hi and hello!
its 2015 and i'm still lazying around.
if you've been following me (which is highly unlikely), you'll notice that i havent post the best of 2014.
to be honest, i completely forgot to write that.
then when i think of it, i cant really recall any best moment,
i mean, of course there are few good memories, but they are not that significant
so i'll write that later, when the mood and the idea comes
so some updates!
1. still in melaka, currently in 3rd year bds program. i am such a lazy person now, i dont even listen to the lecturers in class! its so bad because the subjects are for three years, meaning i'll need to take the subject this year and next year and will only be having exam on the final year. the human disease subject is the most horrible, terrible, miserable subject ever. i dont even know what we need to know! i dont know how to pass this year. then when it comes to clinical, i suck. i only have 1 patient so far and i was shaking when i was doing the E and D and scaling. i dont know how i'm going to be a good dentist if i dont improve :(
2. switching sports to squash! it was so much easier and more satisfying than tennis because we can hit as hard as we can. such a good stress reliever. but i am jack of all trade and master of none. whatever as long as i enjoy myself, right? :)
3. if we're gonna talk about that person, i think i'm already moving on and feeling better day by day. i mean its been soooo long since i last contacted him, and we dont even talk in class, it is obvious that i avoided him as much as possible, and at this point i dont even care if he was hurt by my actions because i need to move on. and 'once you fall in love, you cant never go back to being friends'. i mean, its not that i hate him, but i just cant see any reason to talk to him any more. i'm basically okay but i cant lie, sometimes at the mention of his name i still twitch. and at nights or when i'm feeling down and i think of him, it still hurts me, but not as much. let's hope this year i will be able to laugh about this whole stupid mess up things, shall we?
4. i realized that by the end of 2014 i was not a really good person. at first when i moved to melaka, i kinda distant myself from others. i dont know why but that was what i did. maybe i was adapting myself to melaka, but i'm glad that i'm better around people now. i realized i dont have any new year resolution, mainly because new year doesnt really mean anything to me anymore. i remember last year i have only 1 resolution, and i kinda stick to that until almost october. it was sad really that i fall back to where i stood before, but i dont know. not strong enough?
5. almost 5 months in melaka and not even once i go back to kelantan. there was a really bad flood that happened at the end of 2014, but Alhamdulillah my house and my family was not affected. but nevertheless it was heartbreaking to see all these houses got destroyed by the flood. i can only pray that those affected will be strong.
6. i spent a lot of money on unnecessary items. i should really stop doing that. new year resolution? LOL.
i think i should stop here. i'll write 'the best of' next time.
till then, toodles!
its 2015 and i'm still lazying around.
if you've been following me (which is highly unlikely), you'll notice that i havent post the best of 2014.
to be honest, i completely forgot to write that.
then when i think of it, i cant really recall any best moment,
i mean, of course there are few good memories, but they are not that significant
so i'll write that later, when the mood and the idea comes
so some updates!
1. still in melaka, currently in 3rd year bds program. i am such a lazy person now, i dont even listen to the lecturers in class! its so bad because the subjects are for three years, meaning i'll need to take the subject this year and next year and will only be having exam on the final year. the human disease subject is the most horrible, terrible, miserable subject ever. i dont even know what we need to know! i dont know how to pass this year. then when it comes to clinical, i suck. i only have 1 patient so far and i was shaking when i was doing the E and D and scaling. i dont know how i'm going to be a good dentist if i dont improve :(
2. switching sports to squash! it was so much easier and more satisfying than tennis because we can hit as hard as we can. such a good stress reliever. but i am jack of all trade and master of none. whatever as long as i enjoy myself, right? :)
3. if we're gonna talk about that person, i think i'm already moving on and feeling better day by day. i mean its been soooo long since i last contacted him, and we dont even talk in class, it is obvious that i avoided him as much as possible, and at this point i dont even care if he was hurt by my actions because i need to move on. and 'once you fall in love, you cant never go back to being friends'. i mean, its not that i hate him, but i just cant see any reason to talk to him any more. i'm basically okay but i cant lie, sometimes at the mention of his name i still twitch. and at nights or when i'm feeling down and i think of him, it still hurts me, but not as much. let's hope this year i will be able to laugh about this whole stupid mess up things, shall we?
4. i realized that by the end of 2014 i was not a really good person. at first when i moved to melaka, i kinda distant myself from others. i dont know why but that was what i did. maybe i was adapting myself to melaka, but i'm glad that i'm better around people now. i realized i dont have any new year resolution, mainly because new year doesnt really mean anything to me anymore. i remember last year i have only 1 resolution, and i kinda stick to that until almost october. it was sad really that i fall back to where i stood before, but i dont know. not strong enough?
5. almost 5 months in melaka and not even once i go back to kelantan. there was a really bad flood that happened at the end of 2014, but Alhamdulillah my house and my family was not affected. but nevertheless it was heartbreaking to see all these houses got destroyed by the flood. i can only pray that those affected will be strong.
6. i spent a lot of money on unnecessary items. i should really stop doing that. new year resolution? LOL.
i think i should stop here. i'll write 'the best of' next time.
till then, toodles!
love;
ndia :)
