It’s the end of 2024

 Hello!

I abandoned this blog for almost 5 years now. I can’t even search my url lol nasib baik when i go into blogger dot com they auto log in me. 

So life update!

1) married for 2 years, have a 1 year old daughter 

Can’t believe that? The last time i wrote about being single and maybe not getting married ever lol. Married my junior from manipal which is soooo crazy since we don’t even speak in college. He had done his ndop in KB which turns out to be the reason we spoke. Oh no the reason we started talking was bc of COVID-19. Oh that’s a whole different story. A long one that i can’t be bothered to tell. Anyway, we have a beautiful and clever little girl now. We are currently long distance bc he’s furthering studies so i stayed with mami and papa.

2) freelancing

Can’t believe i struggled so hard to become a dentist and now I am a housewife 🤣. I love being a mom and raising my own baby. So i only locum once a while, still practicing but not as advanced as my friends. At time I felt small when compared to others, who has become specialists, or own their own clinics, or even maintain in government sector. But I believe Allah is the best planner, I am where I am supposed to be.

wow hello again

hi and hello!

i don't even write last year, maybe i forgot about blogging? maybe i'm lazy? who knows?

okay so update!

- almost 27 and still single *

- finished my 1st year as ndo now on my 2nd year *

- skin condition: was okay then more acne again *

- fit and healthy Alhamdulillah

- living with my parents Alhamdulillah

- not really broke anymore...

*(more details later)

lets go to the first subject: relationship

i thought i already wrote sth about this but apparently not so i'm actually quite lazy to write too much. to cut story short; i had a bf last 2 year that lasted for 1 year, then my parents didn't really approve of him, then after that 1 glitch he decided to walk away. i mean of course i was devastated at first because i really thought he's the one i'm gonna marry, but after 4-5 months of being sad i'm actually glad that mommy said no. if he really loves and wants me, he'll damn sure fight for me, at least once. ni sekali je mommy said no terus blah. yes i get that he's hurt tapi come on lah, after 1 month he already had someone else. no one that was really in love could move on that fast. i got to thinking yesterday that i already forgave him for not choosing me and not fighting for me, but i haven't actually forgive him for moving on too fast. then macam tau2 je tiba2 ada this 1 tweet said you're not at peace with your heart if you haven't forgive someone. so yes i decided to forgive that little piece of shit guy. i really hope that he's happy and not make the next girl as rebound, because i still support girls over boys. that being said, i still haven't find anyone after him, at first it was because i wasn't ready, then there's someone that i don't really like, then after that takde dah. why don't people approach me? :( :(

that's enough dwelling. i believe that the right person will come at the right time, and if there's no right person for me, then maybe married life is not for me. i just hope that i will redha and people around me won't bising if i never get married.

moving on.. career wise!

to start off: we're actually contract workers, our contract is 1+2 where the first year is wajib then another 2 is not, meaning we can leave gov after 1 year. i already finished my 1st year and now on my 2nd year, where i'm still being evaluated to get a permanent post in gov. i'm the 4th batch of contract workers and the first batch has another 6 months before their 3 year contract ended. turns out only about 50% is absorbed huhuhuhu. i don't know man.. i don't know if i will be absorbed, and if i am, where will they send me, and it i am not, where will i work huhuhuhu.

to write a bit about my working life: it's actually great, i like my kp. my kp is 25min from my house which is okay. the people are nice, some are not but again, it's okay, it's expected that not everyone is nice. my colleagues are fine, we get along pretty well. so tu je lah.

then 3rd subject; my skin huhu

actually last year my skin was good and not really problematic other than the occasional hormonal acne. but this year, april to be exact, suddenly i broke out, not that bad but there's like 5 or more pimples that just difficult to treat. then they leave PIH. not to forgot these pesky small whitehead around my chin that really don't go away despite double cleansing (note: maybe Heimish cleansing balm doesn't deep clean, and i don't really exfoliate anymore except for clay mask). so i decided to seek professional help. i mean i really want to do tx for my deep scars tapi asyik postpone je and i don't even know why. last week i decided to just go for it and stop procrastinating. yesterday was my first dermapen session. first they put numbing cream for 45 min, then they do the dermapen itself for around 15 min. it was okay not too painful, but you can still feel the needle. after that they put some serum, then LED mask. during masking i can fell my face berdenyut2 but it was not painful lah, cuma slight discomfort. lepas siap mask for 20mins they put sunscreen and i'm done! my face was slightly reddish, some needle marks on my nose but other than that it was okay. lepas mandi when i'm putting my serum, moisturizer and night mask, boy it kinda burns!! for a couple minutes but i was actually scared tapi lepas dah hilang burn tu okay je. today dah tak burn dah bila pakai serum but the needle marks on my nose is sstill pretty visible. i hope by sunday hilang because i really don't want people to ask.

after all these 3 main topics, what else should i write?

oh! i actually went to Korea with my parents last year, we went by ourselves, no travel agency whatsoever. it was really cool! i love it! especially the skincare shopping since i love skincare now. my goal is to travel overseas once a year, and this year tak pergi oversea lagi. the plan is to go vietnam, tickets bought tapi only 2 people now, hoping to recruit at least another 1 person actually.

i did go to sabah earlier this year, it was so much fun! tapi not many things to do in KK actually, and they said the marine life in perhentian is so much better than KK. planning to go hike mount kinabalu next year insyaAllah.

raya this year only abang balik, but along did sent a lot of gifts so it's great! i got alexa, amazon fire stick tv and ted baker hand cream. i dont really use alexa but i use the fire stick to watch netflix on my tv so its really great hehe.

i better stop now. i'm actually writing while wearing this at-home teeth whitening and time is up. gonna remove this thing, then watch some youtube maybe then sleep.

till next time,

toodles!

