the right thing. and yeah i handle it like a boss, not like some pussy HAHA.

tapi yang penting salah dia lar, tiba2 buat tak puas hati apa semua macam apa hal kau?

so that's the past. aku dah tak cakap apa, dia yang nak bising2 lagi lantak lar. nampak sangat still tak puas hati aku tak layan kebodohan kau tu.

haha.

aku pernah baca somewhere, never argue with stupid people because they will bring you down to their level of stupidity and of course they will win. that's totally right, sebab tu lar aku dah tak layan apa dia nak kata.

like come on lar, benda2 macam nie aku handle sejak umur 14 tahun kut. sekarang aku dah umur 20 tahun, aku dah tak main lar benda2 macam nie. aku dah tak kisah lar kau nak kata apa pon, aku dah matang okay. kau tu yang tak matang2 lagi nak gaduh buat lar cara orang dewasa, nie gaduh macam pompuan yang baru masuk high school. pffft.

and now aku dah cool. aku macam lantak kau lar dude, aku tak rugi apa pon kau nak gaduh2 dgn aku. aku dah tak layan kau, kau jangan nak bising2 datang cari aku jap lagi.

kalau berani datang cari aku lagi, memang nampak sangat kebodohan dan ketidakmatangan kau tu.

aku tulis nie dalam nada baik tau, tak marah langsung, kalau aku marah memang aku mencarut tak habis lar post nie, tapi tengok. baik je bunyi kan? haha

tu je lar nak cerita. aku sekarang banyak online banyak main lar, kerja tak jalan nie. salah nie.

dah lar, aku dah taknak update blog untuk bulan nie.

eh2 btw, aku rasa nak baliiiikk kelantan :((

xpe ndia, be strong. be strong.

till then, toodles.

when a boy's room become a girl's room

okay recently all the year 2 female students have to move to this boy's hostel called farabi. i actually like this block because it's the most strategic spot ever, like close to ds, to surau, and yeah that's pretty much everything. then when we first get this room, we were like, yeah it;s okay. not too messy, just the same stuff. i don't expect much from boys' rooms, i mean, we left our rooms messy too.

then we transform our room to that! okay it's just one part, there's another side, misu's side but she was there so i dont want to take her picture, so i only have one side!

the downside of this room is it's smelly, especially during night. but i cant really smell that, so it's okay.

what else happening this week? yeah the juniors move out to some place called beranang. heard it was cool, but it was 45 mins away, so poor them have to travel every morning and evening. lucky us. HAHA.

but kms become seriously creepy, especially during nights after isya's prayer. i don't even think people live in kms anymore. of course everything has their own advantages and disadvantages, i know.

what else?

butthurts. who cares if this is a vulgar word? i think this word is cool and i recently felt that way eventhough i'm not being pinned down in an argument. but the thing is, and i should really stop talking about this, is that the 'friends' of ours didn't even bother to offer any help when we were moving out. like, what the hell man? i thought we were friends, turn out we were only classmate huh.

but nevermind that, i succeeded transferring everything by my own, not really own but by our own, so yeah we are proud of our selves. who says we are not independent huh biatch?

damn, i thought my new years resolution was to curse less. but it's so cute i have to keep doing it haha

and yeah another damn. i thought i said i'm done with players, but fuck it. i might think he's cute. but what the hell, it doesn't mean anything because i dont know, i know it doesn't mean anything. it's just a simple crush. i don't look at him and know that he's the one, my one true love laladida. so no, he's just another guy who knocks on my heart, but i won't open it this time, that's for sure. but what's wrong with a little flirting right? haha

i'm done with ee, ia biz, wl and now all i have is tok. cny is this weekend, i planned on going out but there's only two of us, and i'm scared to travel far. its adani okay, not a guy.

dah sampai sini je adani menyibuk okay bye.