untittled

let's just say that i don't have any interesting thing to write but due to the excessive free time,i decided to write whatever hell i could think of.

first and foremost,of course,happy independent day.but i don't feel at all celebrating merdeka. all the other students are in the DTHO, celebrating merdeka, count-downing and watching the fireworks. but what the heck,i couldn't care less.i have finished my chem exercise and lab report, but i still haven't read any chem notes, though i have the first quiz on this thursday. bio on the wednesday, but at least i have read a little about it. tomorrow i'll make some time to read.

and then the second topic for the day.RAYA! oh i don't want to write much because raya is still 9 days far.maybe i'll write about raya on the last day of ramadhan, insyaAllah. my heart is like jumping out because i can't hardly wait anymore.3 more days to go and i'll be back home in kelantan, insyaAllah.

my God, i really really really miss my dear friends!i can't wait to come home and meet up with all of them..really really am excited.can't wait can't wait!

okay that's enough before i go berserk.so toodles bloggers.

oh,i won't be writing anymore.wait till i get home and i'll update.

malay VS others

warning: i'm going to be critical and judgmental but NOT racist okay?

the topic for today is malay vs others. i'm inspired to write about this topic because of the experience i myself gone through.

i've been in two situation.one, i'm in a place where the malays are the minorities.and two,where the malays are the majorities.

so when i'm with the non-malay place,being a keen observer myself,i see the way they live. if classes starts at 8 oclock, by 7.30 the hall is already full.they rushed to everywhere, and they are enthusiastic, if not all of them. and of course by now u should know where they spend their free times,in the library of course.until late night,group or partner studying.maybe it's their advantages to have a great brain; they catch up everything on the first time it was being said.

now the second scene.this is where i have to be harsh,because hey i'm malay too.if the class start at 8,they woke up at 7.30 (especially me!)..and then they still have time to talk and catwalk to class.enthusiastic?most of them,but some are passive learners like me.want to know where the malays spend their night time?in their own rooms.but this is not their fault,considering the library closed at 5 oclock.see?the admin also doesn't want to help the student to provide the place for studying.of course most of them study in the room,but what with computers and internet and all the friends and the beds,they won't studying long,and the nearest example is me.and about the brains?i can't say anything about it.

but what i learn from the malays here is,they really really learnt from mistakes.take for example,being late for class.the teachers had a road block once and one third of the students are late for class.of course,this included me.we were given punishment to do chores,that is gotong royong.that means nothing because it's not hard and cruel at all.then one of the teachers gave some speech about the malays not being grateful.he's right.malays are lazy.malays take everything for granted.it's harsh of course,but if u take one minute to think about it,there's truth behind every sentences i wrote.and then the next day,the one third group woke up really really early and by 8 oclock,everyone is in class already.it's good to know that even malays are this and that,but they are like this and that too.

so the conclusion?i'm not saying that malays are good for nothing.i mean,hey there's so many malays out there that did well in whatever area they are in,but if we work harder and compete with the others,maybe we can be as good as,if not better,than them.it's just a matter of realizing what we have and doing whatever we can to maximized it.

sorry for this crap.i can't make it interesting enough to read.

till then,toodles

mcDONALD

akhirnya! setelah tiga hari aku mengidam nak makan mcdonald nie,baru hari ni aku dapat.haha..tapi tak makan lagi,rasa cam dah kenyang lar plak buka puasa bersama usrah tadi.

aku sebenarnya memang takde benda langsung nak cerita,tapi sebab tadi cubaan untuk buar math HL telah gagal,aku yang berasa teramat sangat bosan ni pon mengambil keputusan untuk tulis blog.tapi takde cerita.bangang betul.

tajuk terkini ialah menghitung hari untuk balik.haha..tak habis habis mengira saat nak balik.weyh tapi serius lar,aku memang tak sabar gila lar nak balik nie.agak agak dah sebulan lar tak balik.sampai termimpi mimpi kut kat rumah aku tuh!hari jumaat nie nuzul al-Quran,tak tau cuti tak..tapi kalau cuti pon,takkan aku balik sebab next week tu dah nak balik.weh!next week balik!haha..happy nyer.weekend nie spend time kat hostel,wat homework dan tido,study sket2 kalau rajin.and then jumaat depan dah balik!!=]

tu je lar.malas aku nak cerita panjang panjang perkara yang sama.oh,tadi tak ngantuk pon dalam kelas tau.sebab dah tido time tazkirah ramadhan tu.haha

chow dulu :)

kemalasan

bila kemalasan melanda,semua kucar kacir.