love;

ndia :)

update on being Nadia

hi and hello everyone!
i was reading notes about casting defect online, and i realized that it was on blogspot, so it seems fitting that i drop by my own page!
i read about my last 2 posts, one is about how we passed our Pro4 and now are final year students, and another is about my skin condition.
now i'm gonna update about these 2 things, and maybe talk about a few other stuffs

we are now 2 weeks away from sessional, and i'm not even that serious about my study! i seriously don't know what wrong with me, i seem to be lack of passion. i missed a lot of classes because i kept oversleeping, and i don't even care! sometimes i extend my cuti because i went back home. in year 3 and 4, i don't really go back unless its a long holiday, but this year, i made a 5 day holidays out of 3 because i went back to kelantan. i mean, it was juniors exam, and they closed down the clinics so i don't miss much postings, but i still skip a lot of classes. they haven't announced the attendance yet, so i don't know how badly i did and what they're gonna do. just hope that they will only give warnings or something, nothing serious or bad. then about my study, in last post i talked about studying in library all the time. this year i haven't even started going to the library for the finals. i keep on delaying even when everyone keep ajak me. i'm just too damn lazy to get ready and walk the (100m) distance. especially at night when i already washed my face and all. BUT i did study in my room okay, its just not that productive as compared to being in library. for example, i studied like 30 min this morning then i went back to bed for 2 hours lol. then i keep sidetracking on youtube. i really am addicted to youtube, that's a serious problem lol. (just checked youtube for any new videos lol)

update about my new boyfriend? it's funny that in my last post i said i just want to buat senyap and hope he goes away. well guess what? that's exactly what happened! and as expected, i'm not even that sad. i mean it was a bit difficult at first, but i know it was all habits. i got used to texting him so it was weird not to receive any texts anymore. it took a few days for my heart not to glitch at the mention of his name, but after that i was really really happy. seriously guys, i'm not even kidding. i think around that time i found this video saying that it's only our choice to be happy or not, and i believe it. i even made a poster with a quote "Decide to be happy today" and put it on my wardrobe so i remember to choose to be happy everyday. i rarely have sad episodes anymore, but i do cry at the stupidest things when i'm PMS-ing. it's only normal.

okay next onto my skin!
argh i'm so frustrated with it! i was complaining about pimples last year, so this year it decided to go dry. i don't really mind a bit of dry patches at first, i thought it was normal dry skin so i bought a moisturizing cleanser, which seems to work for a few weeks, when suddenly the dry patches freaking SPREAD! like how could dry skin spread?? i think this dry skin started when i start year5. so i went to the clinic, and they gave me this cream which again, seems to work at first but then the dryness came back stronger! so i went to another clinic. the doctor was a bit worried about underlying conditions and all, so she suggested me to go see a specialist. so i went to kk to get a referral letter to a dermatologist (since i can't afford private) and i got an appointment for a week later. then i went to the dermatologist, and i don't think they came up with an exact diagnosis. there was this one young female doctor, which i think is not yet a derma, and she checked me and asked few questions, and she called another doctor, a bit older which i think is a derma, and they discussed my case. i remember them saying my condition is not really this disease (i forgot what it was, i think it was sebarrhoic dermatitis because they ask i have dandruff) per se, so they were assuming it was eczema (funny because that's what mummy said. when they couldn't come up with proper diagnosis, they'll say its eczema lol). i mean, i did think i have eczema on my fingers, it was red and itchy. but on my face it was nothing like eczema. but then again, i didn't study skin. so they gave me this huge bottle of hydrocrotisone and a tube of clotrimazole. these medicines, again, like you can predict, work at first but lose its efficacy after a few days. then the dryness spread onto my eyelids, one at a time. my FKING eyelids! when it's really dry, it felt really heavy that its a burden to open my eyes. ARGHH!

what i hate more than the dryness of my face is that people keep asking me why. like shut the fck up, even i don't know why! i think it's worse than acne. i can't even wear make up :(

okay let's move on before i explode.

year 5 really passes by quickly, like i'll be taking finals in no time! it was great overall, i did win the international dental quiz yay! then we did our best to present our elective project but we didn't win anything. it's okay. then we finished our competency tests. but not our quotas yet. i think i won't finish my quota even until Pro5, and i hope they don't even care. that's what our seniors said, so i hope its true. competing to get cases for our quotas really bring out the worse in us, so i hate it. i especially hate it when juniors get more cases. some of them are really rude like i so want to hit them with a chair, while some are a bit more considerate. i hope their juniors are more rude so they will be living in hell when they're in year 5. serve those bitches right.

since i didn't write the best of 2016 (i don't really remember anymore), i'll just list down what good things that has happened to me:
1) pass Pro4
2) went hiking at Bukit Batu Putih and Gunung Datuk
3) won the international undergraduate dental quiz
4) got a new phone from papa
5) done and dusted the elective project
6) ATV riding even though i almost fell of a cliff :O
7) cycling around Malacca town
8) photo shoot at Klebang
9) took part in Manipal Run for Life. 5km for 38min. a new record for me even when i didn't win anything
10) working as a waiter. it was really fun though
11) those carefree nights where we hung out until 1 in the morning

i think i better stop here. i need ma sleep.
write later when i'm feeling it.
till then, toodles!

love;

ndia :)

Final Year Dental Student

hi and hello blog!
Alhamdulillah, i'm now a final year dental student!
the last sprint of my university life.

4th year results came out during holidays, and i can't emphasize enough about how nervous we all were waiting for the whatsapp to come in saying results are out. and once the cr send the results in whatsapp group, i almost cry, tears of relief! we pass!

studying for sessional and professional exams were strenuous and arduous, we spent almost 2 months in library, i didn't even realized that my hair grew long because most of the time it was tied up in shawls. pimples popped up everywhere, and the worst was 3 came up during sessionals, right before raya!

oh and talking about raya, my friend got married to my ex-bf and i went to their wedding! is that messed up? i mean, i don't know what goes through his head, but i went because its was my friend's wedding. and anyway i didn't hold any more grudges towards him. i just pray that it was the best for them, because i do still love my friend even though we are not as close as we were. but saying that, i so don't want to meet them again at any other event because that's enough for me.

there's something that happened after raya, other than exams and my ex got married. jeng jeng jeng, suspen tak? LOL
it's that i got involved with a boy. wait, that kinda sound suspicious and scary. no don't worry nothing major, its just that i got into a relationship because i'm lonely, something i should never ever do, with someone who i don't even like that much. and i' not even happy with the relationship, but i don't know why i haven't ended it. i guess it was so long ago that i forgot how to break up with someone? or i'm just spineless? i was kinda hoping that he'll break it off. i mean, i'm not even serious with him, so maybe when the time comes and we break up, i won't even be that sad. but i can't bring myself to tell him that i want to call quit. i just want to buat senyap and hope he wanders away and we can forget each others. but oh i don't know, even now when he's busy and can't text me, i feel sad. i mean, what's the point of having someone, who can't even be there for you? i might as well be single, amirite?

so i was gonna connect the two stories. after my ex got married, i got into this relationship right? and a few days later i dreamt something weird. i don't really know how to put this into words, but i realized my new bf is an asshole just like my ex. and i kept dreaming about my new bf turning into my ex. there's one dream where there's my ex with his wife. i mean, come on, WTF? hahahaha. mybe this new bf is an asshole, and the dream is trying to tell me. idk.

