the best of 2010 (finally!)

here's the moment of truth! the one that every one has been waiting for (tak lar,tak de orang tunggu pon)! since it's the year of independence to me, i think i have to add up some new categories.

the best people :)

my mum and dad!

they said absence makes the heart grows fonder. true! when i went to colleges, i can't stop crying for the first two days being apart from my family. and when i got sick, they are the ones who took care of me. i really love u guys :')

muhammad hakimie bin wali :*)

i can believe this guy has been with me throughout 2010. he's the one who made me smile, who made me laugh and even made me cry. but he showers me with love that i never think i will get. one thing that he didn't know is someone told me that i'm so ridiculous no one can stand me. and i used to believe that. but then, who was that person to tell me things? this guy has showed me than i deserved only the best, and the best is u syg :)

ashikin thajuddin

i owe many thanks to this girl simply because she's the reason why i survived college. okay, not literally. but she's the one who help me with the craziness of the subjects i have, she's the one who comforted me when i cried (only once okay!), and she's the one who i can gossip with.haha. but the most important reason is because she's very nice and i think everyone likes her. she better not read this.

nur sha aadarwina

budak pendek whose always with me trough thick and thin. maybe not really besides me, but she's the one i run to (not literally) when i have any problems. i realized that i'm not always there for her, but i always hope the best for her. and i always want the best for her. take care pendek :)

ezzaq gilo!

haha. i'm sorry syg but he's my best friend. the best guy friend ever. i can be as crazy as i want when he's around. sure he said stupid things that sometimes make me mad, but most of the time he makes me laugh, like rofl. he's the second person i used to find whenever i have problems with syg. but now i have to be independent and stop running to him whenever i have problems. i promised that to syg, didn't i? ;)

md64

md64 is not a nickname for anyone, fyi. it's my class in KMS. i think that every one in this class is super cool, besides the boys to be exact. not that i have anything against them, just that well, boys will always be boys. as a second intake student, they were really nice to me. and still are. i'm glad that i have the opportunity to know these people.

the best moments :)

driving and sewing classes!

i can't believe that i took these classes in this year! it felt like so far away now. driving classes were the best because that special person will wait with me for my turn. he's so sweet, i know. then in sewing classes i met new friends, all types of them. aside from learning how to sew, i learnt about life too because other students are older than me.

plkn :p

i can't believe i have this on my list. but frankly, plkn is one of the best thing i have done this year. i did so many dangerous thing that made me feel like i'm a brave girl. of course, i AM a brave girl ;p i met many friends and enemies here. HAHA. i learnt so many new things here.

the hangouts!

hangouts with friends and loved one will never be the same. now everyone is busy with new life and new friends, and that's why i cherish the hangouts that i had. we had a blast being childish grown ups at pcb, we dominated kbmall, we drove to here and there. oh what a fun! :B

the holidays!

honestly, holidays are the best days in my life. holidays feel better now that i'm living far away from home. home is really sweet home. i always look forward for holidays because i can go back to my beloved kelantan and meet my syg. big big smiley for that! :) i can feel the satisfaction of sleeping and waking up late, and the meals that my mum cook, and the shopping mall and the beach. that's haven for me okay?

the cas hours :p

cas is the activity that i have in college, one of the 3 requirements we have to fulfill in order to get our ib diplomas. to do the cas preparation is hell, but to do the cas activity is so much fun. we can do what we never done before and we can meet new people. and that's what cas is all about.

the best places :)

home

i used to hate staying at home because there's nothing much i can do at home. but now that i have driving licence, i love to stay at home because i can go anywhere i want! (as long as it's still in kelantan and the car gas is enough). i now realized that my home is spacious, unlike my dorm room. and i have my TEDDY at home!

kbmall

i used to hate living in kelantan because this is the only mall we can hang out. but i LOVE this mall now because this is where many memories where created. no matter how far we go, me and my friends will always meet up in this mall. yes, there's some new stores in this mall, but it's only another small reason why i love this mall now.

KMS

weird right? i said that i hate it, but it's one of the best places in 2010. my first 'asrama' ever. i don't know, i like what i can do in kms. i like my friends here, i like the teachers. i really don't know. this is something that i still can't explain.

the best subjects :)

Maths HL

haha. i can't believe this. maths hl is one of the hardest subject ever. it's the advance of addmath. i don't know why i was selected to take this subject, but it's my fate. and He knows better.

Chem HL

haha. chem hl has become the best subject thanks to madam zol. cheers md64.

maybe that's all folks. i will always cherish the moments in 2010 because i can never repeat them. may the memories live in my heart forever and may 2011 brings millions more joy :)

boleh aku luah kan?

kata kata tak dapat mengungkapkan perasaan seseorang. benar. aku ingin luahkan apa yang ku rasa, namun tak dapat ku luahkan dengan kata kata.

ada rasa gembira di hati, tapi kenapa air mata yang mengalir? ada rasa sedih di jiwa, namun kenapa amarah yang terhambur?dan bila diri terasa bengang, kenapa lidah menjadi kelu?

ya, memang lar aku tak sabar nak balik kampung, cuti cuti buang tekanan. tapi boleh tak kalau aku nak balik rumah balik? tak perlu balik kolej? dalam dada rasa sesak bila pikir pasal bilik kecil yang dikongsi 3 orang tu. otak rasa beku bila pikir pasal 6 matapelajaran yang memeningkan tu. tapi tak dinafikan, bibir menguntum senyum bila pikir pasal kawan kawan dari serata negeri yang dah lama tak kutemu tu.

tapi, macam mana dengan jantung hatiku? ketika inilah aku ingin hentikan masa. hentikan segalanya untuk aku dan dia. aneh, dalam drama semua nya mudah. tapi bila berlaku padaku, tak semudah 123. ada yang cakap berjauhan itu indah. entah. bila kita biasa dengan orang itu berhampiran kita, berjauhan itu menyeksakan, bukan? bukan kali pertama atau kali kedua kita perlu berjauhan, tapi setiap kali harus berpisah, setiap kali itu jiwaku meronta ronta. setiap kali itu air jernih jatuh di pipi. tapi kenapa kali ini terasa lebih berat daripada biasa?

"apa yang tidak membunuh kita akan membuat kita lebih kuat". sampai sekarang, aku masih tak faham ayat nie. adakah aku lebih kuat sekarang? adakah dengan berjauhan, membuatkan ku lebih kuat? adakah setiap titik air mataku itu menunjukkan kekuatanku?hah?

maaf terkasar dengan anda. sesungguhnya emosi tidak stabil.

sangat2 sedih bila mengenangkan apa yang akan dihadapi. apa yang perlu aku korbankan. tapi aku sedia maklum, aku mampu lakukan nya. aku bukan wanita lemah :)

inilah akibat bila hati dan cinta telah dicuri orang ;)

ah.hati dah rasa lega. memang sedih. tapi kalau cinta kita kuat, tak ada apa yang perlu dirisaukan, kan? kalau ada jodoh, bukit dikejar tak kan lari. tapi, sedangkan pantai lagi berubah, apatah pula hati manusia? pantai berubah kerana ombak. jika tiada ombak, pantai takkan berubah. moga tiada ombak yang hadir antara kami berdua.

the other part of me is him :)

hey, my love is for u. period.

sampai sini dulu luahan hatiku. mungkin lain hari, mungkin lain perasaan.

terima kasih sudi dijadikan tempat untuk ku menulis ;)

thinking of you ;)