jahat lar nadia nie,dah mula rasa malas.

bukan,bukan malas buat homework sebab homework dah siap pon.

tapi malas nak study..aish.

entah apa nak jadi.

siap boleh tengok movie online lagi.

biar lar.

nanti lepas cuti nie saya rajin2 ye.

jangan lar marah.

eh,memang tak sabar sangat2 nak balik..dah terbayang bayang rumah.terbayang bayang semua benda yang dirindui.masa,cepat lar berlalu :(

okay,pergi dulu.

updat3s!

okay.for those who has been following my blog should know how my old one looked like.i like the old one too,its just so damn cute!but i changed the layout to the old fashion way because it's easier.i don't know.just feel like doing it.and here u are,my new looking blog.adorable?i'm still looking for a more me-style header.

i don't know why i'm so free to edit this blog thing even though i still have loads of homework to do..

oh,remember that i told u once there is no one playing fireworks here?i was wrong.i heard it last night :)

and remember my obsession with the dslr?i get over it already.i don't even know when i had stopped obsessing about the cool camera..one day i look at the dslr and i don't feel a thing.huh!

oh,there are exactly 13 days left to go!so excited! yeah!! =]

that's all the updates.got to go to buka puasa :)

toodles!

happiness starts from the heart

happy happy to be here.

sometimes in class, i will think about my being here. i think about the first day i arrived.i think about the first friend i made.i think about my feelings.all the complains i made.

then i think about nowadays.i look in the class and see all the familiar friendly faces i see everyday..i think about the funs and joys i had and having with everyone here.i asked my heart and yes,it said that i'm happy to be here.

more than often i found myself thanking God for placing me here.there's just so many reasons. sometimes i think,will i ever survive if i stayed at my old place?can i still be me?the questions keep popping in my head but i would never find the answer.all i know is,i think here is a better place.much better.

i found myself smiling when i'm with them.i found myself stop complaining about everything.and i can say that i love being here.i fitted in and i even settled down.this place feels like home,more or less.i took part in the activities (sometimes) and even if people don't listen to me (sometimes) i find that it's okay.

the study?slowly progressing.i don't know why the sleepy disorder from high school follows me to here,but sometimes i sleep in class.okay,not that serious.but my eyes are so heavy and i can't keep it open.and if i fight the sleepy feeling,i will get head ache later.worse considering now is Ramadhan and i can't eat to make me not sleepy.but when think about that,even if i eat,i won't start to feel alert again.when i lose interest in some particular thing,i will feel sleepy immediately.so i blame it on the teachers for not making it interesting.so bad of me.

recently my class had a kind of moreh.moreh md64's style.we ordered domino's.haha.but what i don't really satisfied about is we don't have a proper meal.we just eat pizza with no side dish and beverages.it feels odd to eat pizza with TEA!haha...but it's nice to have a gathering with all the faces and names i know :)

and know what makes me happier?people,of course not lot of them,are starting to know me.they smiled and said hi.hey,it's a simple act but it makes someone's day u know.and they made my days.thanks guys :)

the fasting here?i feel okay.and this morning i only had biscuits for sahur..of course that's because i already ate 3 slices of domino the night before AND half a plate of lasagna :) the other days are fine as well.tired and hungry of course,but the buka puasa here is kinda nice,of course nothing compare to mummy's cooking but can do.the terawih?let me tell u a little some some about the terawih here.after maghrib we had this tadarus thing, reciting Quran in usrah group.and after isya we had terawih for 8 rakaat and 3 rakaat of witir.the unique thing about terawih here is,after 4 rakaat we will pause for a second and the imam will give some taskirah and only after that we continue after terawih.and know what?there is this one imam,i don't know who and i don't wanna know but he recites the Al-Fatihah so nicely!i wish i can recites the Quran like that :(

so far i notice that i'm becoming addicted to tadarus :) i don't know,it's just that i feel like i want to do it,and i need it.Alhamdulillah, maybe slowly He is giving me the hidayah,i don't know.i pray for His hidayah always.let's just hope that it's not just because Ramadhan.