anyway, there comes several times where i feel sad and afraid because lots of my friends are getting engaged, married, or having kids, while i'm still here wasting my youth LOL. but other times, in all seriousness, i am not ready to get married and have a whole new life. i mean, yeah having your significant others are awesome and all, but the responsibilities that come with it is huge, and i'm just not ready. maybe that's why i haven't met my guy just yet. maybe he'll come at the right time. i still believe in love and marriage, don't get me wrong. but married at 24 is not for me. maybe even not married at 25,26,27. maybe i wont get married at all, who knows but Allah, right? if that's the case, i just have to remind myself and everyone around me, that it's for the best.

i'm writing on a sunday night, after being left by a tired boyfriend who went to bed early because i'm not important enough for him to sacrifice his sleep. emo much? LOL

anyway, what i was gonna say before i sidetrack was that, i was writing after a week into final year. and we were bombarded with everything. i mean, everything; from syllabus for each exams, to seminars, clinical quotas, competency tests, and not forgetting, our elective projects. they say that final year will just whirl pass you and next thing you know is you're taking Pro5. and i believe them. so, apart from studying and working my ass of to complete my quota, i'm gonna enjoy every single moment being a final year dental student of melaka manipal medical college.

i pray that Allah make it easy for each and everyone of us, and we can graduate on time. aamiin.

i'll talk to you guys later.
till then, toodles!

love;

ndia :)

Dont worry, i'm still alive

Hi and hello!
Wow, i dont even remember about blog until just now.
I was thinking about sharing how bad my skin is, but i dont really wanna share with the world (my circle), so i remember this blog which no one ever read (except yani hahaha)

So straight to the point. My skin started acting up since last year i think (end of 2015), nothing major but it was still a nuisance.

Until recently ( last 2 mths) i got fungal infection, it was tinea. There was this round reddish dry skin on my left cheek that was so itchy, and it got worse after sweating. I dont know why i didnt check it up sooner, but i went to the gp and he gave me antifungal. And while at it, he saw i have several acnes, so he gave me antibiotics too. I took the pills for almost 2 mths.

While Alhamdulillah the tinea infection went off, i cant really say the same for my acne. I mean its not that bad, but still its there. And they keep coming too.

And i think around 3 weeks ago i noticed white patches on my forehead and cheek. Again, i dont know why i didnt go to the doc straightaway even i suspected panau at the first sight. I let it be until last monday a dsa ask whats wrong with my face. Then on tuesday a lect ask again, and shes worried that its the start of vitiligo. I mean; thats soooo not helpful! I was very scared i almost cry! So i went to a gp after class and thankfully she said it was only panau. Pheww

Nevertheless, panau took at least 1 to 2 weeks to go away, so i need to live with this now. Oh panau is another fungal infection, sth versicolor. So she gave me topical antifungal. And i apply it religiously in the hope it'll go sooner

So just now i was thinking, why cant i have normal looking skin? I mean, i understand the monthly pimple, but a whole gang? And whats with this fungi? Its not like i dont wash my face or change my pillowcase. Sibuk je nak naik kat muka orang.

It really affect my confidence level (not really, i still go out a lot lol). But i have low self esteem to begin with, and now having bad skin seems to bring me to another down. I wonder if strangers look at me, and think "kesian dia ada panau kat dahi" 😢.

But its okay. Its only superficial. At least all my forms and functions are still normal, Alhamdulillah.

So thats all i wanna luahkan today. Free2 i tulis lagi pasal kehidupan sebagai 4th year dental student.

Toodles!
Love; ndia :)

hello 2015

hi and hello!
its 2015 and i'm still lazying around.
if you've been following me (which is highly unlikely), you'll notice that i havent post the best of 2014.
to be honest, i completely forgot to write that.
then when i think of it, i cant really recall any best moment,
i mean, of course there are few good memories, but they are not that significant
so i'll write that later, when the mood and the idea comes

so some updates!

1. still in melaka, currently in 3rd year bds program. i am such a lazy person now, i dont even listen to the lecturers in class! its so bad because the subjects are for three years, meaning i'll need to take the subject this year and next year and will only be having exam on the final year. the human disease subject is the most horrible, terrible, miserable subject ever. i dont even know what we need to know! i dont know how to pass this year. then when it comes to clinical, i suck. i only have 1 patient so far and i was shaking when i was doing the E and D and scaling. i dont know how i'm going to be a good dentist if i dont improve :(

2. switching sports to squash! it was so much easier and more satisfying than tennis because we can hit as hard as we can. such a good stress reliever. but i am jack of all trade and master of none. whatever as long as i enjoy myself, right? :)

3. if we're gonna talk about that person, i think i'm already moving on and feeling better day by day. i mean its been soooo long since i last contacted him, and we dont even talk in class, it is obvious that i avoided him as much as possible, and at this point i dont even care if he was hurt by my actions because i need to move on. and 'once you fall in love, you cant never go back to being friends'. i mean, its not that i hate him, but i just cant see any reason to talk to him any more. i'm basically okay but i cant lie, sometimes at the mention of his name i still twitch. and at nights or when i'm feeling down and i think of him, it still hurts me, but not as much. let's hope this year i will be able to laugh about this whole stupid mess up things, shall we?

4. i realized that by the end of 2014 i was not a really good person. at first when i moved to melaka, i kinda distant myself from others. i dont know why but that was what i did. maybe i was adapting myself to melaka, but i'm glad that i'm better around people now. i realized i dont have any new year resolution, mainly because new year doesnt really mean anything to me anymore. i remember last year i have only 1 resolution, and i kinda stick to that until almost october. it was sad really that i fall back to where i stood before, but i dont know. not strong enough?

5. almost 5 months in melaka and not even once i go back to kelantan. there was a really bad flood that happened at the end of 2014, but Alhamdulillah my house and my family was not affected. but nevertheless it was heartbreaking to see all these houses got destroyed by the flood. i can only pray that those affected will be strong.

