sometimes in class, i will think about my being here. i think about the first day i arrived.i think about the first friend i made.i think about my feelings.all the complains i made.
then i think about nowadays.i look in the class and see all the familiar friendly faces i see everyday..i think about the funs and joys i had and having with everyone here.i asked my heart and yes,it said that i'm happy to be here.
more than often i found myself thanking God for placing me here.there's just so many reasons. sometimes i think,will i ever survive if i stayed at my old place?can i still be me?the questions keep popping in my head but i would never find the answer.all i know is,i think here is a better place.much better.
i found myself smiling when i'm with them.i found myself stop complaining about everything.and i can say that i love being here.i fitted in and i even settled down.this place feels like home,more or less.i took part in the activities (sometimes) and even if people don't listen to me (sometimes) i find that it's okay.
the study?slowly progressing.i don't know why the sleepy disorder from high school follows me to here,but sometimes i sleep in class.okay,not that serious.but my eyes are so heavy and i can't keep it open.and if i fight the sleepy feeling,i will get head ache later.worse considering now is Ramadhan and i can't eat to make me not sleepy.but when think about that,even if i eat,i won't start to feel alert again.when i lose interest in some particular thing,i will feel sleepy immediately.so i blame it on the teachers for not making it interesting.so bad of me.
recently my class had a kind of moreh.moreh md64's style.we ordered domino's.haha.but what i don't really satisfied about is we don't have a proper meal.we just eat pizza with no side dish and beverages.it feels odd to eat pizza with TEA!haha...but it's nice to have a gathering with all the faces and names i know :)
and know what makes me happier?people,of course not lot of them,are starting to know me.they smiled and said hi.hey,it's a simple act but it makes someone's day u know.and they made my days.thanks guys :)
the fasting here?i feel okay.and this morning i only had biscuits for sahur..of course that's because i already ate 3 slices of domino the night before AND half a plate of lasagna :) the other days are fine as well.tired and hungry of course,but the buka puasa here is kinda nice,of course nothing compare to mummy's cooking but can do.the terawih?let me tell u a little some some about the terawih here.after maghrib we had this tadarus thing, reciting Quran in usrah group.and after isya we had terawih for 8 rakaat and 3 rakaat of witir.the unique thing about terawih here is,after 4 rakaat we will pause for a second and the imam will give some taskirah and only after that we continue after terawih.and know what?there is this one imam,i don't know who and i don't wanna know but he recites the Al-Fatihah so nicely!i wish i can recites the Quran like that :(
so far i notice that i'm becoming addicted to tadarus :) i don't know,it's just that i feel like i want to do it,and i need it.Alhamdulillah, maybe slowly He is giving me the hidayah,i don't know.i pray for His hidayah always.let's just hope that it's not just because Ramadhan.
oh.there's this girl talking about making kms as a stepping stone.her words reaches my heart. i think i want to make kms as a stepping stone for me,a place where i can change.remind me to make a list of things i want to change tomorrow :)
i think i'll better stop here. so toodles bloggers :)
p/s: cecilia ahern is right.there's no place like here =]
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