oh.there's this girl talking about making kms as a stepping stone.her words reaches my heart. i think i want to make kms as a stepping stone for me,a place where i can change.remind me to make a list of things i want to change tomorrow :)

i think i'll better stop here. so toodles bloggers :)

p/s: cecilia ahern is right.there's no place like here =]

mixed.

maaf,hari ni takdapat nak sambung cerita serius serius..ingat nak tulis semalam,tapi tak sempat dan lupa.jadi hari ni baru dapat tulis blog.

semalam saya pergi bazar ramdhan kat ampangan,jalan kaki.jauh sangat,dan letih sangat sangat.bazar tu boleh dikatakan kecik,penuh bersesak sesak.rasa rimas jer,tapi apa boleh buat,bukan bapak saya punya bazar.terpaksa bersabar.

saya rasa agak kecewa sebab tak banyak pilihan makanan,kalau dibandingkan dengan kelantan.ye,skali lagi cakap pasal kelantan.apakan daya bila hati sudah rindu.memang ada kedai yang di'import' dari kelantan,orang pon orang kelantan..rasa macam nak melonjat lonjat dengar orang lain cakap kelantan,rindu sangat kat kelantan :) saya pon beli lar nasi kerabu dari kedai dan orang kelantan tuh,tapi tak boleh dibandingkan dengan nasi kerabu golok.heee.lepas tu,saya jumpa puding gula hangus,saya pon beli lar.oh,i would kill for another slice~enak gila kut!nanti kalau kms nak kasi bas,saya nak pergi lagi,nak beli puding tu lagi..agaknya,lagi enak dari secret recipe's cheese cake.okay i lied,memang tak boleh lawan cheese cake tu,tapi puding gula hangus tu memang lazat lar..aaahh,nak lagi!

dah dah,sambung cerita.jadi waktu berbuka tu,memang kenyang yang teramat lar.makanan yang enak enak tu saya makan lepas terawih,waktu berbuka makan nasi kerabu je..tapi seronok sebab diorang beli makanan banyak banyak,bila makan sama sama,berlipat kali ganda banyak tu.kenyang sangat tau!

malam tu saya tengak movie,dua movie kut!tak pe,tak kisah sebab homework macam dah siap,so boleh lar bazirkan masa..tengok movie dalam komputer je,jimat duit.memang seronok sangat sangat tengok movie sambil makan makanan yang enak..

jadi tu je saya nak cerita semalam.untuk hari nie pulak,saya nak cakap yang saya tersingkir dari caloh MPP.tak tau perasaan apa yang hadir,sedih ada,lega ada..time cari cari nama saya dan tengok tada tu,memang sedih jugak.tapi LEGA yang teramat sangat sebab tapayah nak susah susah promote diri sendiri nak minta undi.haha..kesian kat aisyah dan yani,diorang kena lar buat semua semua tu.hehe..jadi saya dah terselamat dari kesibukan yang teramat sangat.HAH!

erm,ada satu lagi cerita.baru nie ada sorang kelas mate nie,dia baca baca blog orang lain..waktu tu saya pon ada bersama,so dia suh saya baca jugak blog blog tu..dia cakap, "bagus lar diorang nie..eh,ko ada blog tak?"saya macam,,err ada tapi tanak cakap address blog aku..malu lar,nanti kalau dia jumpa blog saya nie macam mana?saya menulis bukan untuk dibaca,tapi sekadar meluahkan rasa hati.tak boleh bayang kalau dia jumpa blog saya nie..sangat sangat tak bagus.dengan perkataan yang kadang kadang 18+ tuh,memang malu lar.tapi apa boleh buat,memang diri sendiri tak bagus.tak kan nak hipokrit kan?biar lar,kalu dia jumpa blog saya dan dia baca SEMUA content blog nie,dia akan kenal diri saya sebenar..diri saya dulu..saya tak kisah kalau kawan tuh yang baca,sebab saya tahu dia memang faham saya sebab kami ada pemikiran yang sama.tapi saya macam tak selesa kalau kalau budak budak KMS jumpa blog nie..budak budak KMS macam baik sangat sangat lar..aduh lar.tapi tak kisah lar,bukan orang akan jumpa blog nie pon.muahaha*evil laugh*