6. i spent a lot of money on unnecessary items. i should really stop doing that. new year resolution? LOL.

i think i should stop here. i'll write 'the best of' next time.
till then, toodles!

love;

ndia :)

of raya and exam

salam and hey everyone.
so this year's raya is really something.
i get to celebrate it in india, a day before practical exams start.
so guess what i did?
went to the mosque to pray and went back home to study.
and honestly i don't feel that sad.
i don't even care
i mean, i am happy i'm alive to celebrate our victory.
but other that than, it's just another day, another date.

and exams?
i don;t even care that much
for microb and DM i even study flippantly.
i know i shouldnt, but then again what do i study for?
to be recognized? to get awards? to be famous?
i know i wanted 4D, but coming nearer to exams i don't even care that much
i just wanted to pass.
and i realized that it's actually good for me.
because when you are too attached to something duniawi;
and when Allah takes that from you,
you will fall, hard.

i used to think that being excellence in studies is one of few things i have.
like some have so many friends, while i dont
and some have other talents, i dont know
so it's like being a nerd is my thing.
but then i would worry, what if Allah takes that from me?
what if Allah wanted to test me, by falling me in any subjects or whatever?
i am not strong, i never have real test in life, just few small bumps.
but i dont know if i am prepared to be tested that big,
so i started to draw myself away from studies.
don't get me wrong, i still struggle and study hard.
it's just that it doesnt matter that much anymore.
it's okay if i am average. it's okay i dont get recognized by the college.
as long as i pass my BDS and will be a dentist, then i am content.
anyway, it's not like the results depend on my hard work,
it's all Allah's gift. and He only look for our work, not the result.

which reminds me one of the sharing session i had.
my naqibah said that some people struggle hard, work hard but still get low grades and we only study a little but we get high grade?
but what we don't know is the value in Allah's eye.
the results doesnt matter, it's the struggle that He sees.
and it hit me hard.
i'm the type that study flippantly and get good results.
so i wonder just where do i stand in His eyes. and that makes me sad :(

okay moving on.

now is the semester holidays, i have plans to travel to Australia,
just pray that everything will go smoothly and our journey is blessed.
but before that, nothing planned.

oh lemme tell you our journey home.
did i tell you everyone of my friends passed year 2?
so we'll be continuing in malacca after this, Alhamdulillah
few days before the trip back home were pretty stressful
we need to handle everything in short time.
not to forget that we need to pack the boxes during ramadhan AND exams
so yeah.
but after sending the boxes home, it felt sad.
and after practical exams, selling our home stuffs to juniors,
emptying the house, it was really sad.
so why was it stressful?
we need to close the account bank (which i never did)
we need to terminate our RP
selling the scooter (bye2 john)
getting back our advance payment for the house,
buying saress and packing the already excess luggage
but for my group i am thankful that we didn't face much trouble.
for domestic flight the guy only charge me for 15kg even though my bag excess for 25kg lol
other than that i can say it went smoothly Alhamdulillah
i remember breaking down 2 hours before our journey
because my bag excess so much and the house manager still didnt give the money
but then Allah help me, and during the journey i remember feeling calm
masyaAllah. so never under estimate the power of du'a

there are actually a lot of things i didnt do before leaving manipal for good
and a lot of stuffs i didnt buy.
but nothing we can do about it now.
for manipal, and the teachers, and everyone there,
i thank you for giving me such wonderful memories.

love;

nadia :)

May

Hello again.
I realised my first post for this year was in march. So now i'm posting again for some update. Just so you know i'm not dead. Lol

Reading back the previous post, i have to say my 'relationship' with him went downhill. I dont know what happened, but we drifted apart again. This time on a completely new level. We were talking but we didnt say much. It was normal but sorta awkward. Or was it just me? I was trying to get over him, but how easy do you think it is to forget someone you meet everyday? And having to pretend everything is okay when all you wanted to do is slap him in his face with a chair because you hate him that much not because he did something wrong but because of how you are when he's around. And it kills me. I dont want to like him anymore. All i want is a peace of mind and a heart without any feelings towards him and without pain. Is that so much to ask for?

Other than that life is pretty okay. I had one time where i was totally depressed and the major contributing factor was him and i was in a bad shape, mood and time. But Alhamdulillah i got over it. I started tennis again and my mood improved significantly, and so does my shape lol.

Now i'm in block 4 and i havent started revising for finals. I tried but then i got sidetracked. Anyway lately i was always tired eventhough my days were not full. Maybe it's the weather.

I only have like 3 months left in India and then i'll be back in Malaysia for good, insyaAllah provided i pass my finals. I dont really know how i feel about it. Happy because i dont have to be so far from home. But sad because i know i'm never coming back to India again. You get accustomised to something so of course there's a part of your heart that get attached to it. So now we will enjoy our days in Manipal.

I think i'll stop now. I'm writing just so that when i log in again, i know how i felt about what happened. And it will bring nostalgia to myself.

Till then, toodles.

Love;

ndia :)

2014

hello everyone.

i cant believe it's march already and this is my first post.
guess that i dont have much to say.
or time to write.
but i'll be lying of course.

first thing first, papa mummy ciknit and pakcik came for our India tour.
i can't say that it was amazing in general,
but i have some awe moments.
the trip, in short, is just so-so.
the Taj Mahal was great, but in the end, it's just a building.
nothing much to see in Delhi.
Kashmir was amazing, but the timing was not right so we didnt see much.
one thing though, the men are handsome. even the carpet guys. lol
and how they pronounce snow as se-now
that still crack me up till now. haha
and lets not forget i get to try skiing although just for 10 min.
but that was enough.
it was sad that i only get to play with snow for 2 hours. not satisfying.
but Allah knows better, as always.
and i lost 5 kilos for travelling in India. huh

2nd thing, despite my complain of comfiness in my own house and watching movies non-stop,
i still managed to top my friends during 1st block.
it's not that i'm proud (although of course i am, who wouldnt, right?)
but it goes to show that it's not our efforts that count, it's because of His mercy.
sometimes i get scared.
i'm afraid i'll become too comfortable and take things for granted.
and i'm afraid that this nikmat will only brings me further from Allah, nauzubillah.
and for second block, i still do okay although not as inspiring as during 1st block.
i remember after viva pharmac, i almost cry (although i did shed some tears) because i blanked out.
i can't really answer the simplest question, and i felt very stupid that time.
but just now i checked the result and i got 7/10.
it's not as bad as i think it was. Alhamdulillah.
this block we're gonna have another viva for pharmac,
so i'm gonna be extra ready and calm to get full marks like adl and amy. haha

then of course i'm gonna talk about him
i was reading my last couple of posts and how i was whining that we drifted apart.
but guess what? we are now closer than ever.
adani asked if it was like last year's close.
but i think this is a new level.
last year it was more like a friend.
this is more like a flirtationship. though i don't want to put it like that.
and the worst (or maybe greatest?) thing is that my mum seems to like him
and i kinda, sorta admit that i like him to mummy.
but i dont know. i said it as a joke.
one thing for sure is that if we ever get serious, then i dont have to worry about parental approval. lol

i started reading john green's books and they are awesome!
john green might write young adult novels, but they sure contain more morals and themes compared to other novels.
it's like reading paulo coelho, for children.
my favourite would be Abundance of Katherines. and Will Grayson, Will Grayson coming second.
you would think that john green is writing about something, but midway the story changes and you realize the theme is not what you think it is.
i love how john green put real characters.
not everyone is handsome, hot or cool.
his characters are nerd, fat, physically challenged or self-centered.
it makes the story more real and you can sometimes connect with the characters.
his books make me think about life, how we perceive others.
sometimes you can detect a pattern.
his hero is usually a smarty-pant, a non-popular geek.
and usually he falls for the first female character introduced.
and the female would be wild, mysterious and really hot.
in Looking for Alaska (spoiler alert) you wouldnt believe that john green actually kill Alaska.
but that's what the story is about.
death. Alaska died in a car crash. but what actually happened during the accident?
it makes me think, what if it was me? or my friends? or my family members?
but you wouldnt know what actually happen, you know.
it's between Allah and them.

