explosion of the brain

okay,the tittle is a little exaggerated,my brain is not exploding yet,but i think it's about to.

there are just too many thing that's going through my mind.i wish i can write it all out and get it off my brain,but i can't.i don't even know..i'm not sure of anything.

first thing first.the CAS thing.obviously it's not a big thing,i just have to handle this project.like,it's not a big one.it's just a minor part of a mega project..so tomorrow i'm gonna have to call the dance people,plan a dance routine,and,and,and it's done!eh wait,and write the CAS proposal.okay so one thing sort out!

the second thing is,the upcoming final exam?urgh!seriously i don't know what to do about this thing.next week i'm coming back home for a week break,yea!and i have to study every single details that i've learnt in classes because exam starts the minute my breaks over.double urgh!

then,the third thing is what am i going to bring back home?specifically, which BOOKS do i have to bring back?it's like i have to bring everything,because there's nothing in my brain.yikes!for one week,i have to read everything..6 subjects,no,7 including PAI.aaaaaaaaaaa.

the last but definitely not least is,kms.it's not really kms's problem,it's just me.i feel like by every second i'm spending here,i get brain wash and brain wash and brain wash and some more brain wash.it's actually good,it's my time to change,this is the chance.this can be a stepping stone to turn over a new leaf (okay,ayat tak boleh bla).and i don't know what's stopping me.it's like,i have everything.but i don't appreciate it.i know we have to strike when the iron's hot(skali lagi ayat tak boleh bla),and procrastinating is the thief of time(oh please stop me!), but what oh what is stopping me?wait, i think i know.(dengan nada menyeramkan)it's the devils..they keep on persuading me to postpone,postpone and to forget,and to say ''it's okay,it's the norm'' even when the truth is it's really not okay.what the hell will happen to me?aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i've read this at Maher's canteen, "when everything else fails,turns to Allah".

i think it's my time to turn to my creator now,even when things are not failing yet.

bloggers,do pray for me :')