jadi,ada 19 hari lagi nak balik..memang tak sabar sangat sangat tau!nanti balik boleh tengok tv,boleh drive kereta,boleh tidur dengan TEDDY,boleh pergi pcb dengan rakan rakan yang cambest tuh,boleh jumpa kekasih hati,boleh beli makanan yang enak enak,boleh pergi shoping dengan papa,boleh bermacam macam lagi lar..sangat tak sabar.

tape lar bloggers,saya chow dulu,makanan pon tak habis makan lagi sebab nak update nie.haha..lain kali kita borak borak lagi ye.

toodles :)

turning point

someone asked me do i blog?and i said yes.he asked again,what did i write about?i said about everything.then he asked,do my friend knows about my blog?i said,some of them.

why do i said that i write everything when i only wrote about myself?

i only write about me,me and me.i realized that it sounded vain.i should try writing blog about other important issues besides myself.but again,i treat blog as a diary.here is where i pour out my heart.

only some of my friends know about my blog?maybe because i only have some of the friends who would really care about me.some of them who cares enough to read my heart.some of them who cares enough to know hows i'm doing.but again,some of the some that knows about my blog doesn't mean that they read.

i told the one asking that i write blog because sometimes people doesn't listen.and by writing,i can get it all of my chest,honestly.and honestly,people don't listen.i would know because i've been the victim like the whole time.call them selfish because everybody is.call me introvert cause i know i am.but sometimes,even when i speak up,people don't listen.that's the reason i blog.

let's write about serious stuff,other than people don't listen.she told me that the asians are so polite that they beat about the bush meanwhile the western just talk straight to the point.let's say,when we go to someone's house,and he offers us drink,we will say,'oh no it's fine'.while in the west,when we say that,they take it that we really don't want a drink.see my point?

we are so full of civility,which is good.it's what makes us unique and sweet.do u know that most of the western would fall for asians because of our civility and sweetness?so who said that being polite is lame?it may be lame,but it could make someone falls in love with u!

i don't know if people still have this thinking but whoever still think this way really really has to wake up.the theory is:woman has to be in the kitchen.oh please tell me they stop thinking this centuries ago.the kitchen doesn't belongs to the woman only nowadays.the husband should cook once in a while,the children should try baking sometimes.so why do we have to put the woman in the kitchen anymore?anyway,if we look it from the Islam view,husband should provides maid to the wive.of course,now i sound demanding.but again,in this modern world,the careers are open to woman and not man only.and so the woman can be anywhere,not just in the kitchen :)

i promise we will continue our 'grown-up' talk another time.till then,toodles!

RAMADHAN =]

yeah!ramadhan bakal menjelang.in fact,kalau tak silap lusa dah 1st ramadhan.but the bad news is,aku period..sedih sedih.tapi xpe lar,kalau sekarang dah period,means that tengah bulan tak period.so mesti sikit je kena ganti.insyaAllah lar.

happy memang happy,tapi sedih jugak sebab 1st time puasa without family..camner lar aku nak bangun sahur nie?ntah makcik kantin buat makanan tak..tapi kat sini macam asrama,so aku rasa ada lar kot..naseb baek kan aku dapat kat sini..kalau aku still kat aimst,lagi lar tak tau macam mana nak puasa..fuh~

rindu nak pergi bazar ramadhan dengan papa..biasa nye bab bab beli makanan nak bukak puasa nie,bagi kat aku lar..memang aku paling suka pergi beli makanan..kat sini sure ada bazar ramdhan,tapi tak tau sejauh mana bazar itu..ntah ada makanan enak ntah tak.ntah ada nasi kerabu ntah tak.ntah ada jala emas ntah tak.ntak ada AKOK ntah tak.aish,,lagi lar aku rindu kelantan camnie.