which brings me to the missing of MH370.
it is a wonder how a plane can be missing, for 2 days now.
if it crashed, it should be found by now.
if it was hijacked, it should landed somewhere, people should notice a plane.
i mean come on, it's a frigging plane.
and from this issue, Malaysian are showing their stupidity.
it is embarrassing you know.
this is a national headline, and when people log in online to read about this,
they can see how Malaysian are fighting and coming up with stupid theories,
blaming one another.
whatever happened, all my prayers go to the victims and family members.

maybe i should stop here.
since coming back to block 3, i havent started study yet.
i'm watching Greek, and it only reminds me how i LOVE cappie.
then i went and bought novels, so it only made sense to finish the novels first.
now i really need to start studying to keep up the performance.

till then, toodles.

love;

ndia :)

the best of 2013

Hi. it's time for the year again. time to recollect our memories and write about it.
I have to be honest, i write this last minute and i don't really have any ideas so imma write spontaneously (like you could do that lol)

1- Holidays.
For the first time in my life, i traveled oversea with friends! that is exciting and i felt very matured. we went to hongkong and macau. i already wrote and post some pictures of the vacation, so no need to rewrite.
The end-of-term holidays were great because i fully maximize my holidays, unlike the midterm ones. i went all over places, eat and do things i wanna do and i dont really stay at home. i also revisited KMS and that's a point to remember.

2- Result.
My BDS first year result is sooo rewarding and made me, family and friends proud! i get invited to give talks, being interviewed for the school magazine and get to be onstage to get the awards. all the hardwork during the first year paid off and i enter the 2nd year with higher expectations from people :\

3- Scuba diving and snorkeling
I can finally tick off one of my to do list, scuba diving. it was a once-in-a-lifetime experience and i am so glad to do this. the feeling to be underwater is amazing yet scary. i constantly have to remind myself to breathe and calm down. colourful creatures of the sea can be seen but what attracted us most was the polka dot eel, lol. it was awesome really.






















4- Visit to Belgaum
First and maybe last time going to Belgaum to visit other half of md64. went to some river to do kayaking and swimming and picnic, and went to windmill site to take pictures. do a lot of catching up and went to eat the best apple pie in india. haha.

5- 21st Birthday
My first minute of becoming 21 was celebrated with watching movies with usrahmates- wahida and didi. then my friends came to wish birthday and eat cakes, and yani gave 'budak besar' to me. and that time you-know-how whatsapped to wish my birthday. the next day i went out celebrating with laundry usrah gang, dinie afiq and him. one of the few dates i had with him. and yeah he gave me a stress ball, the exact one i gave to dinie afiq on his birthday. irony isnt it? lol.

6- Raya haji and open houses.
Since we're now living in our own houses, in early days there were many open houses to attend. two of the biggest and most important open houses were the Raya Haji and BDS open house. held at husni's house. we get to get together, gotong royong and eat good food. how could i possibly forget this?

7- Puasa
First time to fast overseas. everyday we get to break our fast together in the hostel with free food, then perform the tarawih prayers. i had a tadarus group, where we recite the quran before maghrib and many times we cooked together and perform tarawih together. it was a memorable puasa. and luckily we had study leaves during fasting, so it wasnt really tiring. i cant remember how i studied in my room while fasting,but i survived! hooray!

8- BDS 4ever
My awesome batchmates! as we grew older, we get to know each other better and the ice is slowly broken. some of the events to remember was the trip to malpe beach to celebrate 2013 with malay batchmates, junior orientation where we perform dikir barat, open houses to malay and chinese houses and many more. may we become stronger together and all pass with flying colours.

writing this, i realized that it was a long year after all. many things happened, mostly good because i cant really recall bad memories (of course i can recall the ones that i fight with him, but nevermind that) and i am so blessed to be able to live this temporary yet mesmerizing life.

another year had passed and a new year is coming with a promise for a new beginning.

may the lessons learnt in this year make me grow stronger, and the memories created make me appreciate life better.

may 2014 brings more joy and tarbiyah to me. amiin.

goodbye 2013. hello 2014.

love;

nadia :)

Time

"Why did we become like this? Why are we so estranged now? Why aren't we like how we used to be?"

She thought to herself.

But then it hit her. Time.

Time. They say time heals broken hearts. Everything will go better with time. Just give some time.

But time also changes people.

And for a relationship that wasn't too strong, time can damage that too.

It was only last year, not last decade. Last year. Only a couple of months past and they act like the only thing in common between them is the classroom they shared.

Thinking back to the time of glory of their relationship, she missed it. So so much. The way they always talk to each other. The way they spent times together; morning, afternoon, evening, night. The way they chatted till the first ray of sunlight hit through their windows. She missed it all.

And she used to think that he liked her. He used to act as if he liked her. That he was willing to listen to all her ramblings. Throw her rubbish for her. Go out with her, for dinner, tea or lunch. Go out with her, because she wants to do some shopping. Chatted with her, because she doesn't feel like studying. And the way that he doesn't talk to other people in class. The way he always say hi to her first in the morning. Doesn't that mean he liked her? 

But time changes people.

Time changes him.

He doesn't text her first. He doesn't say hi to her first. In fact, they won't talk if it's not she had to tell something. No, he doesn't play around anymore. He is more serious. And less fun.

But maybe, just maybe, time changes her too?

Maybe she has no more story to tell him. Maybe she can throw her own rubbish. Maybe she always cook at home that there is just no reason to eat out. Maybe she has a new group of friends to go shopping with. Maybe, just maybe, she doesn't need him anymore.

And maybe, just maybe, time changes their feelings.