Thinking Of You - Caprice feat Annatasha

she got it x4

ooh she got it x3

i met this boy a couple days ago

he's a rapper i barely even know

he tried to sweet talk me into giving number

i must admit that we really like each other

here's the prince of damansara

i can take u to the town

we dont need an entourage

cause i got my boys around

this girl she gots me crazy

man she drives me off the wall

she's the reason i got butterflies

whenever she would call

i'm never the type to show the love

but u and i can make it work

if i was five years older

i would ask if u would marry me

i got a lot of enemy

but not that i can handle

i got a whole crew

looking like heavy metal

*hey boy!

i miss u and i need u

whenever i'm alone by myself u know its true

that i miss u

and i want u to know that everyday

i'll be thinking of

u x6

even though u're so far away

i'm thinking of

u x6

even though u're so far away

and i'll be holding ur hand with no one else

sms to u urself

i guess i guess we are in love

baby girl let's make it work

kissing around with no one else

sms to u urself

even though u're so far away

a few weeks later

he showered me with flowers

daffodils,some blossoms and some rosses

oh boy i really like ur style

u got me going oh la la la la

i got her going oh la la

introduce me to ur ma

i guess i guess i am in love

she got me flying high above

higher than the skies

further than the stars

we could fly to the moon

come back living large

repeat *

baby girl she's got a nerve

she's the one i really love

ooh she got it

oh ooh she got it

when ever i'm around

she's the first to hold me down

ooh she got it

oh ooh she got it

dud dud dududu

repeat *

p/s : i couldnt find this lyrics anywhere so i wrote it myself.feel free to correct me ;)

btw, LOVE this song!

satu permainan ;)

Lama tak berjumpa

Rindu rasa hati

Ku ingin kau bersua

Bersua denganmu kini

Dimana kah kata kata janjimu,

Kau berikan sepenuh harapan,

Adakah kau mungkiri janjimu oh cinta

Kau satu permainan

Ku berjalan atas dasar lautan

Teringat kisah lama, kisah lama kau dan aku

Cintaku dan cintanya bermula di simpang jalan

Lihat dirimu ku tahu ku tahu

Kau kan ku pilih ku mahu ku mahu

Tahukah kau bahwa diriku tlah jatu cinta padamu.

loving this song!! :)

jahat tak?

hai bloggy.

jahat tak saya? saya rasa sedeyh. lepas tu saya rasa happy.

jahat tak?

nanti dulu,ayat tak lengkap.

saya rasa sedeyh je dengan orang yg paling saya sayang,dan orang yang paling sayang saya.

saya buat dye sedeyh.

tapi kalau dengan orang laen,saya happy2 pulak.

jahat kan?

bukan apa lar bloggy,saya rasa bersalah.

tapi saya tak buat apa apa yang salah.

cuma perasaan saya lar yang jahat!

ntah apa saya cakap pon tak tau.

cuma nak cakap,saya rasa happy ;)

tapi saya rasa sedeyh jugak :(

dah sudah sudah.

buat kerja tak,merapu je.

tata.

oh december!

aaaaaaaa.bila idea nak datang?

nak update blog tapi takde mende nak cakap.

nak merapu tapi xde idea jugak.

nak tulis blog yg sepatutnya tapi malas,sb kena upload foto.

tapi kalau tak update,kesian kat blog nie.

aish..

bloggy tau tak,i duk kat umah tak study pon.teruk betul lar.nanti bukak sem 2 nie,sure aku akan tergapai2.aaaaaa.tanak!!

tapi nak study teramat sangat lar malas.aish.ntah pape.lepas tu nak jadi dentist.ntah lar bila perasaan rajin tu akan menguasai diriku.tsk tsk tsk.

mesti budak2 laen tengah study kuat.menyampah lar.

xpe lar bloggy.saya nak pergi study. ganbatte!

sugar, spice and everything nice (or not)

heyya blogger.heyya bloggy.

it's been so long, hadn't it?sorry lar wey,tak sempat.i've been so busy with school and exams and everything. when i got home, i got sick. and then my broadband went broke or was it because i haven't paid the bill? and sekarang baru boleh nak menaip.tu pon guna komputer rumah.tak best langsung keypad. *sigh*

anyway.happy december! i can't believe it's december already.i felt like it was yesterday my birthday. *sigh* and u know what this mean? it means that 2010 is becoming to an end! OMG. how fast time flies.

next entry i tulis the best of 2010. but this entry,i'll mix everything.

mula2 nak cakap pasal cuti. okay, cuti yang agak tak tau nak cakap apa. sebab mula2 sakit. lepas sembuh pon macam tak nak keluar. sebab hujan. entah. dah lar banyak jugak homework. i mean, bukan lar homework. but they are still works. and i have to do it before school reopen. urgh! agak agak kan, cikgu cikgu faham tak erti perkataan MALAS?

lepas tu cakap pasal my home sweet home.eeeee ;) sangat sangat sayang kelantan. tadi kan, i keluar lar dengan dye kan, pergi tesco kan. lepas tu kan, tesco dah ubah susunan. tersesat tau. haha. then, kami pergi kbmall. the best thing that i found out is, Brands Outlet had opened a branch right here in kbmall!!! i mean, i was practically jumping with excitement when i saw the store. i was dragging him to the store and i bought the cutest t-shirts ever. and he bought me a bracelet. thanks darling ;) oh ya, time shopping tadi, kbmall pasang lagu christmas tauw. and though i don't celebrate christmas, i can't help feeling all merry and jingly and happy. i love christmas because they have the biggest SALES ever! ;)

erm, cakap pasal sekolah boleh tak? i can't believe i miss KMS, already. i mean, it's only a week. come on! okay, i tak rindu nak belajar.eh wait, i rindu nak belajar ;) i rindu dining hall. i rindu my small and atap bocor bedroom! i rindu my friends. i rindu nak jogging. tau tak, kalau nak jogging kat kelantan, kena drive sampai taman tengku anis, dekat dekat rumah aa. tapi kalau kat seremban, keluar asrama je ada taman, siap boleh main buaian tanpa segan silu lagi! hehe.

lagi nak cakap pasal apa ek? i nak cakap pasal orang tu lar. nie semua gara gara membaca blog adinda jue. haha. bloggers dan bloggy tau tak? mesti tak tau kan? sebab tak sempat nak keluar berita baru nie. macam nie, kami dah bersama lebih setahun tau! i pon macam tak percaya. it's the longest relationship i ever had. and the sweetest. and the greatest. and the most challenging. basically the best ;) lately tak tau lar kalau kalau something changed, but i hope not his feelings, or mine. i mean, no one is perfect, but in a perfect relationship u don't need a perfect person, u need a person who can makes u perfect, right? ;) i loved u, still love u and will always love u :')

dah cukup cukup. jangan nak jiwang lebih lebih. buat malu je. nanti kalau i rajin, (tapi kalau malas pon still kena buat) i buat satu entry khas untuk 2010. err, nak membebel apa lagi ek? rasa nya dah cukup kut. nanti lain kali i tulis lagi ye, ye? jangan muncung muncung, buruk nampak ;p

toodles bloggers :))

*big big smiley today

bila esok menjelma

weee..esok dah hari jumaat lar.dah 12 aibulan 11.dah nak balik!!!tak sabar sangat2.malam nie dah xboleh buat apa-apa.kebahagian yang melampau.

tapi..nanti balik kena study.bolehkah?mesti banyak godaan kat rumah,macam mana nak study??tapi kena study jugak,sebab kat sini pon study sket sket je.so,balik rumah kena pulun habis habisan,jangan bagi kat orang lain pom.haha.

yang paling menakutkan ialah maths, chem and biz.bio macam dah study kat sini,yang biz lar xstudy langsung lagi.dah lar dalam kelas pon mata macam kena gam je.aish..

apa apa pun,semoga perjalanan pulang ke rumah selamat dan selamat sampai rumah..barang barang kat hostel pon semoga selamat selamat je.