paling aku rindu pasal kelantan adalah makanan kat sana.aku ingat lagi time nenek aku stay kat umah aku,mummy and me beli makanan kat kedai and bungkus bawak balik.nenek aku biasa duduk kat kl bersama anak anaknya yang laen,and jarang dia duduk kat umah aku sebab umah dia pon kat kelantan jugak.so time makan tu,dia cakap sedap lar makanan kelantan.kalau duk kl tu,xboleh beli makanan kat luar,tak sedap langsung!and i remember telling her that,"naseb baek kita duduk kat kelantan,boleh makan makanan sedap,murah plak tu.."hee..tapi sekarang rasa sayu sangat hati bila duduk jauh :(

dah lari topik rupanya.tadi nak cakap pasal ramadhan,tiba tiba cakap pasal kelantan plak.haha.so,aku harap ramadhan kali nie penuh bermakna lar (tiru ayat nasyid sebenarnya nie).nie 1st time aku nak berpuasa without family aku.oh,baru nie aku dah berpuasa for one day,testing kan.okay lar,xde lar teruk sangat..tapi macam xseronok.

oh,kat surau kms dah pasang aircond babe!mesti syok solat tarawih nanti..boleh lar kalau nak solat sampai 20 rakat.tapi tengok imam and iman jugak lar.weee~

hah,cakap pasal tarawih.selalu kalau kat rumah,lepas tarawih tu,sure ada makanan..yang paling famous cendol lar.haha..aku ingat lagi ramadhan lepas,aku paling mengidam nak makan colek lepas tarawih.kalau beli kat bazar tu,nanti keras tunggu lama lama.so one night papa pom bawak lar aku and adek pergi makan kat kedai.mengecewakan,sebab kat kedai tu xbanyak pilihan.haha.oh bukan colek buah ye,tapi colek yang ada fishball and all that stuff tu.kat sini nak makan apa ek lepas tarawih?supper?ergh,supper kat sini roti je kot!menyampah aku.haha.harap harap cafe bukak,boleh lar jugak aku nak beli burger kadang kadang.eh tak,aku nampak ad yang cakap untuk bazar ramadhan ntah ape.aku rasa diorang nak bukak bazar ramadhan lar kat sini.bagus lar tu,boleh aku beli makanan.haha.

lagi apa lagi nak cakap kalau sebut ramdhan?oh ya,kena tahan diri dari perkara yang membatalkan puasa.so tak boleh lar nak online selalu,banyak maksiat kat internet nie.haha.tak boleh lar nak bermanja sangat dengan sayang,nanti kurang pahala puasa.huhu.tak boleh lar nak mengumpat,eh jap,aku tak pernah mengumpat kat sini okay?tak boleh lar nak MAKAN 24/7..haha..tapi yang aku suka pasal puasa is,walau tak makan and minum the whole day,aku tak lar rasa lapar sampai pening kepala.lapar pon time waktu klimaks je,iaitu pukul 12 sampai kul 2.lepas dari waktu tu memang tak rasa langsung.rileks je.tu lar kelebihan berpuasa kan?

almost forgot,kalau dah dekat ramdhan,kat umah aku biasa nya budak budak belakang and depan rumah akan sambut ramdhan dengan balingan mercun.that is something i wouldn't miss.kat sini tak der kot yang maen mercun..tapi tak tau lar kan.haha.

erm,tu je lar aku rasa yang terlintas kat fikiran bila sebut pasal ramdhan nie.kalau sebut raya laen kira okay?haha

tak pe lar bloggers,aku chow dulu.bye :)

oh lupa,selamat menyambut ramdhan al-mubarak and jangan tinggal puasa :)

seremban 2

walaupom malas nak blogging,tp terpaksa sebab tadi hangout!syok tau..

bgn2 kul 10,siap mndi tgk2 bella n shikin siap2 nak kuar..so aku pom join lar dyorang pergi seremban 2.hik3.lbeyh kurang 11.30 camtu r kuar,,sampai kul 7 br blk tauw..tu pon sb rules kena blk kul 7,klu x,aku rase tgh mlm baru blk.haha.