Or maybe, just maybe, she wished that she can stop the time where what matters is that they are together.

life update

hello blog.
dah berapa tahun tak update blog eh?
takpe. bukan ada orang baca pon HAHA
btw meh nak buat a lil life update.

eh actually takde lah lama sangat.
raya haritu dah update. hehe.

waktu cuti haritu pergi hk.
it was okay, nothing really amazing.
except the fireworks at disneyland.
that was AWESOME AND MAGICAL.
i hate the fact that everything was expensive.
siapa yang cakap pergi hk best shopping penipu besar! huh

now i'm back at manipal for my 2nd year, and hopefully final year here.
i had to give a lil speech to junior that day
kan dapat 4d. lol
i was a lil bit disappointed with myself because i didnt say all i wanna say
i guess i was nervous and i just want to get over with it.
and i ended up embarrassing myself.
nasib baik tak ramai datang haha.

i took part in the juniors orientation.
becoming a station master during the evening activity,
and performing dikir barat and flashmob during the dinner.
and yelling and laughing so loud that i lost my voice.
but it was good fun.

then the raya haji.
it was nice because we had two open house.
on the day itself, we had an open house for our classmates.
oh by we, i mean all the bds4 muslims.
my housemates and i masak roti jala.
we did that until 2 pagi.
nasib baik jadi and it was actually quite a hit. yeye
the 2nd open house we had few days after raya haji,
we cook nasi kerabu with daging bakar!
THAT WAS TOTALLY COMPLETELY A HIT!


















then did i tell you i'm now living in an apartment?
i have my own room again.
bayar mahal sket lah. and agak jauh.
but nevermind. ada hikmah dia tu
i'll show you the pictures.


living in your own house has its pros and cons.
the most important cons is you tend to get comfy and forgot that you're here to study,
that's what happened to me.
first block nie memang hancus.
tiap2 malam tengok movie. main2. tak study langsung
even nak test pon study bodoh2 je.
but on the bright side,i get to practice cooking.
and buying groceries,paying bills and all things grown ups do.
feel really matured.
feel like a 21 years old lady.
feel like a housewife. opps.





did i tell you i was thrown into batch b?
me and adl.
at first it was kinda suck because i'm used to being in batch a with all those people.
and because i got separated with that someone.
but later on i found out i rather be in batch b
than being in batch a and watch with envy.
i had MORE fun in batch b.
of course i got a little renggang with him,
tapi i dont think being in batch a will change anything.
people will still gossip him and her.
and gua makan hati.
so it is waaaayyy better to be in batch b and be ignorant of all that.
ignorance is bliss what.

so talking about the devil.
this year it was really awkward and weird and not at all like what we used to be
don't know what went wrong.
like he said, the chemistry wasn't there anymore,
i don't know what to talk about,
and he kept on keeping secrets.
not that i SHOULD know his secrets,
but i kinda terasa when he always says "ada hal"
like what hal sampai tak boleh cerita?
i did throw a small tantrum once.
and he did try to tell me what he 'hal'
but it didnt feel right you know?
like he's telling me not because he wanted to, but because he needed to.
so now i dont really tell him much
and he never tell me anything
anyway we dont spend much time together anymore.
we only have 1 hour theory class, and him coming late doesnt give us any time to catch up.

i remember we used to whatsapp all night long
and he once said, even if we are separated, 'whatsapp aku sentiasa terbuka utk kau'
kepala hotak dia. haha
even if i msg him, his replies wasnt earnest.
so i dont feel like talking to him.
so i didnt msg him.
and he never cares. wuwuwu sedih nya
HAHA

not being too close to him, i think i dont like him that much
i know i already said this,
but this time it's for real (kot)
because you see, i liked him because he was there for me.
now that he's not there anymore,why should i like him?
and he doesnt even like me in the first place HAHA

anyway, i read an article about ikhtilat.
and waktu tu pergh sentap habis!
because i was/still am like that
and that's why i tried to put some distance. like he didnt put already
i wanna be a good muslimah.

maybe actually this is all a sign that he wasnt THE one.
we're growing apart.
and we cant do nothing about that.
so let it be it.

by the way. apa panjang sangat cerita pasal mamat nie?
ish.
nak buat lil life update konon. cakap je lah nak berjiwang lol

oh nak cerita haritu pergi bangalore shopping.
habis duit.
so habis cerita. haha.

cuti feb nie papa and mommy datang.
i thought taknak balik lah kan.
dah bulan 8 nak balik for good (insyaAllah)
tapi sorang pon tak stay (not including the non-muslims and the boys)
so takkan aku nak melangu sorang2 10 hari lagi.
so aku bodek boss dan mungkin dah ada green light nak balik.
hik3.

anyway, i should be studying for the upcoming end block.
5 days more and i only baca 1 portion of microb.
3 subjek lagi ke laut ke?
taknak taknak. dr arun suruh dapat 4d lagi tahun nie
jum2 kita study.

till then,
toodles

love;

ndia :)

quick update.

assalamualaikum and hye bloggy.
its been sometime, right?
well there's so much to say.
like 1, i have finished my 1st year in BDS.
with flying colours. alhamdulillah :)
then 2, i'm back home for my 1 month holiday.
i arrived 2 days before raya. and raya was not a blast.
but nevermind. at least i'm home. hewhew.

there was so much to tell about the exams.
but now that i've pass it all, it didnt really matter.
so no story then haha.

about raya? nothing. really.
we dont really have an open house.
though some of my friends did came.
and the 3rd day we went to others open house.
the 4th and 5th day at terengganu for abe kay's wedding.
and thats my raya.

we went to sent adik to intec last week.
and on the way back we stopped at cameron highland.
its like a short vacation.

this coming wednesday i'll be going to kl with adani.
gonna do a pre-shopping before going to hk.
and visit kms.

oh this morning i cleaned the house.
felt really good after unleashing my inner neat freak lol.
and tomorrow imma clean my closet and my luggage.

and i still havent finish the book my akak usrah gave.
it was nice. but i have to focus to get what the author wanted to say.
so i keep on postponing that.
i'll read that after my kl trip, insyaAllah

so here's some pictures of my raya and short trip.

i think what made raya boring is because abang didnt come home. and because we are adults and we didnt get excited for raya anymore.

so thats all. talk to you later.

toodles/

love;

ndia :)

Finding love 2.

Since that day, Ashley was torn apart. Her plans were going well. Jake seems to be falling for her too. And she fell for Jake,she really do. But how can she love Jake if her heart was with Mike?

But Mike didnt know. He didnt even remember Ashley. And it hurts Ashley a lot, knowing the person who holds her heart thinks she is just another friends' friend. But what could a girl like Ashley do?