cukup lar.takde benda dah nak cakap.

selamat bercuti :)

explosion of the brain

okay,the tittle is a little exaggerated,my brain is not exploding yet,but i think it's about to.

there are just too many thing that's going through my mind.i wish i can write it all out and get it off my brain,but i can't.i don't even know..i'm not sure of anything.

first thing first.the CAS thing.obviously it's not a big thing,i just have to handle this project.like,it's not a big one.it's just a minor part of a mega project..so tomorrow i'm gonna have to call the dance people,plan a dance routine,and,and,and it's done!eh wait,and write the CAS proposal.okay so one thing sort out!

the second thing is,the upcoming final exam?urgh!seriously i don't know what to do about this thing.next week i'm coming back home for a week break,yea!and i have to study every single details that i've learnt in classes because exam starts the minute my breaks over.double urgh!

then,the third thing is what am i going to bring back home?specifically, which BOOKS do i have to bring back?it's like i have to bring everything,because there's nothing in my brain.yikes!for one week,i have to read everything..6 subjects,no,7 including PAI.aaaaaaaaaaa.

the last but definitely not least is,kms.it's not really kms's problem,it's just me.i feel like by every second i'm spending here,i get brain wash and brain wash and brain wash and some more brain wash.it's actually good,it's my time to change,this is the chance.this can be a stepping stone to turn over a new leaf (okay,ayat tak boleh bla).and i don't know what's stopping me.it's like,i have everything.but i don't appreciate it.i know we have to strike when the iron's hot(skali lagi ayat tak boleh bla),and procrastinating is the thief of time(oh please stop me!), but what oh what is stopping me?wait, i think i know.(dengan nada menyeramkan)it's the devils..they keep on persuading me to postpone,postpone and to forget,and to say ''it's okay,it's the norm'' even when the truth is it's really not okay.what the hell will happen to me?aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i've read this at Maher's canteen, "when everything else fails,turns to Allah".

i think it's my time to turn to my creator now,even when things are not failing yet.

bloggers,do pray for me :')

tak lama lagi

so today i felt great. the main factor is because of yesterday's finding.the greatest thing that ever happen for this week.couldn't stop smiling :)

then today went off great.the marks for the test came out,and i did pretty well. Alhamdulillah.

and the rest of the day was okay,

EXCEPT for when i don't really understand the bio thing that teacher was talking about,

AND when the chemistry teacher gave us tons of new homework.

i mean,come on!final exam is 2 weeks from now.we need to study,no,I need to study.i have to catch up everything,urgh!

next week is revision week.the last week of school before going back for aidhil adha.i'm so excited!but nervous at the same time,it means that the final test is really really around the corner,maybe hiding and waiting for me to come and to surprise me.huh!

really can't wait for this 2 years of Internal Bleeding (IB) to finish.it gives me so much pressure.

oh did i already mention about the chem teacher?i don't really remember what she said,something along 'the final exam is harder than this test...lots of questions about application...first sem determines ur future for the next sem...no time to relax...' oh come on teacher!'thanks' for the brilliant advice,it makes me 'calmer' now.

but she's serious.it's nothing but the absolute truth!aarggghh!can't i just drop out of this college and get married? *yeah right,like that's my ambition*

whatever blogger.tomorrow going out for the last time ever (for this year) at seremban.then gonna start extravaganza study.

till then,toodles

*everytime i remember,i will smile =)

finally

finally!

feel so damn relieve.my iop is over.oh iop is the individual oral presentation for malay A1 at kms.i was so nervous that i think people can see me shaking.luckily my video was so funny that the butterfly in my belly fly away.and guess what?the teacher said that "ceramah yang memberangsangkan.penuh keyakinan".HAHA..she don't know what i went through.all in all,i'm glad it's over.

now,all left is english oral.and i haven't done anything yet.i mean,even the title is still ambiguous.but it's okay,i love english.i'll do it quickly.and not that the english teacher has high expectation from us.i'll do fine,InsyaAllah.

and i have to think about the extended essay now.it's due to next year,but the earlier the better.and the g4 project..man,it never end.

the final test is 2 weeks from now.WHAT? it's so near but i haven't study anything yet,so busy with this iop thing.so stop fooling around nadia,u can't afford to fail anymore.

depaavali is coming.not going anywhere,have to study.urgh!

till then bloggers, toodles

p/s:bangga gila kut dgr ayat tu dr ckgu bm ;)

lucky 25 :)

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

[To do this, go to "notes" on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people then click publish.

chia wei asked me to do this.but nothing interesting really about me.so these are the facts about me:

1. eventhough i'm skinny, i tend to eat a lot.really really lot.

2.when i ate a lot,my stomach starts to bulge.and then i feel guilty.and i start to exercise a lot.really really lot.

3.i am such an alien.maybe that's why i always found people staring at me :(

4.i think i'm becoming stupider and stupider each single day.and the reason is simply because i don't study.

5.maybe u've read this before,but this is the only 'interesting' fact about me: i'm a teddy bear freak.

6.i may look rough and i may say harsh words but i have a very soft heart.

7.i'm a keen observer.i observe everything.maybe this skill will be useful someday ;)

8.i'm a criticizer.i always criticize people.and yes this is very annoying :(

9.apart from eating, i'm a big sleeper.i LOVE to sleep.

10.i don't have many friends.i don't know why,is it me or the people?

11.there's this weird person with the strange sense of fashion.oh wait that's me :P

12.others would love chocolate but i'm sick of them

13.when something big is coming, people would always said "how come u are still so calm?" me myself don't know why

14.sometimes people said 'say want u want because i dont care'.i dont just say,i mean that

15.they said 'things that don't kill u will make u stronger'.i will only be stronger after several crying sessions

16.i think i might have a trust issue :(

17.and maybe some money issue :((

18.my self confident is low though i look like i dont care

19.i love bright colours but recently i found grey is attractive too

20.i have a very sensitive skin.until now there is no make up that suits my skin

21.call me a dork but i really love reading.and writing

22.honestly,i'm a selfish little girl

23.and i really love to cry.i cry for no reasons sometimes

24.i try to live life to the fullest but i think i havent done it perfectly yet

25.i have maths and chem test and malay oral coming tomorrow but i dont know why i'm doing this =_=

cara cara melawan kemalasan

1. pikir 'bila siap kerja nie bleyh rehat2'

2. pura pura rajin dan buat kerja sampai habis

3. bila kerja dah habis, buat kerja lain

4. kalau memang kerja dah takda, mintak orang lain punya kerja

5. kalau ada rasa rasa nak malas balik tu, repeat step 1 to 4.

cuba lah.kalau berkesan sila bagitau saya.sebab saya sendiri tak try buat lagi.

HAHA ;)

p/s: this is what happen when u have so much to do but so lazy to do them

7 things

1) i'm such a cry baby.

2) i found that making 'mengerek' sound comfort me

3) i'm really a loser

4) i rather do things on my own than hoping for others sympathy

5) i'm (sometimes) afraid of gaining weight

6) i always make stupid mistakes

7) i honestly don't know what's going to be with be

back to tadika

okay, the kids are so vigorous!

today my class went to some kindergarten at taman ampangan to do our CAS activity. we had some plans for the kids, some games and fun activities.

we started the activity at about 10.30 am until 12.00 pm. the kids are so noisy and mischievous and naughty! i can't handle them,i felt like shouting to make them shut up.luckily other classmates have the magic to handle kids.

some of the activities we had were simon says, drawing and video watching. i was so damn tired that i slept the whole evening! it's not much when it was written, but when u are in the situation, u can't wait to go back home and cuddle with ur own teddy bear.

fun? maybe i had a little.i mean, i don't know.i'm not really in the mood this morning.i don't even take pictures with the kids. they're cute, at least some of them who are good and nice, and they even ask us will we come back next week.

tomorrow we'll be going to some rumah anak yatim to do our next CAS activity.i know we don't have to handle them tomorrow because we're only going to paint some murals. let's hope everything' going to be okay.

till then,toodles!

