May

Hello again.
I realised my first post for this year was in march. So now i'm posting again for some update. Just so you know i'm not dead. Lol

Reading back the previous post, i have to say my 'relationship' with him went downhill. I dont know what happened, but we drifted apart again. This time on a completely new level. We were talking but we didnt say much. It was normal but sorta awkward. Or was it just me? I was trying to get over him, but how easy do you think it is to forget someone you meet everyday? And having to pretend everything is okay when all you wanted to do is slap him in his face with a chair because you hate him that much not because he did something wrong but because of how you are when he's around. And it kills me. I dont want to like him anymore. All i want is a peace of mind and a heart without any feelings towards him and without pain. Is that so much to ask for?

Other than that life is pretty okay. I had one time where i was totally depressed and the major contributing factor was him and i was in a bad shape, mood and time. But Alhamdulillah i got over it. I started tennis again and my mood improved significantly, and so does my shape lol.

Now i'm in block 4 and i havent started revising for finals. I tried but then i got sidetracked. Anyway lately i was always tired eventhough my days were not full. Maybe it's the weather.

I only have like 3 months left in India and then i'll be back in Malaysia for good, insyaAllah provided i pass my finals. I dont really know how i feel about it. Happy because i dont have to be so far from home. But sad because i know i'm never coming back to India again. You get accustomised to something so of course there's a part of your heart that get attached to it. So now we will enjoy our days in Manipal.

I think i'll stop now. I'm writing just so that when i log in again, i know how i felt about what happened. And it will bring nostalgia to myself.

Till then, toodles.

Love;

ndia :)

2014

hello everyone.

i cant believe it's march already and this is my first post.
guess that i dont have much to say.
or time to write.
but i'll be lying of course.

first thing first, papa mummy ciknit and pakcik came for our India tour.
i can't say that it was amazing in general,
but i have some awe moments.
the trip, in short, is just so-so.
the Taj Mahal was great, but in the end, it's just a building.
nothing much to see in Delhi.
Kashmir was amazing, but the timing was not right so we didnt see much.
one thing though, the men are handsome. even the carpet guys. lol
and how they pronounce snow as se-now
that still crack me up till now. haha
and lets not forget i get to try skiing although just for 10 min.
but that was enough.
it was sad that i only get to play with snow for 2 hours. not satisfying.
but Allah knows better, as always.
and i lost 5 kilos for travelling in India. huh

2nd thing, despite my complain of comfiness in my own house and watching movies non-stop,
i still managed to top my friends during 1st block.
it's not that i'm proud (although of course i am, who wouldnt, right?)
but it goes to show that it's not our efforts that count, it's because of His mercy.
sometimes i get scared.
i'm afraid i'll become too comfortable and take things for granted.
and i'm afraid that this nikmat will only brings me further from Allah, nauzubillah.
and for second block, i still do okay although not as inspiring as during 1st block.
i remember after viva pharmac, i almost cry (although i did shed some tears) because i blanked out.
i can't really answer the simplest question, and i felt very stupid that time.
but just now i checked the result and i got 7/10.
it's not as bad as i think it was. Alhamdulillah.
this block we're gonna have another viva for pharmac,
so i'm gonna be extra ready and calm to get full marks like adl and amy. haha

then of course i'm gonna talk about him
i was reading my last couple of posts and how i was whining that we drifted apart.
but guess what? we are now closer than ever.
adani asked if it was like last year's close.
but i think this is a new level.
last year it was more like a friend.
this is more like a flirtationship. though i don't want to put it like that.
and the worst (or maybe greatest?) thing is that my mum seems to like him
and i kinda, sorta admit that i like him to mummy.
but i dont know. i said it as a joke.
one thing for sure is that if we ever get serious, then i dont have to worry about parental approval. lol

i started reading john green's books and they are awesome!
john green might write young adult novels, but they sure contain more morals and themes compared to other novels.
it's like reading paulo coelho, for children.
my favourite would be Abundance of Katherines. and Will Grayson, Will Grayson coming second.
you would think that john green is writing about something, but midway the story changes and you realize the theme is not what you think it is.
i love how john green put real characters.
not everyone is handsome, hot or cool.
his characters are nerd, fat, physically challenged or self-centered.
it makes the story more real and you can sometimes connect with the characters.
his books make me think about life, how we perceive others.
sometimes you can detect a pattern.
his hero is usually a smarty-pant, a non-popular geek.
and usually he falls for the first female character introduced.
and the female would be wild, mysterious and really hot.
in Looking for Alaska (spoiler alert) you wouldnt believe that john green actually kill Alaska.
but that's what the story is about.
death. Alaska died in a car crash. but what actually happened during the accident?
it makes me think, what if it was me? or my friends? or my family members?
but you wouldnt know what actually happen, you know.
it's between Allah and them.