Days and nights Ashley spent thinking about a way to get Mike to remember her. Maybe,just maybe, if he remembers, and he feels the same way too, it will be clearer to Ashley.

She likes Jake,she really do. And she never want to hurt Jake's feelings, but now she was hurting. Confused. She was really at lost.

Then one day she thought of a way. She asked Mike out for a quick lunch, with the reasons of getting to know more about Jake from him. They ate,they talked. Yet Mike still show no signs of knowing Ashley before this. Then Ashley gave Mike a lollipop,one that he used to give her. Ashley searched his face for a flicker of recognization, but Mike just laughed and took the lollipop,not saying another word. Ashley gave the fakest smile ever, feeling her recently discovered heart breaking into pieces.

At home,Ashley wondered. How could Mike dont know her at all? Dont he ever think about her after kindergarten? Wasnt she special enough for him, the way he was to her? She knew it was stupid,it was 15 years ago. She dont really know what type of the person he has become. And he dont know her at all. But she hope he will. Maybe they can start again. Ashley and Jake are not exclusive yet,so why not?

But of course,fate meddles with you. A couple of days after the lunch, Jake asked Ashley out. On a saturday night. For a real date. It was romantic. They went to a restaurant near the beach, enjoying all the scrumptious seafoods. After that they went for a walk near the shore under the full moon. The sea breeze was gentle, and a gentleman Jake was, he offered her his jacket. Ashley could feel, with the pieces of her broken heart, that she was melting. And that was when Jake asked her to be his girlfriend. Ashley was stunned. That was all she has been wishing for since the first day she met Jake. But with Mike in the picture, she hesitated, only for a fraction of seconds.

Then she smiled sweetly at him, saying yes.
Maybe first love doesn't always worked out, she thought.

Tulistangan; Finding love

Love. What is love? Is liking the guy who gives you lollipops love? Or liking him because he plays with you in the kindergarten when no one else bothers? Or because of the facts that he has brown eyes and spiky hair? If that is love,then Ashley was in love.

And that was the only love,if it was love at all,that Ashley knew.

Mike had stolen her heart without knowing it. The way Mike looked at her,and smiled,and laughed,they all made Ashley's heart melt. She felt butterflies in her stomach,but she didnt know why. And when she told Mike about her stomach ache,Mike would laugh, dimples showing,eyes twinkling, and time would stopped.

After kindergarten,they went separate ways. And Ashley never hear from Mike again. And she never feel the butterflies. All she felt was the emptiness in her chest and she didnt know why.

Going through primary school,middle school,and high school was a breeze for Ashley. She was pretty,she scored well,she was not the mean girl. Guys fell at her feet,but she never really respond to any of them. She never really fall in love.

Her mom was worried that she wasnt pretty enough,wasnt popular enough that no boys were chasing her. But her dad was glad. He never want any immature irresponsible boys touching his little princess. But they didnt know,Ashley's heart was taken. Even Ashley didnt know that.

Sending Ashley to college with teary eyes,her mom told her something. Something like 'dont be afraid to fall in love. It happens'. But her dad said something else. Something wiser. He said 'your heart was taken. Find who took it'. Ashley smiled and hugged both of them.

Ashley settled in pretty quickly. She made friends like Jessica and Amanda. But they were not the reason why Ashley blushed. It was Jake. Jake the guy who accidentally bumped into Ashley,twice. Jake the guy with sparkling blue eyes,strawberry blonde hair and a crooked smile.
And Ashley smiled to herself thinking about that Jake.

Is this love? Ashley would wonder. And Ashley wondered what would Brenda the captain cheerleader do if she fall in love. Wear short skirts while cheering his name? Or what would June the smart Asian girl do? Maybe she will give him a really complicated equation explaining her feelings.
Then Ashley would laugh. But she realized,she was not Brenda or June,she has to do it her way.

And Ashley did it perfectly,the way she always do things.

First she started by becoming friends with Jake. It is the basic thing,of course she did that first. And it went well. With her sweetness and sense of humor,Jake became really comfortable with Ashley. They started studying together. Then they had lunches together. Next,they started hanging out during weekends. It went perfectly the way Ashley planned it to be.

Until one day when Jake introduce Ashley to his friend,Mike.
Suddenly Ashley felt happiness,beyond happiness,euphoria,contentment. Like finally her world makes sense.

Then Mike smiled,dimples showing, eyes twinkling.
And Ashley had found her heart back.

Marah.

Tau tak betapa susah nya aku nak buat2 biasa, nak buat mcm aku okay je biar pon dalam hati dah sedalam laut aku menangis?

Tau tak betapa sedihnya aku nak tegur kau?

Tau tak betapa pedihnya tgk kau xberapa layan aku tp dgn org lain rilek je kau gurau?

Weyh aku dah cuba sedaya upaya aku nak buat normal, tp kau buat taik dgn aku. Aku tak tau apa masalah kau.

Aku yg nak cuba lupakan kau. Tp kau yg tak pasal2 taknak cakap dgn aku. Apa masalah kau?!

Nak je aku confront kau depan2 td. Tapi aku tak kisah. Kau xnak ckp xpayah ckp.

Aku bukannya tak biasa hilang kawan.

Kau boleh jadi another one of them.

Sb skrg aku marah, aku nak ckp kau boleh pergi mamp.

Sekian terima kasih.

Contemplate.

A few days back i have made a decision. I decided to reverse. I decided to stop having feelings (whatever it is) for that one particular people.

Why?

Because people were saying. Saying things. Saying things about them. And it kinda broke my heart.

You know the feeling when you want something but people say it is not available? Or it is too expensive? Or you are never gonna be good enough to get it? That was how i felt.

The funny part is i didnt do anything before giving up. I was like hoping for something but never really do anything about it. And suddenly i just gave up. And why did i give up? Because people were talking. And it was just some rumors. It was nothing really. But it was the final straw. I just couldnt take liking someone and do nothing about it.

And now it got me thinking. Should i give up? It was just talks. Nothing more than that. Why did i decide to take a step back and not forward? Was it just an excuse to let go? Does this mean i didnt like him enough to hold on? Or it just didnt worth the hurt?

But i never try. How could i know whats worth whats not?

Maybe to risk a friendship is just too big a deal for me. I couldnt stand not having a friend like that so i just gonna step back and be thankful that we are friends.

In the meantime,just give me some times to heal my heart my way.

I just love what we have to throw it away.

Love;
ndia.

Malpe beach.