*missing someone

again.

i wrote because i really have nothing to do.even when my bio book is still staring at me,hoping that i would pick it up and read it.but no thanks ;)

this morning i felt great.the day was good.everything was good.the teachers were okay.the subjects were fine.but.when it came to maths.i think my brain disappeared.the teacher asked me and i couldn't think of anything.oh come on nadia,what are u?a jackass?it made me feel bad.really really bad.i shouldn't forget anything.any single thing.it made me felt worse,thinking that i failed chem test and math test,and i don't really understand bio,then i forgot about the maths things.argh!!started to feel tension again.

i am such a compulsive shopper.i tend to spend my money whenever i'm hanging out.i don't know what happen.i mean,i love to shop,but i think i'm becoming unhealthy.in shopping manners of course.i have to stop this.some wouldn't think it's a big deal,but i spent rm300 in just 2 weeks.300 that should be used in 3 months.oh crazy!

i think i'm pms-ing again.it's fine to write this because nobody reads.i feel moody.i mean,i don't know.see,i don't know what i mean.i'm saying that i feel like crying.i feel bored.i just want to sleep the day away.i don't want to know anything else.i don't want to look at anyone.i don't want anyone to look at me.i want to be invisible.i want to pause the time. =(

oh.did i already mention that i really really hate that one classmate of mine?he's creepy.like,really really creepy.of course he did nothing cruel to me.in fact,he never even talk to me.but i hate people who stares.and he stares.like,all the time.maybe one day i'll ask him what's his problem.right now i'm going to keep cool and lie low."say what u want about me,cause i really don't give a damn."

and one more important thing.i hate this f***ing celcom broadband.stupid shit.

that's all.this blog thing kinda spoiled.toodles.

wish list

11/10/10

updated wishlist.

1-get higher marks.urgh! :(

2-understand all the subjects.double urghs!!

3-a new phone. iphone 4 perhaps?or blackberry? ;)

4-money.money.money. *i spend 300 in 2 weeks.yikes!

5-to meet my syg :(

6-shopping at harrods!HAHA.never gonna happen

7-holidays.

8-lots and lots of sleep.

9-to kick that one particular person's a**.huh!

10-blk rumah! :(

i'll keep u posted.oh btw,i wrote about teddy in the english class.childish, i know.

'getting old is by nature,but growing up is a man's option' ;)

love.ndia.

and this is what we call stupid shit

i can't get over this damn thing.i mean,it's normal.everybody makes mistake.but this is the first ever time that i feel sooooo damn stupid when answering Maths test.i mean, it was surely and purely and perfectly and no-doubtingly my stupidity.the question that i left unanswered was such an easy peasy!but due to my stupidity,i don't revise that and i can't answer that.shit.

but nevermind.it's not final test yet.it's just a quiz.thank GOD!i can still study and learn from mistakes right?

today is not a great day.felt really really sleepy in classes.and even kena marah by chem teacher.teacher,i totally forgot to do the guided question lar.aish..

a thousand relieves after being Hamilah in class bm.no more worry about that Saga book.

business test this coming thursday.URGH! i don't know how i'm going to face that.i mean,i always and always feel sleepy..urgh!

maybe that's all bloggers.till then,toodles

p/s: mood, where are u?? :(

just because

u know what's the worst part of being here?i'm becoming a stalker.wait,it's not like stalker stalker.like really bad stalker.but it's just that sometimes i stalk on people.okay,maybe most of the time.

rewind!not stalk,but gossiping.but then again,it's not like gossiping like mengumpat, it's just gossip.no harm done.and thanks to adani ishak, we become the gossip internet.HAHA.

it's hard to resist temptation.i know it's bad.i know i know.u really don't have to tell me that.but when u LOVE chocolate, and u want to go on a diet, but people keep on offering u cadbury and vochelle and ferrero roche and whatsoever.how on earth are u going to resist that?then of course u'll make it up with exercises. same like me.i'm not talking that i'm on anti-chocolate phase or on a diet or anything (though i hate chocolate for making mr. pimples come!!), i'm talking about something else.something that u wouldn't understand. it's my past time job.i'm currently addicted to it.by now i know u will be cursing under ur breath because i've been blabbering about something that is actually nothing but i make it like it's everything :)

this is what u get when u've done the chem lab report :)

and this is also because SOMEONE told me that we're going to webcam-ing but then fell asleep and left me alone :(

oh,maybe because i'm feeling inspired to write tonight ;)

eh bloggers,actually i do have something to tell. that SOMEONE is here,so gotta go :*)

toodles

love.and beyond ;)

trying to write something but couldn't think of anything interesting.i know u would read my blog dear,sooner or later.and i'm writing because of u ;)

they say a picture says a thousand word.but a song describe the current feelings of mine.dedicated this song for muhammad hakimie bin wali.thanks for everything syg :)

You think I'm pretty

Without any make-up on

You think I'm funny

When I tell the puch line wrong

I know you get me

So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met me

I was a wreck

But things were kinda heavy

You brought me to life

Now every February

You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight

No regrets, just love

We can dance until we die

You and I

We'll be young forever

You make me

Feel like

I'm living a Teenage Dream

The way you turn me on

I can't sleep

Let's runaway

And don't ever look back

Don't ever look back

My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real

So take a chance

And don't ever look back

Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali

And got drunk on the beach

Got a motel and

Built a fort out of sheets

I finally found you

My missing puzzle piece

I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight

No regrets, just love

We can dance until we die

You and I

We'll be young forever

You make me

Feel like

I'm living a Teenage Dream

The way you turn me on

I can't sleep

Let's runaway

And don't ever look back

Don't ever look back

My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real

So take a chance

And don't ever look back

Don't ever look back

I might get your heart racing

In my skin-tight jeans

Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me

In my skin-tight jeans

Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me

Feel like

I'm living a Teenage Dream

The way you turn me on

I can't sleep

Let's runaway

And don't ever look back

Don't ever look back

My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real

So take a chance

And don't ever look back

Don't ever look back

he is nadia's forever(hope so!)

keluhan sang pelajar

kenapa orang lain dah kalutkalut nak study tapi aku masih selamba badak tulis blog?kenapa orang lain dah bertungkuslumus buka buku tapi aku masih selamba badak buka laptop?kenapa orang lain dah bisingbising pasal exam tapi aku masih selamba badak tidur dalam kelas?

kadangkadang terlintas dalam fikiranku,aku masih di awangan.aku masih di khayalan.entah lah.realiti belum menimpa diriku?aku tak rasa macam aku pelajar kolej yang sepatutnya struggle untuk pergi oversea.aku masih dalam mood cuti.bila tengok orang lain sungguhsungguh memeras otak untuk belajar,rasa bersalah jugak.rasa nak belajar jugak.tapi aku sendiri tak tau nak belajar apa.terlampau banyak yang aku kena belajar.semakin aku belajar semakin aku tak tau.sebab tu aku tak belajar.

kadangkadang terlintas jugak di fikiranku untuk berubah.nak start belajar lar konon,nak start jogging tiaptiap petang lar konon,nak fokus dalam kelas lar konon.tapi bila benda tu semua aku nak buat?nak jogging?cuaca sekarang tengah musim hujan,tambahtambah pulak aku nak ganti puasa dulu.nak study?tadi dah cakap,terlampau banyak yang perlu distudykan sampai aku tak tau yang mana satu dulu nak start.