mula2 tu ktorg window shopim dlu,and terus mkn lunch..then tgk movie salt stat kul 2.30 sampai 4.okay,my first time tgk wayang ever,and xbesh pon?siyesly,nyesal aku tgk movie tu..mmg lar action packed,tapi mcm not worth it lar.baek aku round2 jusco lg besh..nyaris2 tertido time tgk movie tu,bosan..kawan2 pon ramai yang tertido.haha..

after movie tu,ktorang br lar shopim..then,,aa sampai!like lunatics ktorang hug kat jusco td..sume tgk doe.haha.kemudian aa blanje saya secret recipe selepas saya dengan tidak malunya mintak.haha..terima kasih banyak2 nursha aadarwina.

lepas tu,kawan aa anta aku balik sebab dye drive.alhamdulillah,selamat sampai kms.haha..lpas tu xde lar..tadi baru habiskan sushi dan rasperry cheesecake satu..tinggal yogurt cheesecake untuk esok..hehe.

dah lar..malas tulis panjang2.bye2

sad

to write this blog takes a lot of guts.and courages.and tears.

no,it's not about my collage anymore,thank GOD.i finally fit in and i had fun.but still.i'm smiling outside though i'm hurting inside.

i don't know what wrong.it is me or us?i mean,i know i was feeling kinda moody,but he doesn't help either.and the worst thing is,he didn't even sms me for the whole day today.and he didn't pick up the phone calls.is he trying to avoid me?is it the way he's saying goodbye?or did something happened to him?i hope not.

but then again,why he's doing this to me?don't he know that i'm miserable enough by being far away from him?i think he's trying to dump me.for GOD's sake,be a man.if u had enough,tell me so.i won't bother u again.but i can't play this quiet game.it's killing me to wonder what happens.

i can't stop thinking about him.and it's really really killing me now..i should get going.

bye bloggers

malas

oh..sangat sangat malas menulis blog..kalau berminat sangat nak tau cerita saya,just pergi tengok gambar kat buku muka cukup.album action week..mencoretkan semua yang berlaku minggu nie.

dah cukup..malas menaip.

bye blog

DSLR

okay,i'm not going to dwell about my being here anymore..instead,i'm going to write about my new-and-not-gonna-last-long obsession,that is DSLR.

i always wanted one myself,but not THIS much!okay,so my father has one at home,i don't know if he used it but i want that!papa,give it to me lar.

.as far as i know,he used it to snap pics at his work.and that's so boring..along wanted that too,but of course the dslr is with papa..i think he keeps it in his office.this is the dslr i'm talking about.

okay,i know that my teddy is like,the main subject of the pic,but that is the only pic with the dslr in.that dslr is basic,i explored it once with my along.i don't k

now the name of it,so i can really tell u the features of it.all i know is,it's not with me.luckily not with along either.

so,the dslr that i want is this one!!

Sony A550!

the features are:

• 14.2 MP Exmor CMOS Sensor
• Quick AF Live View with Face Detection & Smile Shutter
• Manual Focus Check Live View
• 7 fps continuous shooting
• 3” tiltable, 921K-dot Xtra Fine LCD
• Auto HDR/DRO

frankly speaking,i don't really understand the features.haha..but i know that the 14.2 MP is super cool already.and that lcd?maybe it'll do some good,who knows?okay,the price is?jeng jeng jeng..RM 1799..not bad right?i mean,if i save all the allowances i get from MARA for 3 semesters,i can buy it on my own.okay.not gonna happen.

so i just can keep on dreaming..*sigh*..when oh when will some generous kind-hearted filthy rich person buy one for me?*sigh again*

so that's all.oh by the way,i just came back from decorating the hall for tomorrow event.it was nice to be part of it,even though i'm so clumsy..every time something fell from my hand,i remember Fergie's song; clumsy cause i've fallen in love..u got me trippin',ooh,,stumblin',ooh...okay that's enough.

think i'm feeling sleepy now..so toodles blog.

oh wait,i got a broadband now :)