which brings me to the missing of MH370.
it is a wonder how a plane can be missing, for 2 days now.
if it crashed, it should be found by now.
if it was hijacked, it should landed somewhere, people should notice a plane.
i mean come on, it's a frigging plane.
and from this issue, Malaysian are showing their stupidity.
it is embarrassing you know.
this is a national headline, and when people log in online to read about this,
they can see how Malaysian are fighting and coming up with stupid theories,
blaming one another.
whatever happened, all my prayers go to the victims and family members.

maybe i should stop here.
since coming back to block 3, i havent started study yet.
i'm watching Greek, and it only reminds me how i LOVE cappie.
then i went and bought novels, so it only made sense to finish the novels first.
now i really need to start studying to keep up the performance.

till then, toodles.

love;

ndia :)

the best of 2013

Hi. it's time for the year again. time to recollect our memories and write about it.
I have to be honest, i write this last minute and i don't really have any ideas so imma write spontaneously (like you could do that lol)

1- Holidays.
For the first time in my life, i traveled oversea with friends! that is exciting and i felt very matured. we went to hongkong and macau. i already wrote and post some pictures of the vacation, so no need to rewrite.
The end-of-term holidays were great because i fully maximize my holidays, unlike the midterm ones. i went all over places, eat and do things i wanna do and i dont really stay at home. i also revisited KMS and that's a point to remember.

2- Result.
My BDS first year result is sooo rewarding and made me, family and friends proud! i get invited to give talks, being interviewed for the school magazine and get to be onstage to get the awards. all the hardwork during the first year paid off and i enter the 2nd year with higher expectations from people :\

3- Scuba diving and snorkeling
I can finally tick off one of my to do list, scuba diving. it was a once-in-a-lifetime experience and i am so glad to do this. the feeling to be underwater is amazing yet scary. i constantly have to remind myself to breathe and calm down. colourful creatures of the sea can be seen but what attracted us most was the polka dot eel, lol. it was awesome really.






















4- Visit to Belgaum
First and maybe last time going to Belgaum to visit other half of md64. went to some river to do kayaking and swimming and picnic, and went to windmill site to take pictures. do a lot of catching up and went to eat the best apple pie in india. haha.

5- 21st Birthday
My first minute of becoming 21 was celebrated with watching movies with usrahmates- wahida and didi. then my friends came to wish birthday and eat cakes, and yani gave 'budak besar' to me. and that time you-know-how whatsapped to wish my birthday. the next day i went out celebrating with laundry usrah gang, dinie afiq and him. one of the few dates i had with him. and yeah he gave me a stress ball, the exact one i gave to dinie afiq on his birthday. irony isnt it? lol.

6- Raya haji and open houses.
Since we're now living in our own houses, in early days there were many open houses to attend. two of the biggest and most important open houses were the Raya Haji and BDS open house. held at husni's house. we get to get together, gotong royong and eat good food. how could i possibly forget this?

7- Puasa
First time to fast overseas. everyday we get to break our fast together in the hostel with free food, then perform the tarawih prayers. i had a tadarus group, where we recite the quran before maghrib and many times we cooked together and perform tarawih together. it was a memorable puasa. and luckily we had study leaves during fasting, so it wasnt really tiring. i cant remember how i studied in my room while fasting,but i survived! hooray!

8- BDS 4ever
My awesome batchmates! as we grew older, we get to know each other better and the ice is slowly broken. some of the events to remember was the trip to malpe beach to celebrate 2013 with malay batchmates, junior orientation where we perform dikir barat, open houses to malay and chinese houses and many more. may we become stronger together and all pass with flying colours.

writing this, i realized that it was a long year after all. many things happened, mostly good because i cant really recall bad memories (of course i can recall the ones that i fight with him, but nevermind that) and i am so blessed to be able to live this temporary yet mesmerizing life.

another year had passed and a new year is coming with a promise for a new beginning.

may the lessons learnt in this year make me grow stronger, and the memories created make me appreciate life better.

may 2014 brings more joy and tarbiyah to me. amiin.

goodbye 2013. hello 2014.

love;

nadia :)