masalah aku,kalau time cikgu mengajar dan aku tak mengantuk,aku faham jer.tapi kalau dah dapat soalan tu,tambahtambah pulak soalan yang berputar belit macam jalan kat perak tu(no offense orang perak!) memang otak aku terus blur and blank.and then,satu lagi habit aku,aku faham setakat faham jer.kalau ada lar makhluk manamana tanya lebih detail or terlampau kreatif,memang aku takkan boleh jawab soalan tuh.aku pon tak tau apa nak jadi dengan aku nie.citacita tinggi,tapi belajar malas jugak.tu lar aku hairan,kenapa manamana aku pergi mesti ada je spekulasispekulasi tidak benar pasal aku.budak pandai lar,budak rajin lar,budak kaya lar.diorang nie tauw tak sebenarnya akulah raja segala malas?dah lar dalam kelas asyik tidur.entah apa nak jaddi dengan aku,aku sendiri tak pasti.

memang aku bertekad nak cuma untuk berubah.diri sendiri dah bagi pep talk.esok nak puasa walau apapun yang berlaku,of course,except for period lar.nak ganti puasa sampai habis.lepas tu boleh start jogging sentiasa.nak tau kenapa aku nak start jogging?sebab aku sedar yang aku nie sangatsangat unhealthy.makan banyak,tidur banyak tapi tak exercise.and that's why aku selalu mengantuk dalam kelas,sebab tak aktif.kan ada slogan badan sihat otak cergas?nie lar waktunya nak aplikasikan menatang haram tu!

dah lar,aku dah membebel dan mencarut.padahal nak tulis pasal benda lain.takpe, "hidup memang palat,tapi esok tetap ada" ;p

toodles bloggers

the holidays

sorry bloggy for not keeping my promise.sorry for not writing in u when i arrived home.sorry for not writing in u about hari raya.

after 14 hours in the bus for the journey home, my father picked me up at the roadside and i had a quick sahur.after that,i got to sleep.when i woke up at 12noon, my father ajak me to go shopping.that's the only thing that worth remembering.

then the rest of the puasa is normal. woke up late, help mummy a little bit, do some homework, went to bazaar..i mean,it's not as exciting as i thought. maybe better than fasting at hostel because i don't have to get ready for sahur,just go eat and sleep back. i even meet up with my syg on puasa day.kurus puasa saya,aish.

the raya day??oh it's not worth remembering at all.the raya day wasn't as merry as i hope it would be.not many of my relatives were back and i don't even get a single cent on the 1st day of raya!how cruel are they?

the 2nd raya was my open house.i was so damn tired on that day!i had been working behind the scene since morning.and i think most of our guests were my friends,so i was the tireddest of all.my syg came,but it wasn't really nice as meeting him outside because they were so many people at my home.ezzaq?of course he was there.keep on 'ejek'ing me in front of my syg.jahat!aa,jue jenab and syafa was there too.oh adani too!and i went to sha's house after that.and had a headache

the 3rd raya was the day that i went to my friends house.i went to pick up my syg and then we went to adani's house,after getting lost of course. then to syafa's house,then to ee's house.oh we went to syg's friend's house but he wasn't home anymore.and that was it.but i had so much fun :)

the 4th day was the day that my family went to che's house for sambut menantu event.well,i did some work.had fun?maybe.but i couldn't wait to get home because i wanted to go to teachear fauziawati's and mcjue's house.but we arrived home at 4pm,i had another headache and i didn't go to any other open houses,

the 5th raya,i celebrated it at the shopping malls.the day that syg bought bearie for me.so so happy :) went to pcb but so many people that we didn't get out of the car.

the 6th raya i forgot what did i do?i know i didn't meet my syg that day because he went back to kampung and i?really couldn't remember anything on this day.

the 7th day.the final day at kelantan.went out with syg for the last time.went everywhere.feeling really really sad but i didn't cry,i don't know why.had a headache and went to his house to rest a little.hey,his brothers and sister were there okay?eat some raya cookies and drank syrup made my syg.haha.went home and cry :(

the 8th day was the journey to melaka with along and abang.sleep,headache,eat,pee ;p, and arrived ciknit's house safely.we stopped at cameron highland,it was so cool and cold!had fun of course.stopped at RnR perlis or perak?didn't remember but it was a nice stop because the place was fun.stopped at RnR seremban and bought some dunkin' donuts.ergh,the donuts tasted horrible.

the 9th raya was the journey to seremban.arrived at kms at 4pm.the first thing that crossed my mind when i get into my room was,weird.i didn't feel like coming home.i felt like arriving at a new place.*sigh*.only 2 people were already here on my floor.had dinner outside.sleep in early.

the 10th day?the last day of my holiday.the day i wrote this blog because i have nothing else to do.the day others will arrive.and the last day that i will smile.huh!

maybe that's all.toodles bloggers

untittled

let's just say that i don't have any interesting thing to write but due to the excessive free time,i decided to write whatever hell i could think of.

first and foremost,of course,happy independent day.but i don't feel at all celebrating merdeka. all the other students are in the DTHO, celebrating merdeka, count-downing and watching the fireworks. but what the heck,i couldn't care less.i have finished my chem exercise and lab report, but i still haven't read any chem notes, though i have the first quiz on this thursday. bio on the wednesday, but at least i have read a little about it. tomorrow i'll make some time to read.

and then the second topic for the day.RAYA! oh i don't want to write much because raya is still 9 days far.maybe i'll write about raya on the last day of ramadhan, insyaAllah. my heart is like jumping out because i can't hardly wait anymore.3 more days to go and i'll be back home in kelantan, insyaAllah.

my God, i really really really miss my dear friends!i can't wait to come home and meet up with all of them..really really am excited.can't wait can't wait!

okay that's enough before i go berserk.so toodles bloggers.

oh,i won't be writing anymore.wait till i get home and i'll update.

malay VS others

warning: i'm going to be critical and judgmental but NOT racist okay?

the topic for today is malay vs others. i'm inspired to write about this topic because of the experience i myself gone through.

i've been in two situation.one, i'm in a place where the malays are the minorities.and two,where the malays are the majorities.

so when i'm with the non-malay place,being a keen observer myself,i see the way they live. if classes starts at 8 oclock, by 7.30 the hall is already full.they rushed to everywhere, and they are enthusiastic, if not all of them. and of course by now u should know where they spend their free times,in the library of course.until late night,group or partner studying.maybe it's their advantages to have a great brain; they catch up everything on the first time it was being said.

now the second scene.this is where i have to be harsh,because hey i'm malay too.if the class start at 8,they woke up at 7.30 (especially me!)..and then they still have time to talk and catwalk to class.enthusiastic?most of them,but some are passive learners like me.want to know where the malays spend their night time?in their own rooms.but this is not their fault,considering the library closed at 5 oclock.see?the admin also doesn't want to help the student to provide the place for studying.of course most of them study in the room,but what with computers and internet and all the friends and the beds,they won't studying long,and the nearest example is me.and about the brains?i can't say anything about it.

but what i learn from the malays here is,they really really learnt from mistakes.take for example,being late for class.the teachers had a road block once and one third of the students are late for class.of course,this included me.we were given punishment to do chores,that is gotong royong.that means nothing because it's not hard and cruel at all.then one of the teachers gave some speech about the malays not being grateful.he's right.malays are lazy.malays take everything for granted.it's harsh of course,but if u take one minute to think about it,there's truth behind every sentences i wrote.and then the next day,the one third group woke up really really early and by 8 oclock,everyone is in class already.it's good to know that even malays are this and that,but they are like this and that too.

so the conclusion?i'm not saying that malays are good for nothing.i mean,hey there's so many malays out there that did well in whatever area they are in,but if we work harder and compete with the others,maybe we can be as good as,if not better,than them.it's just a matter of realizing what we have and doing whatever we can to maximized it.

