mentari

dulu,muncul sang mentari dalam hidupku..mentari memberi cahaya kepadaku,semakin lama semakin terang.ke mana aku pergi,mentari pasti disisiku.mentari tak pernah tinggalkanku,susah senangku sentiasa bersama mentari..cahaya mentari memekarkan bunga di laman ku.bunga-bunga itu berwarna warni,sangat cantik.banyak bunga yang aku petik dan simpan.mentari juga sentiasa memberi ceria kepadaku waktu aku sedih.aku sangat bahagia waktu itu.

tapi,lama-lama perilakuku menghancurkan sinar mentari.aku selalu merungut apabila terlalu banyak cahaya diberikan,apabila tiada angin yang lalu dalam hidupku.aku juga selalu buat mentari sedih bila aku menggunakan lampu sebagai pengganti mentari.banyak awan-awan yang aku letak antara mentariku dan aku,dan lama-kelamaan mentari tidak mampu lagi memberi ceria kepadaku.awan-awan mendung itu semakin gelap dan akhirnya tanpa kupinta,si hujan turun.si hujan cakap mentariku dah perg.mentariku dah tak sanggup lagi menanggung beban bersamaku.puas aku memujuk merayu mentari agar tak meninggalkanku dalam duniaku yang kegelapan,tapi mentari menggeleng kepala,mentari tak sanggup lagi.sinar mentari sudah tiada.tiada lagi ceria untuk diberi padaku,ucap mentari.bagaimana kan ku bisa bertemu pelangi jika mentari pun aku tidak pandai untuk menghargai?sang bodoh yakni aku hanya mampu menangis,menangis dan menangis.

mentari,maafkan aku.

farewell my love :(

hye to all bloggers.today i'm going to write in english again.

he's going tomorrow.i can't believe this.i'm going to be alone,while waiting forever to start studying again.but who cares?we're going to be apart,and i hate,repeat,HATE that!i don't want to be far from him..what the hell i'm going to do while waiting to register to my university?it's going to be heartbreaking,knowing he's so far away from me..

just now i went to his house,he made some kinda farewell party.all his family and lots of his relatives know me already,but that doesn't make me feel good about being away from him.i can't believe time flies so fast.can i just keep him with me?i hate HATE to be apart.god,it's so sad that i can't write anymore.

till then bloggers.

air jernih

dengan kuasa yg diberikan oleh yang dipertuan agong,di bawah titah mulia baginda,saya dengan ini mengisytiharkan pada tanggal 24 jun 2010 adalah hari menangis untuk nadia hazira.

eh lupa lak.assalamualaikum dan selamat pukul 2.20 kepada sume bloggers.heran xnape sy wat pengisytiharan tu?aish..sy pom xtauw nape.smlm sy nanges je,tnpa sebab.okay,tipu lah xde sebab.mmg ade sebab,tapi sebab tu xmunasabah..lgpom,ble difikir2kan balik,bkn menyedihkan pom sebab tu..berat aty?mmg berat aty.tapi ble2 sy ckp psl sebab tu,air jernih nie akan mengalir sendiri,tanpa diundang dan tanpa diduga.maaf bloggers,sy xbleyh cakap sebab ape.mungkin ble dah sume confirm,sy bleyh cite.

sy tauw sy berani,sy pasti bleyh je menempuh dugaan yg bakal tiba.sy slalu ckp yg diri sy nie 'a strong,independent woman'..nie masa sy buktikan kate2 sy tu...tp.ntah kenapa aty trase sebak,mata trase pedih,tgn terketar2.ops,air jernih dah terkeluar.tolonglah,tolonglah air mata.jgn keluar lagi..sy dh lteyh mengesat mata.

pening.aty sy berbelah bagi.tidak.sy dah buat keputusan.ya,mungkin ini terbaik.dan sy arap inilah yg terbaik.

bloggers.doakan sy :)

menunggu..

hai bloggers.hari nie saya cuba menulis dalam bahasa melayu ye.harap kamu faham :)

orang laen sume dah blah msuk u n smbg blaja,tgl sy je yg maseh menunggu.bln 7 nie br sy dftr.lmbt siot.tp maseh ada capa n mcjue yg blom pg.mereka bakal pg ujum bln 6 nie.tgl sy sorg jgk.aiseh..xkesah lar.

udm kat tganu.skali lg aiseh..klu bleyh nk pg jauh2 sket,plg xkat pahang nun..nie tganu je.tekanan perasaan dan jiwa dan emosi btol.ingtkn kekasih aty dpt kat tganu jgk,bhgia sket.tp beliau dpt kat kedah.menambahkan haru d jiwaku ini..biarlah..redho dgn keadaan.

skrg tgl 2 minggu lg.ntah nk buat ape.skrg maseh okay,maseh ade kekasih aty.bila beliau pg?ntah lar.buat persiapan lar.persiapan mental dan fizikal.

apaapapun bloggers,tolong doakan sy :)

welcome back!

finally!i'm out of the camp/jungle.thank GOD. :)

the NS was not so bad,i mean,i knew it.everyone who went national serving said so.well i didn't cry much on the last night there,but i couldn't lie.i did cry a little went i saw my warden crying.i miss her.

so,the activity was superb!we had flying fox,berkayak,merentas desa or it's actually merentas hutan,kembara halangan,wirajaya,latihan menembak and so on.and please don't forget the kawad.wirajaya was the part where we went into the deep jungle for 2 days and 1 night.and we were lucky because that night,it was raining and the tkl (timbalan komanden latihan) let us went back to our camp.funny remembering that night.we were supposed to feel living in the jungle,but?never mind that.anyway,that night my friends and i made a campfire and we sit and told stories about our lives.it was nice :) we also had lorong hantu,which we had to walk in the jungle by our own.mind u,it was 1 a.m at that time.i was scared to death but lucky me i didn't saw or heard any weird thing.

flying fox?it was the best activity ever!it's the high element where we have to overcome our fear of height.well,i don't have that so i enjoy this activity a lot.there was this girl who was so scared that she fainted!i don't know what's wrong with her.then,there was kembara halangan.i don't know how to explain this but it's just regular games.it consist of monkey rags,tarzan swing,tembok 6 kaki,and some more.

oh,there were also classes during the ns such as cb(character building) class,kn (kenegaraan) class,integrasi class and ppsb (program penghayatan seni dan budaya) class.some classes were boring but i enjoyed myself (okay,sometimes i slept in the class :p).

the malam sambutan nasional,which was the night to celebrate our 'graduation' was awesome!the wira wirawati performs some really2 cool performances.i could never forget that night.the next night was the malam tahlil where we had majlis tahlil and solat hajat secara besar2an at the dewan makan.we ate cross-legged like orang kampong :).i snapped a lot of picture that night because all of us dressed up.

and so the next day we went home.crying while hugging each other and saying goodbye.not me of course.i can't believe that i went to NS and i finished it.it's an experience that i will never ever forget.and i have my belang face as a prove :)