Its like our way of welcoming the new year.
We are actually celebrating our friends' birthday on december but accidently another friend's birthday is today. So a triple celebration it is.
We book a van for 6 am trip but after an hour waiting we decided to take the auto. The sun had already risen so we just sat and talked while waiting for the 2nd batch. And of course we took pictures. And ate some roti jala hehe.

So the 2nd batch arrived and after they took pictures we ate. Nasi with ayam masak merah and udang masak lemak. Kek batik (by me) and kek coklat. And we were so happy and sleepy. Some of them fell asleep.

Then i went parasailing. It was nice because you can fly. But it was all. And i was a little bit dissappointed.

Went back to the group and lied down. I hope people dont look bad at me because i lie down in between. I mean it wasnt really beside the boys but my head was next to theirs. And one of us took me photos. I just hope i look good in those. Haha

So we went home after that. I was so tired that my sleep was dreamless.

Enjoy some photos from me. Toodles :)

The Best of 2012

So here’s another series of the best of. And it was more like highlights of the year, because some of it is not really ‘best’. This year I’m going to arrange it in time wise, which is according to months of the events taking place. So here we go!

1. CNY

Most of us went home since it was 4 days holidays if I’m not mistaken. But me and adani decided to stay and went to KL to enjoy. So we went to Sunway Pyramid to try ice skating. And boy it was really really fun! I was quite good at it actually. And I bought my Charles and Keith purse. And I went home with a terrible ache on both my legs. But I think it was worth not going back home! And worth every single penny I spent travelling from Seremban to Subang Jaya.

2. The Moves

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I’m making any moves to get any guys I like. It’s because we moved from Balqis to Farabi, and then Farabi to Aisyah. And we do it all by ourselves. Imagine the things collected for 3 semesters, and we had to move them all by ourselves. Imagine the proud I felt. And the muscle spasm K

3. Tutors High Tea

And they made me a Math HL tutor. For real? So I tutored my friends, and then I got only 5 for my final. Really? But the highlight is I was invited for the high tea, where we can eat all we want. It was held at the hotel, and most of my friends were there so it was really nice. And the food is good.

4. Intensive Revision Program (IRP)

Or better known as RIP since we all felt dead during these few weeks! Woke up in the morning to study and in the evening study some more until night come only to study again. But why it was the highlight? Because the whole batch sat in the hall, and I actually had an awesome study group mates, and the Maths study group was really rocking my socks. And they provided biscuits and tea, which was really really nice, and kind of thoughtful.

5. IB Final Exam

This had to be the biggest exam in my life ever! I mean, 2 years struggling with IB, and it finally came to an end. Of course I was freaked out, I was nervous as hell. But I went through it, and we all went through it actually. The most noticeable thing was that I sat beside Adl, the genius boy. And of course it put extra pressure on me seeing him answering the entire Maths question that I left. But nevermind that. And another point worth remembering was the business students had 1 and only 1 paper left due Monday, where all the other non-business students had already celebrated their independence day. But we went through it too! Such a strong army aren’t we?

6. IB Grand Dinner

This has to be the biggest event, eh no scratch that, the 2^nd biggest event of the year. It was a night where it is accepted to wear 4 inch high heels and lots of makeup. So of course it made its way through my list. Thinking back, the dinner itself was nothing really. The food was okay, the performance yeah not bad, and then nothing. What I liked most was the fact that I get to take pictures with almost everyone, even ones that I do not really know! And oh we got such a cute door gift; a charm bracelet with our initials on it. It was really personal.

7. BTN

Really ndia? BTN? Well it was TOTALLY not the best of this year, but after grand dinner we all went home, and here we met again. And probably for the last time, for some of us. And it was nice meeting up with your friends, hiking and walking through the forest, sitting and sleeping in the classroom and all those stuffs.

8. BBQ/ Birthday Party

It was a combine event to celebrate my upcoming birthday and a BBQ for the USM girls that came to Kelantan. We ate lots of seafood and we went to play by the beach at 10pm, then we get some sleep. The next day we went to Rantau Panjang to do some shopping and we made a stop at Husni’s house. Did I already mention the handsome brother of hers? He is handsome, really. Anyway, we went to the masjid because it was some important night, and after that we went bowling. And I had to drive fast to get us in time to the bus station. Man it was crazy!

9. IB Result and Graduation Party

IB results were out the day before my birthday, so it could make or break my day, and you could understand my tension. But Alhamdulillah I scored pretty well and thus it really made my day J. The grad party was okay because we get to meet our friends for the last time (for some that won’t fly or that will go to other part of the world), the food was nice, and the best was because my dad and mum were there too. And actually the journey to and fro was exciting because I got to drive the Pajero Sport to 140km/hr wuhoooo!

10. Trip to KL with Adani

We actually planned to go enjoy all the rides at Genting Highlands Theme Park but somehow it was inconvenient thus we decided to stay at Yani’s house and went to Sunway Lagoon, One Utama and Midvalley to treat ourselves for our excellent results. I bought my Charles and Keith handbag at One Utama, and my 4 inch wedges. Why didn’t I bring that wedges to Manipal?!

11. Fly

September came and it was time for us to fly to India. Gosh it’s really happening. I’m leaving my family and friends behind to pursue my dream, to become a dentist. At the airport I see my friends cried hugging their families, but me, I didn’t cry at all, not a single drop of tear. And I was so proud of myself because I was such a cry baby, but I didn’t cry at that time. And then arriving India, I felt nothing. Maybe I was a little bit disappointed to come to such a less-developed country, but still I didn’t cry. I remember crying when unpacking, and that’s because I was stressed with something.

12. The Highlights in India

- went to Mangalore for the 1^st time and spent Rs5000 (RM300). I bought my Issey Miyake Pleats Please perfume.

- lower braces : 13^th Oct

- upper braces: 17^th Nov

- Sky Lantern Project. This is the 1^st and maybe the last time I ever lighted and released a lantern to the sky. It was really beautiful seeing all these lighted lanterns in the dark sky.

- fireworks: 13^th Nov. The fireworks were actually to celebrate Diivali, and it was a grand one.

- a visit from USM girls: 24^th to 26^th Nov. We just finished our 1^st block and they came and we were really enjoying our weekend, going to Mangalore again, eating at Asian Delight and just lepak-ing with Adani like it was old time :’)

13. Note 2!

I bought my new phone, Galaxy Note 2 not the less!

so i think that's all for 2012. a lot of things had happened in this year, making me confused at times that it was still this year i graduated IB. this year had been both good and bad, and i pray for the upcoming years to be better than this, amiin.
till then, toodles!

love;

ndia :)