sorry for this crap.i can't make it interesting enough to read.

till then,toodles

mcDONALD

akhirnya! setelah tiga hari aku mengidam nak makan mcdonald nie,baru hari ni aku dapat.haha..tapi tak makan lagi,rasa cam dah kenyang lar plak buka puasa bersama usrah tadi.

aku sebenarnya memang takde benda langsung nak cerita,tapi sebab tadi cubaan untuk buar math HL telah gagal,aku yang berasa teramat sangat bosan ni pon mengambil keputusan untuk tulis blog.tapi takde cerita.bangang betul.

tajuk terkini ialah menghitung hari untuk balik.haha..tak habis habis mengira saat nak balik.weyh tapi serius lar,aku memang tak sabar gila lar nak balik nie.agak agak dah sebulan lar tak balik.sampai termimpi mimpi kut kat rumah aku tuh!hari jumaat nie nuzul al-Quran,tak tau cuti tak..tapi kalau cuti pon,takkan aku balik sebab next week tu dah nak balik.weh!next week balik!haha..happy nyer.weekend nie spend time kat hostel,wat homework dan tido,study sket2 kalau rajin.and then jumaat depan dah balik!!=]

tu je lar.malas aku nak cerita panjang panjang perkara yang sama.oh,tadi tak ngantuk pon dalam kelas tau.sebab dah tido time tazkirah ramadhan tu.haha

chow dulu :)

kemalasan

bila kemalasan melanda,semua kucar kacir.

jahat lar nadia nie,dah mula rasa malas.

bukan,bukan malas buat homework sebab homework dah siap pon.

tapi malas nak study..aish.

entah apa nak jadi.

siap boleh tengok movie online lagi.

biar lar.

nanti lepas cuti nie saya rajin2 ye.

jangan lar marah.

eh,memang tak sabar sangat2 nak balik..dah terbayang bayang rumah.terbayang bayang semua benda yang dirindui.masa,cepat lar berlalu :(

okay,pergi dulu.

updat3s!

okay.for those who has been following my blog should know how my old one looked like.i like the old one too,its just so damn cute!but i changed the layout to the old fashion way because it's easier.i don't know.just feel like doing it.and here u are,my new looking blog.adorable?i'm still looking for a more me-style header.

i don't know why i'm so free to edit this blog thing even though i still have loads of homework to do..

oh,remember that i told u once there is no one playing fireworks here?i was wrong.i heard it last night :)

and remember my obsession with the dslr?i get over it already.i don't even know when i had stopped obsessing about the cool camera..one day i look at the dslr and i don't feel a thing.huh!

oh,there are exactly 13 days left to go!so excited! yeah!! =]

that's all the updates.got to go to buka puasa :)

toodles!

happiness starts from the heart

happy happy to be here.

sometimes in class, i will think about my being here. i think about the first day i arrived.i think about the first friend i made.i think about my feelings.all the complains i made.

then i think about nowadays.i look in the class and see all the familiar friendly faces i see everyday..i think about the funs and joys i had and having with everyone here.i asked my heart and yes,it said that i'm happy to be here.

more than often i found myself thanking God for placing me here.there's just so many reasons. sometimes i think,will i ever survive if i stayed at my old place?can i still be me?the questions keep popping in my head but i would never find the answer.all i know is,i think here is a better place.much better.

i found myself smiling when i'm with them.i found myself stop complaining about everything.and i can say that i love being here.i fitted in and i even settled down.this place feels like home,more or less.i took part in the activities (sometimes) and even if people don't listen to me (sometimes) i find that it's okay.

the study?slowly progressing.i don't know why the sleepy disorder from high school follows me to here,but sometimes i sleep in class.okay,not that serious.but my eyes are so heavy and i can't keep it open.and if i fight the sleepy feeling,i will get head ache later.worse considering now is Ramadhan and i can't eat to make me not sleepy.but when think about that,even if i eat,i won't start to feel alert again.when i lose interest in some particular thing,i will feel sleepy immediately.so i blame it on the teachers for not making it interesting.so bad of me.

recently my class had a kind of moreh.moreh md64's style.we ordered domino's.haha.but what i don't really satisfied about is we don't have a proper meal.we just eat pizza with no side dish and beverages.it feels odd to eat pizza with TEA!haha...but it's nice to have a gathering with all the faces and names i know :)

and know what makes me happier?people,of course not lot of them,are starting to know me.they smiled and said hi.hey,it's a simple act but it makes someone's day u know.and they made my days.thanks guys :)

the fasting here?i feel okay.and this morning i only had biscuits for sahur..of course that's because i already ate 3 slices of domino the night before AND half a plate of lasagna :) the other days are fine as well.tired and hungry of course,but the buka puasa here is kinda nice,of course nothing compare to mummy's cooking but can do.the terawih?let me tell u a little some some about the terawih here.after maghrib we had this tadarus thing, reciting Quran in usrah group.and after isya we had terawih for 8 rakaat and 3 rakaat of witir.the unique thing about terawih here is,after 4 rakaat we will pause for a second and the imam will give some taskirah and only after that we continue after terawih.and know what?there is this one imam,i don't know who and i don't wanna know but he recites the Al-Fatihah so nicely!i wish i can recites the Quran like that :(

so far i notice that i'm becoming addicted to tadarus :) i don't know,it's just that i feel like i want to do it,and i need it.Alhamdulillah, maybe slowly He is giving me the hidayah,i don't know.i pray for His hidayah always.let's just hope that it's not just because Ramadhan.

oh.there's this girl talking about making kms as a stepping stone.her words reaches my heart. i think i want to make kms as a stepping stone for me,a place where i can change.remind me to make a list of things i want to change tomorrow :)

i think i'll better stop here. so toodles bloggers :)

p/s: cecilia ahern is right.there's no place like here =]

mixed.

maaf,hari ni takdapat nak sambung cerita serius serius..ingat nak tulis semalam,tapi tak sempat dan lupa.jadi hari ni baru dapat tulis blog.

semalam saya pergi bazar ramdhan kat ampangan,jalan kaki.jauh sangat,dan letih sangat sangat.bazar tu boleh dikatakan kecik,penuh bersesak sesak.rasa rimas jer,tapi apa boleh buat,bukan bapak saya punya bazar.terpaksa bersabar.

saya rasa agak kecewa sebab tak banyak pilihan makanan,kalau dibandingkan dengan kelantan.ye,skali lagi cakap pasal kelantan.apakan daya bila hati sudah rindu.memang ada kedai yang di'import' dari kelantan,orang pon orang kelantan..rasa macam nak melonjat lonjat dengar orang lain cakap kelantan,rindu sangat kat kelantan :) saya pon beli lar nasi kerabu dari kedai dan orang kelantan tuh,tapi tak boleh dibandingkan dengan nasi kerabu golok.heee.lepas tu,saya jumpa puding gula hangus,saya pon beli lar.oh,i would kill for another slice~enak gila kut!nanti kalau kms nak kasi bas,saya nak pergi lagi,nak beli puding tu lagi..agaknya,lagi enak dari secret recipe's cheese cake.okay i lied,memang tak boleh lawan cheese cake tu,tapi puding gula hangus tu memang lazat lar..aaahh,nak lagi!

dah dah,sambung cerita.jadi waktu berbuka tu,memang kenyang yang teramat lar.makanan yang enak enak tu saya makan lepas terawih,waktu berbuka makan nasi kerabu je..tapi seronok sebab diorang beli makanan banyak banyak,bila makan sama sama,berlipat kali ganda banyak tu.kenyang sangat tau!

malam tu saya tengak movie,dua movie kut!tak pe,tak kisah sebab homework macam dah siap,so boleh lar bazirkan masa..tengok movie dalam komputer je,jimat duit.memang seronok sangat sangat tengok movie sambil makan makanan yang enak..

jadi tu je saya nak cerita semalam.untuk hari nie pulak,saya nak cakap yang saya tersingkir dari caloh MPP.tak tau perasaan apa yang hadir,sedih ada,lega ada..time cari cari nama saya dan tengok tada tu,memang sedih jugak.tapi LEGA yang teramat sangat sebab tapayah nak susah susah promote diri sendiri nak minta undi.haha..kesian kat aisyah dan yani,diorang kena lar buat semua semua tu.hehe..jadi saya dah terselamat dari kesibukan yang teramat sangat.HAH!

erm,ada satu lagi cerita.baru nie ada sorang kelas mate nie,dia baca baca blog orang lain..waktu tu saya pon ada bersama,so dia suh saya baca jugak blog blog tu..dia cakap, "bagus lar diorang nie..eh,ko ada blog tak?"saya macam,,err ada tapi tanak cakap address blog aku..malu lar,nanti kalau dia jumpa blog saya nie macam mana?saya menulis bukan untuk dibaca,tapi sekadar meluahkan rasa hati.tak boleh bayang kalau dia jumpa blog saya nie..sangat sangat tak bagus.dengan perkataan yang kadang kadang 18+ tuh,memang malu lar.tapi apa boleh buat,memang diri sendiri tak bagus.tak kan nak hipokrit kan?biar lar,kalu dia jumpa blog saya dan dia baca SEMUA content blog nie,dia akan kenal diri saya sebenar..diri saya dulu..saya tak kisah kalau kawan tuh yang baca,sebab saya tahu dia memang faham saya sebab kami ada pemikiran yang sama.tapi saya macam tak selesa kalau kalau budak budak KMS jumpa blog nie..budak budak KMS macam baik sangat sangat lar..aduh lar.tapi tak kisah lar,bukan orang akan jumpa blog nie pon.muahaha*evil laugh*

jadi,ada 19 hari lagi nak balik..memang tak sabar sangat sangat tau!nanti balik boleh tengok tv,boleh drive kereta,boleh tidur dengan TEDDY,boleh pergi pcb dengan rakan rakan yang cambest tuh,boleh jumpa kekasih hati,boleh beli makanan yang enak enak,boleh pergi shoping dengan papa,boleh bermacam macam lagi lar..sangat tak sabar.

tape lar bloggers,saya chow dulu,makanan pon tak habis makan lagi sebab nak update nie.haha..lain kali kita borak borak lagi ye.

toodles :)

turning point

someone asked me do i blog?and i said yes.he asked again,what did i write about?i said about everything.then he asked,do my friend knows about my blog?i said,some of them.

why do i said that i write everything when i only wrote about myself?

i only write about me,me and me.i realized that it sounded vain.i should try writing blog about other important issues besides myself.but again,i treat blog as a diary.here is where i pour out my heart.

only some of my friends know about my blog?maybe because i only have some of the friends who would really care about me.some of them who cares enough to read my heart.some of them who cares enough to know hows i'm doing.but again,some of the some that knows about my blog doesn't mean that they read.

i told the one asking that i write blog because sometimes people doesn't listen.and by writing,i can get it all of my chest,honestly.and honestly,people don't listen.i would know because i've been the victim like the whole time.call them selfish because everybody is.call me introvert cause i know i am.but sometimes,even when i speak up,people don't listen.that's the reason i blog.

let's write about serious stuff,other than people don't listen.she told me that the asians are so polite that they beat about the bush meanwhile the western just talk straight to the point.let's say,when we go to someone's house,and he offers us drink,we will say,'oh no it's fine'.while in the west,when we say that,they take it that we really don't want a drink.see my point?

we are so full of civility,which is good.it's what makes us unique and sweet.do u know that most of the western would fall for asians because of our civility and sweetness?so who said that being polite is lame?it may be lame,but it could make someone falls in love with u!

i don't know if people still have this thinking but whoever still think this way really really has to wake up.the theory is:woman has to be in the kitchen.oh please tell me they stop thinking this centuries ago.the kitchen doesn't belongs to the woman only nowadays.the husband should cook once in a while,the children should try baking sometimes.so why do we have to put the woman in the kitchen anymore?anyway,if we look it from the Islam view,husband should provides maid to the wive.of course,now i sound demanding.but again,in this modern world,the careers are open to woman and not man only.and so the woman can be anywhere,not just in the kitchen :)

i promise we will continue our 'grown-up' talk another time.till then,toodles!

RAMADHAN =]

yeah!ramadhan bakal menjelang.in fact,kalau tak silap lusa dah 1st ramadhan.but the bad news is,aku period..sedih sedih.tapi xpe lar,kalau sekarang dah period,means that tengah bulan tak period.so mesti sikit je kena ganti.insyaAllah lar.

happy memang happy,tapi sedih jugak sebab 1st time puasa without family..camner lar aku nak bangun sahur nie?ntah makcik kantin buat makanan tak..tapi kat sini macam asrama,so aku rasa ada lar kot..naseb baek kan aku dapat kat sini..kalau aku still kat aimst,lagi lar tak tau macam mana nak puasa..fuh~

rindu nak pergi bazar ramadhan dengan papa..biasa nye bab bab beli makanan nak bukak puasa nie,bagi kat aku lar..memang aku paling suka pergi beli makanan..kat sini sure ada bazar ramdhan,tapi tak tau sejauh mana bazar itu..ntah ada makanan enak ntah tak.ntah ada nasi kerabu ntah tak.ntah ada jala emas ntah tak.ntak ada AKOK ntah tak.aish,,lagi lar aku rindu kelantan camnie.

paling aku rindu pasal kelantan adalah makanan kat sana.aku ingat lagi time nenek aku stay kat umah aku,mummy and me beli makanan kat kedai and bungkus bawak balik.nenek aku biasa duduk kat kl bersama anak anaknya yang laen,and jarang dia duduk kat umah aku sebab umah dia pon kat kelantan jugak.so time makan tu,dia cakap sedap lar makanan kelantan.kalau duk kl tu,xboleh beli makanan kat luar,tak sedap langsung!and i remember telling her that,"naseb baek kita duduk kat kelantan,boleh makan makanan sedap,murah plak tu.."hee..tapi sekarang rasa sayu sangat hati bila duduk jauh :(

dah lari topik rupanya.tadi nak cakap pasal ramadhan,tiba tiba cakap pasal kelantan plak.haha.so,aku harap ramadhan kali nie penuh bermakna lar (tiru ayat nasyid sebenarnya nie).nie 1st time aku nak berpuasa without family aku.oh,baru nie aku dah berpuasa for one day,testing kan.okay lar,xde lar teruk sangat..tapi macam xseronok.

oh,kat surau kms dah pasang aircond babe!mesti syok solat tarawih nanti..boleh lar kalau nak solat sampai 20 rakat.tapi tengok imam and iman jugak lar.weee~

hah,cakap pasal tarawih.selalu kalau kat rumah,lepas tarawih tu,sure ada makanan..yang paling famous cendol lar.haha..aku ingat lagi ramadhan lepas,aku paling mengidam nak makan colek lepas tarawih.kalau beli kat bazar tu,nanti keras tunggu lama lama.so one night papa pom bawak lar aku and adek pergi makan kat kedai.mengecewakan,sebab kat kedai tu xbanyak pilihan.haha.oh bukan colek buah ye,tapi colek yang ada fishball and all that stuff tu.kat sini nak makan apa ek lepas tarawih?supper?ergh,supper kat sini roti je kot!menyampah aku.haha.harap harap cafe bukak,boleh lar jugak aku nak beli burger kadang kadang.eh tak,aku nampak ad yang cakap untuk bazar ramadhan ntah ape.aku rasa diorang nak bukak bazar ramadhan lar kat sini.bagus lar tu,boleh aku beli makanan.haha.

lagi apa lagi nak cakap kalau sebut ramdhan?oh ya,kena tahan diri dari perkara yang membatalkan puasa.so tak boleh lar nak online selalu,banyak maksiat kat internet nie.haha.tak boleh lar nak bermanja sangat dengan sayang,nanti kurang pahala puasa.huhu.tak boleh lar nak mengumpat,eh jap,aku tak pernah mengumpat kat sini okay?tak boleh lar nak MAKAN 24/7..haha..tapi yang aku suka pasal puasa is,walau tak makan and minum the whole day,aku tak lar rasa lapar sampai pening kepala.lapar pon time waktu klimaks je,iaitu pukul 12 sampai kul 2.lepas dari waktu tu memang tak rasa langsung.rileks je.tu lar kelebihan berpuasa kan?

almost forgot,kalau dah dekat ramdhan,kat umah aku biasa nya budak budak belakang and depan rumah akan sambut ramdhan dengan balingan mercun.that is something i wouldn't miss.kat sini tak der kot yang maen mercun..tapi tak tau lar kan.haha.

erm,tu je lar aku rasa yang terlintas kat fikiran bila sebut pasal ramdhan nie.kalau sebut raya laen kira okay?haha

tak pe lar bloggers,aku chow dulu.bye :)

oh lupa,selamat menyambut ramdhan al-mubarak and jangan tinggal puasa :)

seremban 2

walaupom malas nak blogging,tp terpaksa sebab tadi hangout!syok tau..

bgn2 kul 10,siap mndi tgk2 bella n shikin siap2 nak kuar..so aku pom join lar dyorang pergi seremban 2.hik3.lbeyh kurang 11.30 camtu r kuar,,sampai kul 7 br blk tauw..tu pon sb rules kena blk kul 7,klu x,aku rase tgh mlm baru blk.haha.

mula2 tu ktorg window shopim dlu,and terus mkn lunch..then tgk movie salt stat kul 2.30 sampai 4.okay,my first time tgk wayang ever,and xbesh pon?siyesly,nyesal aku tgk movie tu..mmg lar action packed,tapi mcm not worth it lar.baek aku round2 jusco lg besh..nyaris2 tertido time tgk movie tu,bosan..kawan2 pon ramai yang tertido.haha..

after movie tu,ktorang br lar shopim..then,,aa sampai!like lunatics ktorang hug kat jusco td..sume tgk doe.haha.kemudian aa blanje saya secret recipe selepas saya dengan tidak malunya mintak.haha..terima kasih banyak2 nursha aadarwina.

lepas tu,kawan aa anta aku balik sebab dye drive.alhamdulillah,selamat sampai kms.haha..lpas tu xde lar..tadi baru habiskan sushi dan rasperry cheesecake satu..tinggal yogurt cheesecake untuk esok..hehe.

dah lar..malas tulis panjang2.bye2

sad

to write this blog takes a lot of guts.and courages.and tears.

no,it's not about my collage anymore,thank GOD.i finally fit in and i had fun.but still.i'm smiling outside though i'm hurting inside.

i don't know what wrong.it is me or us?i mean,i know i was feeling kinda moody,but he doesn't help either.and the worst thing is,he didn't even sms me for the whole day today.and he didn't pick up the phone calls.is he trying to avoid me?is it the way he's saying goodbye?or did something happened to him?i hope not.

but then again,why he's doing this to me?don't he know that i'm miserable enough by being far away from him?i think he's trying to dump me.for GOD's sake,be a man.if u had enough,tell me so.i won't bother u again.but i can't play this quiet game.it's killing me to wonder what happens.

i can't stop thinking about him.and it's really really killing me now..i should get going.

bye bloggers

malas

oh..sangat sangat malas menulis blog..kalau berminat sangat nak tau cerita saya,just pergi tengok gambar kat buku muka cukup.album action week..mencoretkan semua yang berlaku minggu nie.

dah cukup..malas menaip.

bye blog

DSLR

okay,i'm not going to dwell about my being here anymore..instead,i'm going to write about my new-and-not-gonna-last-long obsession,that is DSLR.

i always wanted one myself,but not THIS much!okay,so my father has one at home,i don't know if he used it but i want that!papa,give it to me lar.

.as far as i know,he used it to snap pics at his work.and that's so boring..along wanted that too,but of course the dslr is with papa..i think he keeps it in his office.this is the dslr i'm talking about.

okay,i know that my teddy is like,the main subject of the pic,but that is the only pic with the dslr in.that dslr is basic,i explored it once with my along.i don't k

now the name of it,so i can really tell u the features of it.all i know is,it's not with me.luckily not with along either.

so,the dslr that i want is this one!!

Sony A550!

the features are:

• 14.2 MP Exmor CMOS Sensor
• Quick AF Live View with Face Detection & Smile Shutter
• Manual Focus Check Live View
• 7 fps continuous shooting
• 3” tiltable, 921K-dot Xtra Fine LCD
• Auto HDR/DRO

frankly speaking,i don't really understand the features.haha..but i know that the 14.2 MP is super cool already.and that lcd?maybe it'll do some good,who knows?okay,the price is?jeng jeng jeng..RM 1799..not bad right?i mean,if i save all the allowances i get from MARA for 3 semesters,i can buy it on my own.okay.not gonna happen.

so i just can keep on dreaming..*sigh*..when oh when will some generous kind-hearted filthy rich person buy one for me?*sigh again*

so that's all.oh by the way,i just came back from decorating the hall for tomorrow event.it was nice to be part of it,even though i'm so clumsy..every time something fell from my hand,i remember Fergie's song; clumsy cause i've fallen in love..u got me trippin',ooh,,stumblin',ooh...okay that's enough.

think i'm feeling sleepy now..so toodles blog.

oh wait,i got a broadband now :)

sucks and sucks all the way

i don't really have time to write blogs anymore.i mean,even if i have the time,i am too lazy to go to the student center.wait till i buy a broadband,then maybe,MAYBE i'll write everyday.okay,not everyday,but kerap enough.

i started to think that i'm anti-social. i don't know,it is me or people don't want to be my friends?but honestly,sometimes, even when i go to certain groups of people,they tend to ignore me.or it is me that don't try to talk to them?but hey,takkan tiba-tiba nak jampuk cakap orang?kan kurang ajar namanya. and then, when u're in group,u have to wait for everyone before u move to the next destination.i know,friends wait for each other.maybe i'm not the friends type because i hate waiting.it's not like i have so many time to spare (even though i still write my blog now,LOL).so i just kinda do my own things by myself.my syg told me to make friends so i won't be lonely,but what he doesn't know is i'm just lonely when he's not there for me.i know that what he said is true,but then again i don't know if it's me or the people..and u know what's the worst part is?people are just so ignorant and selfish. like when they called for a meeting or something,they don't really care about others; whether others can hear them or not, they just want to talk.and sometimes,they don't inform people at all about a meeting,and then started to blame the people for not attending it.i mean, WTF? some of the people are great,they care about others and they are nice to others,and in meeting,they asked for others' opinions.but some of them are just bullshit and i really hate that kind of people.

i know that ib program is not like A level;A level only study and study..and i wish i get the A level program because i'm only here to study.i love to study and i love to do my homework.don't tell me because i know i don't have a life.but tell u what?when u're in a group,u're in a group.and i don't like being in a group.so that's all.

maybe someday i'll try to be nicer and friendlier to others,but not now.

so ciao bloggers.got a bio report to make :)